Long story short, bf is okay with the idea of diapers in the future, but not something he's interested in now. He's very much a daddy, and knows that I'm very much a little, but there's lots going on right now in his life and I have a feeling he knows how deep I'll fall into my headspace with one on. But I haven't worn since we got together(about 8mo ago), and really really want to. I ordered a pack of my favorites and am thinking about getting a hotel for myself after the holidays so I can wear and be in my headspace for awhile. A little staycation if you will. The main reason I'm thinking a hotel is privacy, and freedom. I wouldn't feel comfortable wearing at the house knowing he's not interested in it currently, and I certainly know that I *would* fall deep into my headspace and I don't want to put that responsibility on him. I already get teary sometimes when I'm little and he's not capable of being in daddymode, and a diaper would likely be a whole-day thing, not just a few minutes of headspace. But part of me thinks maybe that's wrong getting a hotel? Like it's a form of cheating but not? I don't think I'd tell him I'm going to a hotel(partially out of embarrassment, partially because he might not believe I'm really going alone). The other part of me feels like it's a bit depraved to spend $60-120 just so I can wear in peace. Are there any other alternatives that I'm not seeing? Is it weird to get a hotel to just to diaper up and have a solo little night? Do I just keep the diaps hidden in my closet for awhile until he possibly comes around to the idea?