>>70015
>I feel like a fucking freak because I have such longings for someone that's not real.
I was in your exact same situation when I started, and I still feel like that at times. But remember, you may be a weirdo but there's people far worst than you in terms of batshit
I hope and when you think about it, its not really that uncommon, people falling in love or developing crushes on fictional characters were always a thing.
It's up to you to embrace it or not, as for how, I dunno it works differently for everyone, you should start by making peace with yourself and your situation, stop worrying about why you prefer 2D over 3D or if its normal, and of course its not, deal with it. Who knows, it may even be just a phase.
>>70029
>I have been scared to be in a relationship is because I don't think I could actually be faithful. I guess I just recently met her
From what I'm reading seems like what stops you from accepting your feelings is that you'll miss life experiences like sex or having a family, which is understandable. There's nothing you can do about it once you're committed, if you don't feel like doing that, then don't be a waifufag. Besides those love feelings you describe are basically new, give it time and see if it fades.
tldr just dont be a fag and take your time to process everything.