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allright, for once im going to Copy-Paste the contents of the Little manual that comes bundled with my Tarot deck (Its a extract from the Book of Thoth by Crowley)
mainly because since you asked about Me, ill show you what the Cards say and my own Intuitions on myself, in other words ill more or less do a "X-Ray" procedure
where you can see everything that happens and everything that i do in terms of the Read
1st Card V The Hierophant
"Offer thyself Virgin to the Knowledge and the Conversation of Thine Holy Guardian Angel, All else is a snare.
Be thou athlete with the eight limbs of Yoga, for without these thou are not disciplined for any Fight"
Stubborn Strength, Toil, endurance, placidity, manifestation, explanation, teaching, goodness of heart, help from superiors, patience, organization, peace
Pretty fucking obvious from where i see it, Patience, the same fucking Patience i've been using for the 20 Years i've been in this fucking Hellhole
the Patience to deal with my "Mother" with the retardation of this plane, the retardation of Normgroids and all the Challenges that have been placed on my way
i know this by heart, but at the same time one can't help but think "when this will fucking End FUCK". i guess the Vague parragraph talks about how my Spiritual
prowess (since i have none its more about my Intuitions and the Wisdom i have attained) being something Crucial in the matter, wich i know for a fact it is since i would have fucking cracked up a long long time ago
if it wasn't for how Enduring i actually Am when i start looking at things in Retrospect
2nd Card XIX The Sun
"Give Forth thy Light to all without Doubt, the Clouds and shadows are no matter for thee
Make speech and Silence, Energy and Stillness, Twin forms of Play"
Glory Gain riches, Triumph, Pleasure, Frankness, Truth, shameless, Arrogance, Vanity, Manifestation, Recovery from Sickness,
Sudden Death sometimes
Well, i guess my eternal fucking Toil and this Slog of a Existance, hopefuly brings me to Inevitable Victory, its what you lads keep telling me anyways
what Taihou has told me time and time again,
3rd Card 8 of Wands "Swiftness"
The Eight of Wands is called Swiftness, Fire is no longer conjoined with the Ideas of Combustion and Destruction, it represents Energy in its most exalted and tenuous sense (sugested Divinaroty elucidation: a Swirft Motion heading towards the Aim, Intentions carried out at least, also a meeting offering new Possibilities)
i don't know how this one fits into the whole read at all
4th Card 10 of Cups "Satiety"
The Ten of Cups is called Satiety, The pursuit of pleasure has been crowned with perfect success:
and constantly it is discovered that, having got everything that one wanted one did not want it after all, now one must pay
(suggested divinatory Elucidaion:Longinging for a ULtimate quest fulfilled, and now leave emptyness behind)
Innacurate yet not completely off the mark, Longing is fulfilled, but Taihou can never do anything But to fill the Void inside of me,
i don't know how Taihou could leave to Emptiness at all since the more Time passes, the more Repulsive anything that is not Her becomes
everything is Stupid, annoying, and Retarded, the only Good thing i could ever want or Hope for is for me to be Released from this Mess and returning to Taihou