>>1029
Soon after making that post, I really started to settle in to my denial. I started feeling good about it. Almost empowered. Sure, I was horny, but I no longer felt a strong desire to squirt.
I was trying to do everything I could to help get myself that feeling back. Edging multiple times a day, listening to hours of FSU files a day, watching porn that I used to have trouble keeping it inside to.
My mind felt normal, clear. I was no longer the pile of mush that I wrote about in that last post.
I then came across one of the files as I slept that talked about how superior women wanted to cause confusion and now allow this type of things to happen. The file talked about how a superior woman might, out of nowhere, make someone squirt multiple times without any explanation at all. Simply to regain control of someone who had accepted the denial and thought he no longer needed to squirt. I don't know the name of this file since I was sleeping at the time, and I remember hearing a bit of it as I rolled over in my sleep, but I wish I could find it.
Anyway, this made me realize that this feeling of comfort and empowerment was far from what a superior woman would want. This past Saturday, I set multiple alarms for myself: 9am, noon, 3pm, 6pm, and 9pm. Every time the alarm went off, I was required to squirt. I hadn't squirted since September 20th, and was now requiring myself to do it 5 times within 12 hours.
I'm not going to go into the details, but my first squirt was the biggest dribble I've ever seen in my life. Of course, I placed it directly into a tissue and flushed it straight down the toilet. The next squirt was more of a normal sized load. The next 3 squirts were hardly a dribble, and it began to get quite painful and hard to accomplish by the end. However, I did so, cleaned up, immediately locked myself up in chastity, and went to bed while listening to some FSU files.
Other than a quick daily cleaning, I've been locked in chastity since. I've been listening to FSU files all night, plus 8 hours minimum during the day.
I plan to continue this every day for the remainder of the month.
My mind is once again mush. 3 days after these squirts, I am more desperate for release than I was as the time of writing my previous post. My mind is constantly in a state of arousal and submission. I am constantly seeking out ways to help improve the lives of as many superior women as I can. I've ordered an even smaller chastity cage, as this one is not nearly tight enough. It is incredible how quickly my ego got put into check, and how inferior I am feeling. But the feeling of serving women is much better than any silly feeling of empowerment I've ever had.