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"NO YOU WON'T, I CAN'T LET YOU
I felt all the energy runs through my arms as my anger and my passion raised throughout my whole body and soul.
I won't answer that anger that you need of me, that you ask of me.. HOWEVER, I WILL AND SHALL NEVER LET YOU PUT YOUR HANDS DOWN ON HER
I was willing to get out now, at any cost. I gathered all the power running free through me and hit the ground with all the strength I had in a significant blow. The whole ground broke like a mirror hit by a rock thrown upon. The whole universe around me started moving and I found myself being projected at incredible speed across space, through what looked like a giant blue tunnel. I was still standing, but the whole surrounding was going at light speed.
I was still feeling its presence, while that aura of malice issuing from him sooner had vanished apparently.
But I wasn't willing to let it go like this.
I had to push it forward, and I knew how and why.
You won't indeed force your way into this place, into my heart
I've been willing to protect it as well as those from the others from all of you evil-doers. But the heart of this person is special to me. I-I…
I found myself hesitating. I felt deep inside that something was happening and it was time to admit it. Letting the thought invade my whole spirit I found myself again shaking out of resentment and happiness. It felt awesome.
I WILL COME OUT OF THIS PLANE AND SHOW EVERYONE WHAT WE ARE GOING TO DO AND SUCCEED. I AM GOING TO FINALLY PROVE THE WORLD AND THE UNIVERSE IS READY TO KNOW ABOUT YOU AND YOUR ACTIONS
I felt the emotions rushing through my spirit like they never did before. It was all getting faster, and as I couldn't do anything about it I wasn't willing to at the same time. I wanted to let it all out, to express finally what I felt deep inside for so long, to raise my head toward the sky, see the stars and reach for their lights, so far away, yet so beautiful and needed for everyone of us. I wanted so strongly to be the light myself for others, to guide them upon the universe and show them the way of salvation.
And.. I thought about her. Since I met her, something had changed. I could feel her presence even before meeting her.
I enjoyed her smile and her behavior all the time.
I realized among years I've been sharing a lot of common points with her. More than I wished I could admit and realize.
And I started caring for her, because of how she cares for others as I do. This was that simple, and I grew this feeling overtime, never pushing away the feelings it gave me but still quiet enough not to tell her.
I just never experienced something like this.
But now I feel it. I am able to feel it and to live it. It makes me even more willing to live and to fight, for her, to stand for smile and protect her, to strive to keep her at my sides. Because, and I can finally admit it..
".. I LOVE HER"
YOU'RE NOT GOING TO TAKE THAT AWAY FROM ME, YOU'RE UNABLE TO. I WILL FIGHT UNTIL THE END TO KEEP HER SAFE, TO CONTINUE HAVING A REASON FOR LIVING AT ALL. SHE IS THE PERSON I LOVE ABOVE ALL AND SHE IS WHY I WAS BORN AND GETS TO RAISE OFF THE GROUND. I'VE BEEN MEANING TO PROTECT HER FROM THE VERY START AND NOW I KNOW I HAVE TO TELL HER.
I started screaming with all my being my last words
I LOVE HER, AND I SHALL LET THE FLAME OF LOVE HITS MY SOUL AND LET THE SPARKS OF HOPE BRIGHTEN THE WHOLE UNIVERSE, FOR THE LIGHT WILL ALWAYS TRIUMPH OUT OF THE DARKNESS !
As I shouted the last words, the whole tunnel stopped moving and became as bright as a Sun.. while not being blinding at all. The whole surroundings had turned completely white indeed.
I wasn't feeling the bad spirit presence anymore. It has been vanishing since I started expressing.
Far away from me I noticed a door far in the background, using my powers to gets a closer view. I had found the way out after all it seems.
I started walking calmly, for now I knew where I was going to.. for sure.
And this, /mai/dens, is autism/post. It is a part of my head cannon, the one I already told people about and got to develop along 11 years.
I'm so fucking happy I got to relieve this now. I'm also fucking sorry if this just looks like autism, but I love it, and won't ever turn my head away from that dream.