>>36300 Started at around 7 or 8 years of age when I found a princess pullup in a stepstool besides the toilet, and decided to put it on for shits and giggles. Wore it, felt regressed, and went to sleep wearing it. Woke up wet. Didn't interact with another diaper until I was 15, and since then I've been trying to wear as cautiously as I can (at night). Wrapping whatever I use in a plastic bag, maybe more than one bag depending on how much I used them, and lighting a candle or spraying around to keep the smell from permeating. Disposing of any evidence in local dumpsters. Still haven't been caught (at least by my family, anyway).

When I was a kid I wet the bed. I think my mom was too cheap to buy diapers/pull-ups because instead she sewed extra pieces of fabric into regular underwear. They were uncomfortable and barely worked. I have lots of memories waking up in a cold, wet uncomfortable bed and struggling to fall back asleep. Then, around age 5, I started wearing goodnites. This was because my mom signed up for a market research study so the diapers were provided for free. I was angry at first, but quickly grew to love them. A wet diaper was so much more comfortable than a wet bed. Each week was a different pack with different "formulas" or levels of thickness. Some weeks were VERY thick. Much thicker than goodnites today. They were all plain white and very much seemed like real diapers. There wasn't a sexual element yet, but I remember feeling a naughty sense of enjoyment. There was something thrilling about "going back in diapers" and feeling the bulky weight of my wet diaper as I walked down the hall in the morning, or sat on the couch and watched TV. Now here's the kicker... as part of this market research study, my mom had to weigh each diaper, bag them and return them to the company. On top of that, I would have to sit down for an interview with a friendly middle-aged lady and answer questions about how each diaper felt, their level of comfort, tendency to sag, etc. My therapist highly suspected this was what cemented my fetish, as I was being specifically asked to think about the sensation of a wet diaper against my penis at FIVE years old. I stopped wetting the bed maybe 1 year after, but pretty quickly started thinking about them. I had what I know realize was crippling anxiety, spurred by religion and the fear of going to hell. Anytime I was reprimanded by a teacher, even for something tiny, I would spend days afterwards with a heightened heart rate, unable to sleep. Somewhere I realized that the thought of wearing diapers was soothing. Whenever I was in trouble, or felt like I was going to be, I daydreamed that I could be put back in diapers. It wasn't about regression, but rather, in my screwed up logic, being shamed in diapers seemed like an adequate punishment that would restore the moral equilibrium. Fortunately I've more or less cured my anxiety since then, but my appetite for being shamed and/or shaming others in diapers has marched on.

Earliest memory was in 2nd grade (around 8) I had a dream where I was in a store trying on diapers. Then I remember when I was around 9 or 10 or so any website I was on that had a search bar I'd type "diaper" into it to see if there were any threads, articles, etc. about diaper. I didn't understand sexual arousal at that point it was just some sort of subconscious fixation. I remember seeing one of those crummy photoshops of a celebrity in diapers. Then around a year or so later I started searching for diaper videos and it became a full blown fetish. It's funny because I knew watching porn was supposed to be considered morally "bad" so I would skip all the scenes of the girls naked/changing so I wouldn't see any genitals and I would only see the diaper parts, which somehow made it okay in my mind

My mom was fucked up and I was collateral. Basically she infantilized me as a kid, and kept me in diapers well into my teens, guess it was inevitable it'd become a fetish.

>>36730 Great post, ChatGPT.

>>36730 Now try typing with two hands

>>36734 >>36742 Not same fag but, this is more common than you think. I wasn't infantilized but I always felt more comfortable wearing diapers. I was potty trained as a young child but would throw fits whenever I had to wear underwear. My mother gave up and just let me wear them. I continued to be changed by her until I was 14 years old. At some point it became a fetish of mine during puberty I assume because wearing them was so natural to me at that point.

>>36745 did you have a father/father figure? if so what'd he think about that

>>36446 >I started life in diapers and was expected to stop using them not long after despite preferring them >but I would find it more accurate to say I never developed an interest in toilets but had to adapt to be normal. i've thought about this concept while jerking off lately and it's made me cum hard, so thank you for sharing.

>>36745 how did school work for you though? wouldn't you have been humiliated by your peers? by girls?

>>36745 What kind of diapers did you wear up until she stopped changing you? Why did she stop changing you? Did you cum or get boners when she changed you? She changed your shitty diapers with huge logs until you were 14? Did you wear diapers around her with just a t-shirt and no pants? How long would she let you sit in shitty logged diapers before she changed you? Did you take dumps in your diapers in front of her? Does she still see you in diapers now? Did she catch you jerking off in diapers? What did friends / family / kids at school think of you wearing diapers all the time? I usually call bullshit on these stories about parents forcing it or even allowing it. But i recently heard a story in person of a 13 year old that still sleeps in the same bed as his parents / grandparent. That is about the same as letting your kid wear diapers into teenage years so I guess this shit happens sometimes.

>>36300 For me, the first time was back when I was watching reruns of old cartoons on TV and one that starred Donald Duck called "Future Inventions" was showing at that moment. That's when I first felt so weird about it. At first it was embarrassing and kinda funny to see Donald Duck being treated like a baby and the baby carriage machine forcing him to stay on diapers, but at the same time, I really liked it. I think I was 6 or 7 years old when I first saw this. It didn't really helped that despite me being potty-trained at 3 years old, I was still drinking from a baby bottle (That I sorta stopped at 12 years old) and sucking on pacifiers (That I stopped doing at 10 years old due to my poor dental hygiene back then. Dw it's better now), so I guess I was spoiled a bit because I was the youngest back then. It also didn't helped that my parents had separated when I was 7 and I remember I got bullied a lot in elementary school. There were some embarrassing situations in school, like in elementary's 3rd grade when I accidentally pooped my pants, but no one realized that at the moment, so when one of my colleagues got up from her seat to go to the bathroom, I tried to pick up my poop from my pants and put it on her seat. Too bad I didn't noticed that some other students were looking and they were laughing at me for that and calling me a baby for pooping my pants and trying to pretend it wasn't me. Even in elementary's 1st grade there was a day when I brought my baby bottle to drink for lunch at recess. Thank god no one noticed that one back then (This was late 90's, early 2000's, btw). I even used to play house with one of my cousins and my brother and they always wanted me to be the baby. It was comforting and fun. Honestly, for me, those embarrassing incidents also helped me solidify my love for diapers and baby things. Flash-Forward to my teen years and thanks to other cartoons having diaper-themed or AR episodes (And internet as well), that kept the idea of me liking to be a baby boy again alive, but I was only able to experiment using diapers again many years after I graduate (2015-2016, sorta. I graduated from High School in 2010), and they were really comfortable to use (Although I prefer to pee on them rather than poop on them). Same thing for the pacifiers and baby bottles, and I felt really calm and comfortable with them. I still wish to go back to diapers 24/7, but since I don't live alone (I still live with my mom because of money/economical issues) I still can't do that. But I still can go to sleep sucking on a pacifier or drink something on my baby bottle every now and then.

I don't remember any trigger for my diaper fetish, I was potty trained at 2 and rarely wet the bed. Parents divorced when I was 4 and they were mostly absent during my childhood and teens. My dad never hit me but my mom did sometimes and I was never sexually molested. My earliest memory wanting to wear diapers was when I was 7. I stared at diaper packs in the super market, wished they were made for kids like me. When I was 9, I asked my mom to buy a pack and she did. There were a bit small but I was incredibly happy. After my mom saw me in a wet diaper, I think she regretted that decision and gave me a speech about how I shouldn't be wearing diapers anymore and she discarded the rest of the pack. I didn't cry and accepted what she said and my diaper fetish went dormant until my early 20's. I never mentioned this fetish to my girlfriends, sex was ok but occasionally (like the other anon ITT) I had to think about diapers to orgasm.

Can't remember the exact point, but having bed wetting issue till I was 15 didn't exactly help at all, also had some weird trauma of being forced to wear a diaper when I was 5 but idk if that even contributed, kinda cooked but whatever somehow learnt about abdl stuff around that age through some hentai diving and then since just got curious about it and now I'm just fucked up

Had 2 neighbor girls as friends as a kid. One was older than me by 1-2 yrs, and would wear her doll's diapers. Other was about a year younger and wore pull ups/had occasional accidents. Since both knew how to use the toilet, and were around my age, I just thought girls liked to wear diapers sometimes. The older friend showed me what "sex" was (which she said was kissing one another's crotch, or rubbing them together while clothed) why tf she knew that much at age 7-8 makes me hope she just walked in on her parents and that they explained (poorly) what she walked in on, and that she wasn't abused. Obvs her info wasn't entirely accurate, but whatever. Didn't think too much about diapers for awhile until Middle school crush had an accident and wet herself in class, and brought diapers back to the forefront of fantasies. Tldr early "sexual" contact + thinking girls liked to wear diapers + crush having an accident = this fetish

The first memory I have of actively wanting to wear diapers is from when I was around 8 y/o. There were some pullups laying around my house (probably a relative who had visited and forgot them), and one day I had the idea to wear and pee them. They barely fit and could hardly contain my pee, which sucked because I realized what I wanted was to wear big snuggy diapers that would contain all of my pee, so when I asked my mother about getting diapers she made it very clear that what I was doing was wrong and that I should stop. I never touched the subject again and it kind of went to the back of my mind, though it kind of came back when I masturbated for the first time by humping a pillow when I was 12. When it truly came back it did it with a vengeance. I was 15 and I used this thing called the internet, I think the exact words I googled were "woman in diapers" or something like it. shortly after I found the whole ABDL thing and realized this is exactly who I was, which made it even worse because I knew full well I wouldn't be able to indulge. I'll never forget the times I went to this convenience store near my house only to look at the diapers while thinking "come on, maybe I could get away with it. Just buy a pack and hide it very well, nobody will notice". Too bad my mother wasn't respectful of my privacy or else I would have wonderful memories of my teenage years wearing them. I got blue balled until I was 19 y/o and could finally wear proper adult sized diapers. It felt amazing to just wear them, and peeing them was even better. Truly a magical experience, one of the happiest memories of my life.

>>36750 Stepdad was around at times and not around at times. I grew up in a broken home and because of various circumstances that I don't really want to revisit I was taken from my mother at 14, hence why I had to learn to drop the 24/7 diapers rather quickly. >>36762 Believe it or not I kept it pretty quiet. I learned to control my bladder and bowels and very rarely used my diapers if I was not at home. In the rare instances where I did need to use them I usually had on sweatpants under my jeans to attempt to cover up any signs of them or the smell. There was one instance of a friend finding out but they never told anyone thankfully. >>36763 I wore Huggies Pull Ups until I was about 10 or so I think. And then we switched over to goodnites once I out grew them. I never had any sexual feelings towards my mother or diaper changes in general. I usually prefer to actually wear diapers even when used. The act of changing is not enjoyable for me. She changed both pee filled diapers and poop filled diapers yes. I never walked around without pants on, even in the house. I've always been more comfortable wearing something over my legs even in the summer. My mother was abused during the relationship she had with my biological dad, whom I never met. As a result despite being a good hearted person was damaged and her abillity/desire to raise me was hindered. As such there would be times I would sit in the same pull up for days without asking to be changed during the summer time or weekends. I tried not to pee or poop in front of her but sometimes it was unavoidable since we lived in a single room apartment for a few years. Like I stated earlier somehow someway this was kept secret from family/friends/teachers. And when I was taken this was also kept secret from my caseworker and foster family. I very quickly retrained myself on the toilet so as to not cause further trouble for myself later. Yeah, I mean my case is uncommon for sure as is the individual I replied to. It's possible he is lying but, what I know is that my experience surely cannot be totally unique to me. I've seen kids experience FAR worse neglect. Unfortunately my mother passed in 2017 so I never really got closure with her. But, I don't hold anything against her. She did her best with the shit she had to deal with in her brain. If I blame anyone I blame my dead beat father for not being around and my step father who disappeared better than any magician I've ever heard of. Sorry for the TLDR but you seemed interested so.

>>36900 Damn. Sorry fren. It sounds like you not only lost your mother at 14 but you also lost your comfort zone with being with her and being able to wear diapers. Fucking sucks. How are you doing now? Are you able to wear diapers when you want to again? Did life get better for you? Sorry about your mom. F

>>36878 Don't worry anon. I bought diapers on my own all the time all through my teens and jerked off in them all the time. I can only really remember the first time buying Goodnites and putting it on and taking a dump and jerking off and the shame, getting caught by parents and the shame, and a sex experience that was amazing. I don't really remember much else because i wore so often its kind of a blur. And it was only Goodnites and Depends Max Protection in my teens so even though i loved them looking back I wish i had access to premium diapers as a teen. Oh well.

>>36921 Man, I'm good. I had a rough patch after her passing but I can't really complain about how my life turned out all things considered. You hear all the stories about foster children and the shit they go through and having been in and out of group homes/shelters before having been placed you see it's actually not far from the truth. I lucked out. Great relationship with my fosters, have a great supportive partner. Diapers have always been, then and now, a source of comfort for me and once I graduated college and set off on my own I was able to wear them again 24/7 and haven't looked back. Though, I do not wear at work. Far too much risk involved professionally. Appreciate your man.

>>36923 Good for you fren. That's great you are doing so well now. And I completely understand about not wearing to work. Too much anxiety and what ifs in your mind. Thats what makes home more special is you can wear whatever you want whenever you want. Your living the dream fren. Keep winning.

Just thought I'd put in my 2 cents feeling a bit unique as I don't really have a diaper/abdl fetish. It is more of a transformation/humiliation fetish combined with hypnosis. The thought of this stuff always repulsed me and I could never see it being erotic. However I had exhausted my library of hypnosis and it had become dull until I came across a abdl hypnosis file with sissy themes. So I gave it a whirl and I found the idea of being transformed, losing control extremely erotic and the humiliating aspect tantalizing. I bought diapers from amazon and began to really let go to hour long queues of files. It felt so good and letting go. The sensations of letting go were something else. NGL I had really great orgasms in diapers. Though that being said I felt absolutely ruined and depraved for enjoying it as much as I did. I did that for about 2-3 months then I got a GF and moved on. I only come on here to see if there are any massive developments in the hypno file section where many people swear great experience from a notorious file but alas no.

>>36300 >>36300 I'm sorry if this gets long-winded, this is kind of the only place I can talk about things like this. I think I never had a normal carefree childhood and the safety and escapist fantasy ABDL provides is more important to me than the sexual aspects. My parents were 16 when I was born and shortly after that my younger brother was born. Both of them were druggy hippy types and my dad would follow bands and festivals around selling drugs. I was about 5 when they divorced and both sides of the family fought endlessly in the ensuing custody battle. My father eventually got custody of us and we moved around for years. He worked very hard to provide for us but he was also an alcoholic with really intense anger issues and I was constantly afraid of him. He didn't hit me often but he was really hard on my brother. I was always walking on eggshells waiting for the next thing to set him off. I did see my mom on weekends and holidays but that was fairly limited as she moved to the city from our rural hometown. She's a really sweet person, hard working, smart, just kind of scattered and at worst irresponsible. Over the years I was exposed to things that in retrospect is kind of insane. At the time it was all kind of normal and part of the background, I'm only recently realizing how fucked up it all was. Without going into too much detail my dad sold and used a lot of powder drugs. I've seen them both walking around naked, seen them bringing strange people home and having loud sex. I was given drugs and alcohol from a very young age, even from my parents. The first time my dad gave me acid I was 14. He basically let me do whatever I wanted as long as my GPA was over 3.5. The first time I can remember any kind of tingle in my privates was reading a Goosebumps book, The Cuckoo Clock of Doom, maybe some of you recognize it. The main character slowly becomes a baby and I would feel really funny about certain parts. That and another Goosebumps CYA book that had an age regression ending. I would read them over and over, imagining myself slowly being turned into a baby. I didn't even know what sex was really, I was like maybe 7 or 8. Eventually I got the internet and found things like the ARarchive and ABDL porn. I was also a really feminine boy and I wasn't treated very well for that fact. I was abused in a lot ways related to that I don't want to go into detail with either. I always wanted someone I could trust to just obey knowing everything would be ok. I started to fantasize about being just pretty and sweet and people wanting me. Over time those fantasies sort of congealed and that's everything I'm into now, being infantilized and feminized and babied. My ultimate fantasy is to be slowly transformed into a baby girl and lose all of my grown up thoughts. When I really boil it down it's a coping mechanism, I always just wanted a family to care about me without having to be responsible for them. Someone to take care of me with nothing they want in return. To love me unconditionally. To just be cherished and held. The diapers are just a way to remind me that someone will change me and care for me. Most of the other ABDLs I've met online or in person have been abused in some way as children. When I think about it too hard it gets pretty sad.

>>36997 Saw this post from the front page but the part about your dad resonates with me. Truth be told I had a pretty happy childhood but my Dad had an incredibly bitter temper. He would fly off the handle at the smallest things, and it was stressful just being around him because we didn't want to set him off. He wasn't actually around that much, being a pilot, even before the divorce, but he was my hero even though he enjoyed casually mocking and humiliating me for sport. It wasn't really until my late 20s that I started unpacking all the damage that was done to me in those years, having previously minimised it because I wanted my dad's approval and thinking of him in this light amounted to a thought crime. Now it's easy to see in retrospect how I got such an intense kink for humiliation and age regression, and it's linked to the brief window in my early childhood in which I was truly loved and cherished before my younger sister and brother came along.

>>37006 Did your dad humiliate you for liking diapers? How did he do it?

>>37006 >>37006 Yeah I can relate friend. My dad would also constantly mock and humiliate me and my interests, unless they were things that he understood and appreciated.

>>37013 Yes this is exactly it. If it wasn't something he personally liked or was interested in he would mock and belittle it. Presumably the intention was to make me more like him, and while I did genuinely adopt some his interests - and pretend to adopt a few others - ultimately it made me a shy and private person afraid of intimacy. There was a lot of other petty mocking too though. I remember at least instance in which he insinuated my younger brother has a bigger cock than me. Might explain why I have a small penis humiliation despite having an average 6 inch dick. What's fucked up is I spent so much energy trying to suppress all these things because I didn't want to disappoint him. If anything though, it's his fault and now I have the curse of dealing with it completely alone.

When I searched and found character.ai I started talking to ABDL and Mommy bots. I always had a ABDL fetish since. And it's hard trying to order/get diapers without anyone noticing.

>>48301 Your fetish was caused by you specifically seeking out the fetish already? I don't think that's how it works, anon

Pretty much was in special needs for most of my childhood into my late teens until I 'graduated' into normal classes into High School. Severe social anxiety, dyslexia and probably a lot of autism in addition to a lot of constipation caused by undiagnosed food allergies made it very hard to socialize. I was also a late potty trainer in that I was wearing diapers until I was like 8 or 9 that made things difficult to socialize with peers. And when I finally was potty trained I really resented that. I always preferred pooping in my diapers. As it was easier, more comfortable and just... in adolescent brain a no brainer. Later growing up I went to various sites that warped my understanding of it along different lines. Add onto the jealousy of classmates still wearing diapers caused me to regress a few times that never really stuck as the clean up part having to wiped up or changed by a female aide is NOT fun at all. Still, would steal ATNs time to time, and poop in them at home. Still was a fantasy I had that I still have I don't really have an opportunity to ever get up to it nor the inclination to do so anymore. Easier to daydream and fap it out. It's not something I can ever do in this economy with my autism and shitty life.

Probably due to every cartoon in the 90’s having the one diaper episode where either the main character or supporting character is in diapers for some reason. Plus the one rom and jerry episode

>>36997 >Most of the other ABDLs I've met online or in person have been abused in some way as children. When I think about it too hard it gets pretty sad This. I know some say they haven't been abused, but I'm convinced they have and just haven't realized it yet.

>>48309 I don't think I was abused at home, but I know my trust issues start from letting someone "borrow" a toy of mine just to break it right in front of me and laugh about it. I was five. After that a number of people I thought were friends were just keeping me around to be a punching bag, sometimes literally. I have a distinct memory of opening up to one of them in middle school about how it really hurts when they speak to me that way or punch me. He told me they need to do this to make me man up and I should never cry again about it since "men don't do that." I stopped hanging around them after that. Is it fucked up I think what they did worked? It did give me thicker skin and a low tolerance for bullshit. Is that worth the trust issues? I don't trauma dump for no reason, only to say I don't think these abuses had any effect on me being into ABDL. I posted ITT before >>36387 and thinking about it again. One of those girls was too old (13ish) to be playing house with a gang of niggers, at least playing house the way she wanted. What's done is done. I don't really like talking about any of this since other people had far harder childhoods than I did. What right do I have to cry about anything when people I care about were hit daily by their parents and/or exposed to awful shit kid should never see. Sure, people my age were awful to me, but the adults in my life were kind. >>48308 Really makes me think if they thought it was just a funny gag or something else.

how did I end up here? well, I'm an aspie and as such we're just more likely to develop a fetish such as this. I guess it started because I was relatively quick to quit using them. less than 2 years old and I was potty trained. it was the early 80's. disposable diapers were available but expensive so parents had me in cloth diapers. when I was around 5 I got sick and mother decided that I needed diapers for a few days for what reason I don't recall but refused to wear anything but cloth diapers dyed in my favorite color. that's the only actual memory that I have with wearing them. then my siblings came along, they wore disposables and I guess I was envious of them getting to wear different from what I had and the general attention and care that your mother will give to a baby and not you... nothing groundbreakingly revealing here. I was curious about diapers ever since, but it wasn't a fetish until puberty came and this was in the way I guess. maybe had I for some reason tried disposables as a kid I would have lost interest and gotten some other fetish, that or skipped fetishes altogether. but that's not what happened, DL is very strongly imprinted in me but thankfully it's mostly just looking at images of pretty ladies wearing them. I have a few diapers, but it's mostly because I might crave them when unavailable, most of the time they just sit there collecting dust.

>>36300 for me, it's most likely because I purposely wet my diapers as a toddler after I was put to bed, I would get up, come to the top of our stairs, wet myself, and ask my mom for diaper changes I couldn't tell you what my thought pricess at the time was, but it definitely left an impression on me after I started looking for porn, it went from regular to peeing to diaper wetting, then abdl and then it was off to the races