>>70734 Hi and welcome to /mai/. It appears you had quite negative experiences in other communities regarding your love for Chris (I assume she is your waifu considering you posted a pic of her) that leaved a painful impact on you. >fuck the other waifufags that spent a year driving me insane saying fucked up things about her and me. What did they say about you and Chris? In what communities were you? Were they Symphogear communities or waifuist communities? >Somehow its my fault though for not being delusional and wanting to make headcanon or something. I’m not sure to understand what you mean here. Can you elaborate? >There is no reason I should have been okay with being told that I should want her to be gay or bein shitty yuri pairings I shouldn't have to be into that trash fetish to love her. I shouldn't have to think it would be ever okay for her to want anyone but me. Thats fucking bullshit. You felt these people were trying to impose to you a vision of Chris that was incompatible to yours. It sucks to feel forced into adopting a specific vision, especially if it does not align to ours, and even more if it’s about someone or something we care a lot about… >I still love her. Fuck every hater. Im not insane for what I did. It still remains unclear to me what you did. Can you elaborate? >Ofc I dont follow "waifuism" tenets or rules or whatever. Apparently that meant my love wasn't serious or real too. Could you also clarify what you mean by that? >She's been the only thing that ever made me have any real contention in my life and I've finally been getting in the habit of waling up huggling my big soft fluffy pillow like I used to before everything went to shit. Hopefully in time I can shave off of some of the bitterness I've collected. I probably won't ever be like how I was but I can't go through with not trying to pick everything back up. All I known in my life is hell anyway. I needed her in my life. If only she had been real to take it all out of me. Although it remains unclear to me what you are talking about, it seems you went (and still go through) a very difficult period and that’s very unfortunate. I hope Chris can help you get through it… I hope you will have a better experience here on /mai/ than on those other communities. We’re not here to tell you what to do, think, or feel. We’re simply a place in which, I hope so, waifuists can share their experience and continue to live their relationship in a satisfying and meaningful way.

>>70736 >It appears you had quite negative experiences in other communities regarding your love for Chris (I assume she is your waifu considering you posted a pic of her) that leaved a painful impact on you. Yeah, 4chan has the worst communitiwes anymore. Hugboxes or other trash. Tulpas are looked up to as a good thing and not a mental illness. Nothing but pure escapism and acting like that is somehow self improvement. You have to be likable agreeable and a "fren" qnd i am not a team player or a particularly pleasant person. I am an asshole who calls it like I see it. Like it or not so they got really mad over time. I also used to shitpost them heavily a few years ago before Chris. So whatever. peopel were nice to me before they realized who I wasand so they spent most of 2020 conasnatly bombarding me with fucked up things about her that weren't true until I lsot my mind about it, combiend with all the irl stuff going on the past two years ruining my life. It was too much. So once I flipped out at her/about her it became a super epic meme. Now I only go to /r9k/ waifu threads to derail them and post her other places and keep to myself. People still get pissy though that I want kids and that is a big deal to me, I don't see the point to living if you don't reproduce and I guess waifufags these days take that as some kind of offensive. I am supposed to think only building a shrine is what matters, and I am supposed to hate 3Ds and think of wanting kids as bad. Seems to me like a lot of the waifufags there these days just hate themselves and humanity due to various childhood traumas probably. They're nice at a surface level and if you're to their liking through. One of them also got other faggots from the symphogear general to shitpost me too. "She deserves better, you would only remind her of cartel niggers that raped her, she's gay cuz we say so cuz gay is good het evil, you're body is too sickly she knows her worth" it just wouldn't stop. It mostly fucked me up because after finding Chris I thought I would try and make friends and become a not shitty person for her, but hey that was stupid of me I guess. I am rather honey badger like, No matter how weak, broken or sick I get I am also aggressive, and combative enough to bite and bark at everything that pokes me. >I’m not sure to understand what you mean here. Can you elaborate? Apparently accordigbn to most, yoou are suppsoed to make "you own version of her" which as far as i am concerned is stupid and not what I want to do. I love her and I feel and think that doing such a thing is just trying to make some kind ioof personal jesus thing to cope with whatever in your life rather than confronting problems and facign them. It also seems to me like idk disregarding who she really is and jsut making her fit your own wants and whatever. You know an inability to handole potential conflicts with someone you love. I just don't have autism and don't have that kind of a mindset. I would rather she disagree with me or have differences to me. Conflict and sorting it out together and both learning or growing sounds fun. Hard sure, but I ain't no bitch nigga. >You felt these people were trying to impose to you a vision of Chris that was incompatible to yours. Oh it was a big deal to say she isn't gay, and to also by extension say not really any of the Gear girls are gay. Yeah yeah Hibki and Miku are a couple, but I don't at all think it is "gay" as much as it is they jsut love each other. And Maria and Tsubasa always seemed like more of a bromance kind of a thing. But due to LGBT faggots anything liek that is automatically "REPRESSED GAY URGES" which is bullshit. It is no different than those assholes who say Astolfo is a tranny because he wears a skirt. No he is not a tranny or gay. He just doesn't give a shit and likes being cute. Fucking mentally ill sick fetish freaks I fucking swear. One of the biggest things to make me lose my mind about Chris were faggot lgbt peopel in the sympohogear general screaming that because I want kids with her I must only want women for a womb, which I mean it is kind of true.. Why the fucking shit am I supposed to think it would be bad to make a kid though? "oh you should only adopt or let her be gay" Fuck that. I said some fucked up things as a result of shit like that being pressed on me constantly and it really is just me hating this disgusting agenda to make gay normal and hetero some kind of bad controlling evil thing. Feminism (modern) and lgbt shit has ruined society as far as I am concerned. I am unironically set to have a stroke sooner or later from them. Part of it all too was people insisting I shouldn't even care if she was gay. Like I should love a girl who is gay and that's fine? Literally how would that be fine? Oh just be a cuck bro! If you love her being friends is good enough! Like, loving someone, and "this is good enough" that sounds entirely wrong and stupid as fucking shit to me, and I can not be nice about stuff like that. Fuck them. Fucking stupid. Platonic love is better than romantic? No it fucking isn't that is just being some simp or loser "friend". Creepy if anything. You can not have a marriage or a long term relationship with someone who isn't the same sexuality as you. That is just delusional "screw hetero normies reee" bullshit. And ifc they also say I'm schizo for giving a shit and not just making headcanon. Which seems backwards as fuck to me but whatever. >Could you also clarify what you mean by that? I don't believe tulpa shit and head canon to make her fit your wants of avoiding hypothetical conflicts with her is okay. Making up opinions that fit your own wants and saying "she is definitely that way". And like I said I am supposed to not want kids irl or anything irl relationship because of some imposed spirituality that your waifu MUST be real and MUST have feelings for you. Which makes zero sense to me. I just don't impose my fantasies and desire to be with her over the reality of her not existing. I fail to see how abstaining from real life means you're devoted or in love with an anime character. Just seems like a bitter "I hate life!" thing to do. I am doing better about my feelings for her recently. However my physical health and overall mood are still pretty bad. Lots of health problems through that aren't really about her though. She helps it, but it's still stressful and depressing. I think I deserve it though for being so horrible about her in 2020. I can and will never stop feeling terrible about that. My fault or not. Doesn't matter.

>>70773 Has the worst communities for waifu stuff I meant.

I guess I'm not welcomed here either huh? Not a "real" waifufag or something stupid I guess huh? Well whatever., Would probably get mad at me for being a hard ass and living in reality instead of hugbox feely sensitive sperg bullshit. I don't understand modern waifufags, if you hate real life so much why not kill yourselves?

>>70775 I planned to reply to you on the weekend, if possible. I’m busy with work during the week (and sometimes even during the weekend to some extent) and as your post was long and contained many details to address, I did not have the time to do it right away. It’s sad that you so quickly come to the conclusion that you are rejected by others. It hasn’t even been a full week since you replied to my post (your reply which, by the way, took you a whole month to post). You are welcome to post here, but understand that people can have their own personal reasons, fully unrelated to you, that can explain why they don’t reply as soon as you would wish. And sometimes, they might not even reply at all, for a variety of reasons other than "I don’t want this guy to be here". So please be patient and don’t assume the worst in others.

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>>70776 Well she wouldn't like me anymore anyway. People think I should want adoption or to raise bastard unwanted kids and live for love instead of valuing myself and the self is genetics souls and other nonsense do not exist. I no longer have what she has of giving a shit about others and being nice. Honestly every morning I wake up I think of how I should kill at a massive scale since no one thinks reproducing matters anymore and they think love love love and being a cuck who raises another mans kid is goo. Its disgusting feminized female empathetic behaviours to say your own self doenst matter and people need you as a servant more. Like holy fuck other peoples kids. Stupid cuck shit. Anyway. So once the doctors confirm that their neglect cost me my fertility Im going to go on tv for terrorism. Just that simple. Other people's bastard cuck babies should die in the gutters. I was okay with adoption until people said having your own shouldnt be a big deal. Pisses me off but itll be great when I explode and make a big fucking mess. My life has always been shit and if I cant ever have the quaint shit I wanted for myself then no one should have anything. I will build a babel of skulls to meet the supposed god and spit in its face. Thats what Ill do. Become a legend.

>>70813 >Thats what Ill do. Become a legend Mass shooters/killers have become so common that they are forgotten after two weeks at most. Going on a killing spree won't make you a "legend", only another statistic that may be quoted by a bill focused on crippling yet another freedom.

>>70815 Not necessarily a mass shooter, but something. People piss me off and I don't give a fuck about living for others. Hell, I go out of my way to watch animals like monkeys be tortured anymore. Suffering of others is nice. Making life worse for people weaker emotionally than me and such. But anyway yeah. I want to make the world worse and shit. Fuck love and peace and all of that. Domination ftw. Fuck serving others. Fuck helping anyone. All that matters is the self. Waifu shit is kind of stupid to me anymore now. I'd rather have kids and reproduce and make more like me. Psychopathy is truly based.

>>70816 >Waifu shit is kind of stupid to me anymore now. Then may I ask you why you post here? This is a waifuist community after all, and so far, you told us far more about your hatred of everyone than your love for your waifu. What do you want exactly from this community? Are you sure you are at the right place to get what you are looking for?

>>70818 Because waifu communities are his only friends.

>>70818 Well it would be nice if I could have been allowed to love her but no. Im supposed to think having kids isnt okay Im supposed to think her doing gay lesbo shit is cute Im supposed to not want anything in real life Im supposed to not fap or sexualize or fantasize about other characters. As if the waifu is somehow able to know or care or interact with me about it. Fucking insane religious behaviour Im supposed to respect schizophrenic tulpa shit Im supposed to not be mean in the slightest and hugbox every fucking autistic crybaby that cant talk to "normies" its fucking stupid. So many of them are honestly pathetic I cant fucking stand it. Also I am expected to treat loving sn anime girl as sacred. Please explain why the fuck having a waifu needs to mean being a baby with other waifufags and bitch about real life and live in a fucking fantasy like a sad fuck and hating and denying myself any real life pleasure or relationships and why I shouldn't hate the gay shit she gets wrapped up with. Why the fuck does having a waifu need to be treated like a fucking religion or cult. She isnt real. Alternate realities are not a fact. Tulpas are not alive or sentient. It is mental fucking illness. And love is about more than just feelings. Fucking simp shit. The fact that waifufags think I should want platonic trash is a problem enough a sit is. Being friends with her would be awful. Wife and sex and baby making or what would the point be? Fuck that new age modern having kids is bad bullshit. Hell most waifufags have never had a relationship So they honestly know fuck all and I am so sick of this "love psychology expert" schtick that they all fucking have. Somehow I was a shitty waifufag for bot wanting to share her and wanting her to only be hetero if she was with me and wanting kids that have my DNA only is somehow wrong. Like how the fuck would it be love if you settle on friendship. Thats cuck logic bullshit. No one is worth being a cuckold for. Yeah I would hate her and maybe hurt her if she gave me some shallow bitch reason to not even give me a chance. Why the fuck would I keep loving her if she told me she was gay? Why the fuck too is head canon supposed to be a good thing? That isn't love. That's a pathetic fucking cope to try to overwrite a fictional character instead of just finding another or a reap person. Fucking stupid. >>70825 Why do you people act like having a waifunis sacred. Oh no I got sick of shit and broke a ten dollar piece of fucking acrylic Literally who cares. You act like any image of an anime girl is a sacred gift from the gods. Any merch is to be worshipped and shit. Its mentally fucking ill. Fuck that. I shouldn't have to be a retard like you who thinks anime girls are alive somewhere watching us.

>>70831 No one is saying or has said that you aren't allowed to love her. The problem is that you imagine people attacking you when they're not, which leads to people baiting you, which then leads to you overreacting and writing fanfics where you beat and rape your supposed lover. >Why do you people act like having a waifunis sacred. Oh no I got sick of shit and broke a ten dollar piece of fucking acrylic Literally who cares. You act like any image of an anime girl is a sacred gift from the gods. Any merch is to be worshipped and shit. nah nigga, we're laughing AT you. You having a mental breakdown and destroying merch of your waifu because of some randos on the internet is fucking hilarious. >Its mentally fucking ill. I'm begging you to please gain some self awareness

>>70832 >problem is that you imagine people attacking you when they're not I do not. I just am not nice about retarded opinions and shit from others and am combative. >we're laughing AT you Cool cause I laugh at most of you laughing at me and being so damn obsessed about me and thinking anime girls are sacred >destroying merch of your waifu because of some randos But why does it matter so much to you. It's literally just some acryillic shit. Oh its because you think I was suppsoed to make head canon right. Oh yeah, cause that totally makes sense to do. Yeah man, make your own personal version of an anime girl. Bro if someone is actualyl that loenly that they get the idea to do that they should probnably go outside and go do real shit. As far as I can see most of the 4chan waifufag places hate me for not being "serious" or basically detached from wanting real life shit or whatever. >No one is saying or has said that you aren't allowed to love her. Bullshit. For nearly an entire year all that would be said daily numerous tiems was "haha she's a lesbian" or "your health is shit she wouldn't love you" or "your too poor for her" or "she's too talented for you" or "she's too nice you big meanie >:(" or "reee toxic male" >please gain some self awarenes I do have awareness, but no one elses wants coem before mine. Fuck that others shit. Ego all the way. You just want me to be part of your "community values" and make havign a waifu soemthign exclusive to your retard group by approving of others and harassing the shit out of them to stop waifuing if you disapprove or ree at them to fuck off. I love posting porn in your threads and getting those other few to do so too. You peopel actually act liek sexualizing an anime girl is a sacred act, must be treated with utmost respect. It's too crazy for me to not shitpost and derail your threads about. It's funny as fuck how a little bit of hentai from a fucking booru makes you all shut down and freeze up like the thread has been tainted. Fucking crazy, and you take every single post as if it must be serious and not intentionally written up to derail and eat into your heads to ruin the threads. So goddamn stupid. Also being in your discord for so long definitely showed me how fucked in the head and self hating so many of you fucks are. Constant fucking self put down and enabling each others worst behaviors its fucking garbage. Most of you have waifus as a fucking coping mechanism because of your own fucking problems and god forbid you ever accept that about yourselves.

OP is a notorious shitposter on 4chan waifu threads and some other threads too. He's quite deranged and even doxxed himself once so people know his real name. I think this thread speaks for his mental state.

>>70833 >But why does it matter so much to you. It's literally just some acryillic shit. It's funny. It's hilarious. I like things that make me laugh. When I see that image, I don't think "That guy broke the waifu tenants by breaking merch of her >:(". I think "Wow, this guy's a fucking schizo". What about this concept is so hard to understand? >Bullshit. For nearly an entire year all that would be said daily numerous tiems was "haha she's a lesbian" or "your health is shit she wouldn't love you" or "your too poor for her" or "she's too talented for you" or "she's too nice you big meanie >:(" or "reee toxic male" You're getting baited, dude. You've shown many times that you'll get worked up and respond to even the shittiest of bait. Literally just stop responding and people will eventually stop trying to clown on you. You seem to like the attention, though. Why else would you refuse to fuck off? >I do have awareness, but no one elses wants coem before mine. Fuck that others shit. Ego all the way. You just want me to be part of your "community values" and make havign a waifu soemthign exclusive to your retard group by approving of others and harassing the shit out of them to stop waifuing if you disapprove or ree at them to fuck off. I love posting porn in your threads and getting those other few to do so too. You peopel actually act liek sexualizing an anime girl is a sacred act, must be treated with utmost respect. It's too crazy for me to not shitpost and derail your threads about. It's funny as fuck how a little bit of hentai from a fucking booru makes you all shut down and freeze up like the thread has been tainted. Fucking crazy, and you take every single post as if it must be serious and not intentionally written up to derail and eat into your heads to ruin the threads. So goddamn stupid. Also being in your discord for so long definitely showed me how fucked in the head and self hating so many of you fucks are. Constant fucking self put down and enabling each others worst behaviors its fucking garbage. Most of you have waifus as a fucking coping mechanism because of your own fucking problems and god forbid you ever accept that about yourselves. I'm not reading this, but I'm going to assume it's about some super sekrit waifu club that doesn't exist and is entirely in your head. also >Cool cause I laugh at most of you laughing at me and being so damn obsessed about me and thinking anime girls are sacred sounds like cope senpai I love Chris Yukine!

>>70834 Maybe because you fags are a cult and fucking crazy. Demanding I be nice and coddling and other shit, or hate niggers and jews, or not talk about scary music or anything that isn't basically the same echo chamber shit as the rest of you. No looking at other anime girls. No real life relations. Come on that's nuts. In fact what did I ever do to you to make you hate me? Say I'd rape her if she was gay? Yeah cause a gay girl is totally worth loving when they wouldn't ever want anything to do with you. >Why else would you refuse to fuck off? Fuck the people that drove me crazy with their bullshit about her. Fuck their threads too. I got enough time to fuck up their threads on 4chan no reason not to considering how shitty they are. I never did anything to begin with. People jsut drove me insane insisting I should liek her if she was gay and that's bullshit. Straight peopel and fags can't be together. Doesn't really matter. Any time I did try to post nice shit I got shitposted about her. Why wouldn't you people just let me post here even? What the fuck is your problem? There is no reason for me to think she would hate me, the only reason I'm so shitty and fucked up anymore is because of peopel like you being cunts about me loving her for no real reason. You act liek I need to be some good upstanding stuck asshole holier than others and other stupid shit. Any time I was nice to peopel there they were jsut cunts. Always bitching because I was never nice about their fringe schizo religious bullshit about anime girls.

Liek was i seriously supposed to write borderline poetry cringe shit daily weeping for and anime girl to count as loving her or some shit? Really I don't get what I did that made everyone hate me all the time. Talking about not paying taxes and not working usually pisses peopel off I guess. Gotta contriboot to da group. I find it amazing though that you peopel need to ree at me any time I post Chris anywhere and go on and on about how "horrible I am" because you want to "save her" from being associated with me right?

>People think I should want adoption or to raise bastard unwanted kids >Well it would be nice if I could have been allowed to love her but no. >The fact that waifufags think I should want platonic trash >etc. As I said, no one here is pushing you to do or believe anything regarding Chris, or anything else for that matter. You are bringing drama from elsewhere into our community. I’m sorry if you had negative experiences elsewhere, but don’t bring it here. You had a chance to start anew here, but instead of just introducing yourself and trying to build connections with us, you went on a massive rant, vomiting your hatred about people of your previous community, and then your hatred of mankind as a whole. A minority of people here happen to know you already, which did not include me. I tried my best to listen to what you had to say and let you know that you could get a positive experience here in our community. But then you overreacted because we did not provide a second reply as soon as you would have wanted, and then told us "why not kill yourselves?". Even after that, I replied to you in a friendly manner, once more showing you my intention of developing a positive bond. Then you replied to me about doing mass killing, doing terrorism and spiting in god’s face. What kind of impression do you think it leaves on me (and everyone else in this community)? Do you think it will help you integrate? Don’t you think that, somehow, such attitude could contribute to your interpersonal difficulties? In a very patient gesture, I finally asked you what you wanted exactly from our community, but you failed to answer me and went on again with the same rant. It therefore appears clear to me that you are not looking to talk about waifuism and develop friendly bonds with us. You are simply enacting a sad relational pattern in which you antagonise others and then victimize yourself by claiming that others mistreat you, which in return you seem to use as an excuse to act hostilely and then antagonizing others even more. I’m now locking this thread as it appears obvious that nothing positive will come out of it for anyone, yourself included. This discussion is now over.