>>12193 lol who said I didn't?

>>12195 If girls are normally your preferred type, but you still prefer that particular scenario with boys, then it seems like there's still some element missing from the girl version.

>>12196 No, I mean that that is similarly attractive, maybe not quite as much. I'm also not a girl and not a tranny so fantasizing that scenario is not the same since I don't visualize myself as part of the proceedings.

>>12197 I meant with mixed boys and girls, not all girls.

>>12198 Yeah for some reason that has limited appeal.

>>12188 That's possible. I grew up with the internet being accessible to me, but controlled. I started having wet dreams when I was 12 and that's what began my descent into online porn rather than the other way around. >>12190 Just because you want to be the potty pants little boy playing with similar kids doesn't mean you want to do anything inappropriate with them. There is nothing wrong with that.

>>12202 >Just because you want to be the potty pants little boy playing with similar kids doesn't mean you want to do anything inappropriate with them. There is nothing wrong with that. I don't think it's normal to get a raging erection over fantasies that aren't sexual.

>>12204 I frequently masturbate to fantasies of being a child again and using my diaper. That's it, zero sexual stuff beyond wetting/messing, but it turns me on to imagine doing it again as a child... is that a sexual fantasy? It gets me off, but in my head I'm just imagining how good it'd feel to wet a diaper.

>>12096 16 years old. To give a bit of context my family and I are pretty short and even at that age I was barely 5'0 and my siblings and I were slightly sheltered. For some reason my Sister and I decided to go to the store in our Footed Pajamas with our dad. Given our height we were never seen as weird and for some reason my sister made it known she grabbed a Huggies Pull-Up from our baby sister. I didn't think much of it at that point but during that week the interest got to me and I waited for a day I was home alone to try a diaper myself. I did the same thing and wore my footed sleeper with it. Tried to play some games but just the feeling of it stopped me from playing and led to me masturbating for the first time by trying to rub myself on the arm of a couch.

>>12141 Quiero pillarte

>>12204 >I don't think it's normal to get a raging erection over fantasies that aren't sexual. I agree it's not normal but that's basically the definition of fetishism Not that anon but I have very view directly sexual fantasies. I dislike cum in art, I don't like stories with sexual themes as in any kind of penetration... yet I find the idea of being spanked, put back in diapers, and breastfed intensely sexy. I can come just from sucking on my wife's nipples. My biggest sexual fantasy, I think, is probably that I would be reduced in age to around 11 month to 18 months old and my wife would adopt me, formally becoming my mother. In this fantasy, she knows I still have my adult mind, but she decides to train me down to behave more appropriate to my new physical body with classical conditioning, thinking it will make life easier for both of us since I won't be growing up again. I would get spankings for any words bigger than "mama" or "baba", nonverbal communications, not playing with my toys or using my diapers. Properly babyish behaviors like breast/bottlefeeding without a fuss, taking my nap without trying to climb out of my crab, using my diapers would be rewarded by cuddles and praise - maybe even sweets. There's a noticeable lack of traditional sexuality in this fantasy - indeed, if anything I would want my new mommy to remind me that sexuality is far, far out of reach for me ever again. Unlike the other anon, I don't have any interest in interacting with "other" children, though. My fantasy focuses on being submissive to mommy, and perhaps any babysitter/daycare worker she hands me off to.

>>12216 For what it's worth this is how I feel as well. For me, the innocence is the most exciting part of it - I'm not mature enough to handle big kid things like sex so instead the only intimacy I qualify for with a woman is cuddles, nursing and diaper changes.

I had dreams about diapers from as far back as when I was actually in diapers. I was potty trained at about 2 and a half. Didn't wet the bed either. But I remember that far back. It wasn't until some girl I knew announced she wanted to wear diapers again. Of course, she had just said it on a whim, which she did frequently. But it was at that moment I realized I actually liked diapers. I was age eleven. Up till that point, all my dreams about diapers had been nightmares where I couldn't get away from them. Thoughts of shame and horror. After that, it was a fantasy, but I could never get a hold of diapers in my dreams, always just out of reach. I was able to steal diapers and try them, but only for a while. At 13 I got internet and then found porn and diaper stories. (and pics of girls in diapers was almost certainly not legal.) I would read stories and browse these pics for hours. I even wrote some of my own stories. A couple years later and the dreams turned to wet dreams. I didn't like it and didn't know what it was. I never asked anyone and no one ever gave me 'the talk' This went on. Sometimes it would get to the point my balls would just hurt and hurt. I never said anything bcause I didn't know what to say or who to say it to. I had learned previously to hide my interest like the darkest secret. Only a couple people knew, back when I was a jewish, and I regretted ever saying anything once I realized they didn't like it like I did. It wasn't until I was 21. Yes, 21. I was playing some game with some sexy chick in it. I had a raging boner, which did feel good. But then I thought 'what if I touch it?' Up 'til that point I'd only read stories about being a kid again. I skipped all the sex because it didn't interest me. Never watch actual porn, just looked a pics of girls, then at some point women in diapers. So yeah, I actually never put any thought into masturbating. Anyway, I came in like two tugs. Probably squirted enough to drown a horse. Like years of pent up urges cause at some point the wet dreams stopped. That nut was like the best ever. But I could never go back to not doing it. I had to, so I did, a lot. I did slow down after a few years. But yeah, didn't tug it until 21. But looked at porn for years before. I'm sure that really helped me become a well-adjusted man.

>>12209 Sounds like Diaper fetish runs in the family

I think I was fourteen or fifteen when I started to masturbate. I didn't really know it was a thing though, and I didn't know about stroking until after I had cum for the first time. Basically I just started getting horny a lot, and I would have the desire to be naked when home alone, and started looking at a book I owned of ancient mythology that had a lot of old paintings of naked women and men that I found interesting. I eventually began to masturbate to it a lot, but then I discovered Internet porn and go into all sorts of fetish stuff like diapers. I was always kind of childish and still played with toys and drank from sippy cups at home until I was like 12, so I might have been predisposed to ABDL even though I never remember wearing diapers.

7, I did it with a stuff animal duck, more like it used it's "hands" It was a dominant mother figure in my head, not knowing what I was doing but it felt good. This kept up til I was 9 or 10 when I had to give away said stuff animal and just started to use my hand. But I think that ingrained in my head to being a submissive. Diaper thoughts were with me for a long time since I was like 3 or 4.

>>12230 Possibly given the situation. I could have sworn I saw diapers in her Amazon's search history but it's not something I would care to make share with my family regardless.

I was 13 and just have seen my sister and her girlfriends playing baby, using left over diapers that have been used on a big baby doll. Until then I was innocent, but then I tried it out in the same night. I put a diaper on, peed into it and LOVED the warm feeling around my dick. Two nights later I tried it again and then rubbed myself until something happened… Since then I am “ruined” and have the fetish.

Pre-ABDL, 12. I basically unknowingly made a makeshift diaper. Used worn socks and slowly created a mountain I could stuff in my pants. Started humping. Didn't know I was masturbating. This continued for like a week or two before I finally orgasmed. I was basically edging and didn't know it. When it came, I had a horrific panic attack. Knew about sex, but I didn't know about masturbation (pre-internet), and it took me minutes to sort out what it was. It hurt. A lot. I swore to myself that was the end of that. A week later, I was doing it all over again. ABDL... fourteen. Internet arrived. First adult wearing a diaper I saw online, and I was hooked. Ordered a sample pack from DPF; a First Quality diaper. Horrid by today's standards, but I was in heaven.

>>12204 Bro, that's why this is called a fetish. Feet or shoes aren't sexual either but some people get boner seeing them. And it's actually pretty common. From your description I can say 100% sure that you are not a pedo. And even if you were, there's nothing wrong with it as long as you don't abuse/harm anyone.

16 was when I finally felt like making myself cum. It was by humping. I started hrt at 15.

>>12096 Started humping my pillow around 8-9. Told my friends to do the same and they loved it. Didn't cum until like a year later and it freaked me tf out lol.

I started masturbating at 5 years old and it was to diapers lol

I think 11, I put a pillow in my pants and pretended it was a diaper

I was 11 or 12. Around that time was when I figured out I had this fetish too. I'd grab a towel and use safety pins to make a mock diaper, then I'd rub over the towel till I came. Thank fucking god I knew how to do laundry at that age, never got found out. A few years later I learned about internet porn. I had slim pickings back then for diaper porn. I'd use my PSP to find them on my wifi and download them to a SD card, then hide the SD card so I didn't mix it up with my games card. The PSP was somewhat new at the time and I was in middle school. This was also pre-halfchan so I couldn't even look for threads there. I still see some of the 2D pics I jerked to 16-17 years ago posted in threads sometimes; time flies.

disclaimer I put my "first" diap when I stole it from a cousin that was visiting us with my godmother when I was 5. since then I was putting a teddy bear between my legs to sleep, under my pjs, to make it feel like a diap. I realised what I was doing was sexual years later, as when you're like 6 and summing you don't really make much out of it beyond it's nice and "I made teddy wet" not really "adult" baby there...

>>12096 when I was 9 I put my groin over the pool filter and i didn't cum necessarily but i went through the motions

I must have been about 9 or 10. I remember seeing a scene where the bully kid in Foster's Home for Imaginary friends got scared and pissed himself. I felt funny when I saw it so I wanted to reenact it in my room. To make myself pee "accidentally" I took my mom's back massager and held it on my bladder and dick. I felt pressure building up and I eventually lost control and kind of peed/came at the same time. It felt really good and I immediately associated loss of control and peeing with sexual pleasure. I peed my underwear sitting on the toilet a few times and then moved on to diapers that were still around the house in closets and stuff so I could do it anywhere and skip the mess.

4 years old when I started masterbating

>>17168 >>14391 yeah I was humping my diaper during naptime on the mat in daycare/preschool

>>12096 >be 12 >laying on bed >go to get off bed >head of penis rubs against bed >cum buckets in pants >omg what was that, it was awesome It was the only way I masturbated until about 16, I had to hump and rub my dick against something (pillow, bed, floor, stuffed animal) always clothed just in case someone came in. Even after 16 I would still rub through my pants but I could do so without having to lay down hump and squish my dick against something. Now I just have my CG do it or hitachi wand over my diaper and all my loads end up in my padding.

>>12096 I was 17. I started doing it because My balls were uncomfortable, I remember I would go home, and masturbate for 1 hour every day, To try and get myself to orgasm. Eventually it worked and it felt pretty good.

20. Was 2 years into my first sexual relationship but had never orgasmed. Turned out there was a buildup of smegma inside my foreskin that had hardened into a cement-like consistency. It was my partner's first time with an uncircumcised man, so she didn't realize anything was amiss. It loosened slowly over time as a result of sex. Removed it in a shower, started orgasming during sex. About a year later, experienced blue balls while partner was away. I do not recommended the dick cheese cement experience.

I first started when I was about 12, i'd be lying in bed late at night on my ipod browsing the internet, mostly watching youtube and cartoons before I started getting curious and looking at porn. While lying on my stomach and with my dick facing downward eventually i'd sort of gyrate and use my hand to press down onto my dick until I orgasmed (I wasn't even sure if it counted as masturbating at the time, i knew what masturbation was but I wasn't cumming or doing the normal stroking method I I wasn't certain for a while) I kept this up for a while utill I actually started cumming, at which point I stopped because I knew i'd get caught if I started leaving stains in my bed or my underwear. Then at some point I started connecting those feelings with the ones I had about wearing diapers (cause like many people here i'd always felt weird about wanting to wear diapers without knowing why/still being embarrased by the idea) and so I managed to get ahold of some diapers, put one on late one night and masturbated into it, which was an enlightening experience because it felt like some sort of answer to questions i'd been having for as long as I could remember.

>>12096 It was freshman year of highschool. Seems like a switch flipped internally because my buddies from middle school were suddenly hot AF. One in particular I had the hots for. He was my dorky friend and we'd both regularly get picked on since we both had a lot of classes together. Gym especially since we'd get tackled, balls thrown at the back of our heads, shit like that so we'd sit and talk and have a good time. After class though when we were changing back I'd change at light speed just to rush over and watch him undress. He always wore the tightest briefs and the way they hugged his butt just made me melt. My first time masturbating it was late at night I just couldn't get the thought of him out of my mind. I imagined his soft cock pressing against me though his tighty whities as he looks up at me with his adorable smile. I didn't know about lube or lotion or anything so I just started humping my mattress out of instinct after a long while and 2 breaks I finally came. It was my first awake orgasm and I just laid there in my cum soaked sheets before finally realizing I fucked up and tried cleaning it with toilet paper. The next morning I told my mom I wet the bed because for some reason I thought it was less embarrassing than explaining what I just did. I had to wear some cool training pants for a while

I was about 13 I think. I was up extremely late channel surfing in my room when this documentary about nudism came on. I was watching and touching down there, not really understanding what I was doing, just knee it felt great. I also really really had to pee, like painfully bad but I couldn't tear myself away. When I did finish it was like almost painful but in an extremely good way. It was also a dry orgasm so the next time I tried it out that was a surprise.