>>4773 I still don't get why or how this is being done. The closest to "being inside" I can imagine is either possession where a spirit enters the body and can control it in cooperation with you, which eases some spiritual work, OR the odd situation where a succubus with a very long tongue once helped me open up energy channels by sending her tongue down my throat and into the penis.

>>4736 >Voice? A voice within a voice, similar in how i cast my double spells, this can be done with entities or body parts, tulapas etc Reading your post had a hidden voice in it i wasn't sure if it was you it looked like a purple star in your heart. Something communicating from behind it. > in my left side of the head back and left? six pointed purple star? i am not sure if you solved it it's not relevant anymore. >Maybe it was hiding behind a concept of liberal market openness or something I see any blind spot is used nice; i wonder how to solve this without cutting all communication. >>4737 > I really like this "poetic" phase of your awakening. Thanks. >I should get my energy work in order already. See that's funny it should be effortless but you have to work hard to reach that point; but moving things without wisdom cause problems. I do it when i lose my sense of self when meditating but my sense of priority change so it's hard to focus instead of exploring a parallel city. >you ARE a shapeshifter Agree but i still wonder what kind, so i don't know myself enough; i'd like to say i am like a dancer who shift between forms but the only thing that feels "me" would be that primordial void the "womb" of the universe. >"world of shadows" and start to interact with all the forces that can live and interact with the normalfags around like it's nothing. Yeah..i see it. This is different from that shadow matter i used to hide myself in my other bodies. Behind everything? you can push them but they don't feel it they go with it. Like how fairies sometimes eat my brownies haha. >For me it is almost the "opposite". It's complex; i understand your view but mine is more like dividing myself so i lose access to that part now i need to deal with it by understanding it's pain sometimes we fight and i kill them they smile and come back now i understood the pain i took responsibility; they want to die btw it's one of the big reason i wanted to kms. If i do it immediately they are just "lost children" so they come with a hug and apologize for being lost but many of them stayed too long and become bitter adults ready to die. >Connect to the crop spirit so you can benefit from gluten like a boss Will try proper. i realized spirits acts like dicks because i expect teachers to act like dicks and if they don't act like arrogant assholes they must not know anything. Well it's more complicated but that's the idea; they have to conform or they can't reach me. No wait see this bothers me i am not even sure i am explaining my pov or using your energies to try to explain how i think you would get my pov. This is an issue i don't know how to just look i end up trying to embody but without going too deep so this end up as "I am who i think you are currently" on a surface level because i don't want to be the creep who literally possess people to talk to them. I see everyone as my kids btw not just humans. > wait those beings cannot be called humans anymore What is a human then? If there is something that can be called and defined as a "true human" then i want that form too. > Understand what is the true meaning of cultivation. I wish i could just pander on it my way of learning is strange, i need to let the energies "penetrate" me or else ill just chase a false pretense. this is why it has to come with attacks or sex. Well even that is just an angle i am stuck into there are other ways but..i am not speaking too deep. > No wonder you are being eaten by maggots constantly. You didn't understand the power of the roots and the soil Nigga that's an improvement that's a good thing! That's a "REJOICE EVERYONE" moment that i even have maggots eating me! You don't know from how low it gets i came back from shit maggots wouldn't touch. Even my first post on the question thread this was the results of years of outstripping myself from moving sands. I don't think you realize how fucked my bloodline is their stomach and innards are like hard rocks of fossilized shit. Now i have a system going, they come eat and die they birth from my flesh and this work the soil; the rest comes later. >The plants know perfectly how to circulate the energies They can't do that on something that doesn't even register as alive.

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The worms and parasites are good guys here; i love them but i am not identifying with them they are here to do some work we both benefit from it and when they're done other things will come. I started seeing roots in my astral places too btw, but hard and dry they have trouble we come from way back. >I really have no idea where tf you live fam I mean yeah i don't want anyone to know part is because i wouldn't like being doxxed other is it might open a window for fucking glowniggers. >Like the lands around me love me I did move a lot so idk about the current land.. It's hard for me to get an unbiased answer from them; they have to conform to my thinking. I am just describing things how they look to me and that's honest enough to me; ofc i hide things but i have my reasons. >You are moving your energies positive and negative up and down with your emotional "Poetry" fam. Man that's a good thing! it used to be so hard nothing would move it! Like compressed garbage that wouldn't even lift, fossilized scum. > in the early stages of awakening wrong emotions can cause havoc I don't really believe in "wrong emotions" tbh Everything is of god my feelings are of god i just need to observe them. They can't be wrong i am god too i could make a mistake and identify that anger with something else do that all the time but that's how i learn. I have some heat sinks in case my energies explodes..that's just a band aid i have to learn how to handle all this better. > It needs to be "divided" that way so you can interface with your flesh body I forgot how to climb stairs the other day lol well no i was doing it too fast without any strain on the legs, realized i could just command my body with my will instead of having to handle everything go the idea from reading some TES lore on how Daedra moves, i like when the lessons comes from video games more relatable we shouldn't be so stuck up to think wisdom and knowledge have to come from some ancient forgotten text it uses what you know. On that note i keep spilling things, milk, red wine, coffee happened in such a way it was definitely a message but i am not too worried. >What if "Burning" feels good for the karma? You're saying i should become the karma? Understand it? Tbh i guess that could make sense it follows how i expect it to act, in the end it's all "in my head" i am just not aware of all the parts of my head i could just remember that part. I'll have to experiment with my mind more; it's still so messy.

>>4740 > in the future eat more rye. I should make bread again it's been a while.

>>4781 >Reading your post had a hidden voice in it i wasn't sure if it was you it looked like a purple star in your heart Often I'm channelling parts of myself when it's not someone else. In this case the message contained a representation of an egregore which operates in line with what I wrote. When writing in a certain structural way, it's easier to channel the same original form for the reader. When apply anon up there was talking about the angel of vengeance as "sephereeous" and >>4749 > it means literally "dropped out of the higher sephiras because someone made God angry"... whatever this is not "holy" this is almost unholy in many aspects by the amount of destruction it can cause within seconds if not wielded right. And it cannot be wielded "right" conceptually. Whoever uses it will have to repent This bit of text channels the egregore or energy form very well, so well that I could see it, because the structure of his text is in line with how the bible text is structured. Much of it has similar qualities which only appear when reading between the lines based on a structural intuitive view which only appears after brainwashing oneself with study from a kabbalistic context.

>>4784 >When writing in a certain structural way, it's easier to channel the same original form for the reader. A beetle? eating? breaking and remaking analysis. I still have trouble understanding your ways but i am glad it started becoming relatable. >because the structure of his text is in line with how the bible text is structured Oh so you need a reference, you're kinda robotic like an insect but this makes it efficient? Me i am always there i just don't look too hard i hesitate still. I know i can look at any time but it's easier to pretend i don't and come back later, i am doing the same with your post here leaving a lot of leeway. ugh i'll go meditate i have to do some cleaning again.

The angel's form was revealed to me and I internalized it. At first my eyes got teary from the strong, almost chemical feel of the energy, as it burned through my nerves and drove out a bunch of lower energies I wasn't even aware were present. The description that the method looked like "shit mixed with vomit" is just a result of how society is formatted. It's a combination of gay men and menstruating women, it matches. Both are controlled by one of the bodily impulses associated with those substances. There were significant results after learning this angel form. The collective of evil beings who've been causing trouble for me and the world were revealed to me as a complete and isolated form. I saw its 3D shape in space like a kind of final boss character with wings, consisting of a large amount of spirits incorporated with Earthly timelines and dimensions. I managed to speak a language they could understand. I told them their behaviour of acting based on their own heads would place them in eternal exile. I told them, they are not allowed to create their own laws and live by them, that they are committing the worst kind of sin in doing so, because only God can create laws, and only those who channel his laws can make decisions. They refused to stop following their own heads, so I told them: What you are doing cannot be tolerated, it is the ultimate crime. If you insist that you will create your own laws by your own heads, you will have to be exiled from divine law forever. You will live by the laws that you have created, no one will save you. You will bear the full weight of ruling yourselves. Is this what you want? Surprisingly, to some degree, they suddenly said with a collective voice: deal and their form was separated into an isolated space where the time progression was changed into exactly the kind of history they wanted, and it sped off into that direction with no ability of ever being re-attached with anything outside of their own self-contained space. Images appeared to me showing them wage war and continue their vile lifestyles of materialism, over time they would all die, and in the end the last one of them would dig his own grave, lie down in the coffin and seal it from inside. Then they'd all just lie there in their little boxes forever with a fossilized smile on their dried faces, because they had done everything by their own heads and were unable to revert or repent anything as that would be to admit fault or mistake, so no matter how painful, they would not stray from the path of materialism and the belief that a human only has this one material body and that after that is eternal death. That is what they created for themselves in there.

I just found out that my crown chakra is green. Dunno if that's good or bad, but I don't feel particularly concerned about it. Different people have different energy bodies, after all. >>4786 Somehow that sounds sad.

>be depressed >visit my old home in the astral again >feels horrible about my inadequacies >carrying a torch >get attacked by my other selves again and cut them up >they leave a bead/core i break and absorb >goes on a killing spree with a dagger and spear >everyone I ever knew I cut down >this includes child me animals etc >turns into a vision as the land is covered in blood >only weapon is now a sickle and my arm is distorted >my arm goes around me like a tail so that my left hand is on the right >I am now sitting on a sofa I liked >big boob blond woman in a jester costume comes at me smiling <shhhhh >she kills me too >wait I am the jester? Well fuck talk about symbolism.

>>4793 Wow, I'm also doing something like that right now. Derealization of the current incarnation. Reality's starting to feel like a dream. I'm breaking free of gravity.

>>4794 Affected by the moons or some planet? I also saw myself destroy the moon with that sickle.

Great now I am in a phase where I am asking myself that "where is my heart" and such. Because it is like a fuckhuge internal dimension which is hidden as long as I have doubts full with impurity and not "true to myself". Guess I have to do things that make me happy or something. Then figure out if they are truly making me happy. I came up with the idea that caring about happiness is a trap many years ago. I thought chasing happiness is like chasing a carrot on a stick. Or end up in carrot or stick situations where you have to choose the carrot and obey the the stick constantly. I had the bright idea why not learn to eat the stick? Might be a little crunchy but no one fucks with the guy who eats the stick! What are you gonna do with him? Beat him with carrots? Such an obsession with becoming the greatest antagonist. For some reason I thought life will constantly throw at me enemies no matter where I go. Didn't expect it that the game will run out of them. Anger and hatred is not my main emotion. Makes the heart contract constantly. Happiness is also not the true emotion I am looking for but at least it makes my heart relaxed so I can look for the openings more. I should read the Heart Sutra already. >>4761 >I mean all beings have an inner nature, and it does not change. Describing this inner nature of myself or others does not represent any "will". Wanted to say yesterday how that can evolve in some cases when all conditions are met but I am unsure if I can say what is the correct way and the inner truth of a person. I think it has too many layers to say it for sure. But who knows tbh. >>4795 I remember when moons with evil faces constantly entered and exited my brain then started to orbit into my third eye where I had to shatter them. It kinda hurt until I got good at headbutting them.

>>4809 >Wanted to say yesterday how that can evolve in some cases when all conditions are met but I am unsure if I can say what is the correct way and the inner truth of a person When I say "does not change" I mean that the same formula, algorithm or value remains, but it can transform and appear in many different ways. I had another session with Belial about this just a few days ago because I was getting hung up on how "nothing" existed for "eternity" and then things started emerging from that. If everyone was in the void of potential forever, but no time existed during that potential void period, it would mean once spirits started manifesting themselves, time was created. So when looking back, it would seem like creation happened instantly from the void. Because before it existed, there was no time, so that is just a point of no expression. But Belial said that it's more like a one way transformation where it starts with 0 and then turns into say 1 -1, then 2 + 1 - 3 and this way it remains 0 but becomes increasingly complex. But in this example the ideas of various positives and negatives were created, along with operators, and that means the complexity went through a possibly irreversible transformation, where though you can be aware of it all being 0 still, you cannot forget the other transformations which emerged from it. So the idea of cumulative discovery is false, it appears such only when viewing transformation from outside, but it's still a relevant concept because it creates the foundation of new transformations. For something to "stick" it has to be unique, and the way to reach this new form is by walking up the hill of all past transformation, as such it appears as "learning", studying known previous knowledge and records, or as AI which is the same as "repeating procedures blindly" as done by both factory workers and magicians when learning from previous research. The real value is in being able to transform your own personal algorithm into new forms which hasn't existed before and does not merely imitate previous transformations. Something which appears and is destroyed again, simply failed to find a new form which hadn't existed before. Then it can be argued that some things didn't come from void, but are "parasitic", "satanic" or other adversary existences which appear from the interaction of void-originating beings, which may create a certain kind of complex form where something can manifest directly. If it didn't come from "void" then what did it come from? Who knows, but that is the question about why certain beings are hostile and problematic rather than just transforming themselves in peace. It's obvious to everyone by now that such "idiots" keep appearing, who fear the void and who seem to not understand the structure of the lives they partake in. If they do not come from void and have a base nature which can transform, then what are they? Maybe time to ask Belial again.

>>4810 Right. >Belial So he started talking about the void as a cell in a beehive, then asking me what is between cells? I said some kind of material? A structure? Belial said >we call that 'the crack' "If you were to take the 0 and write it as a complex series of numbers which still add up to 0, then you have another being who is the same way, consisting of another complex number series. Then you could understand each other's nature by pulling out one section and making it the same as the other, like: Being1: 1+2+3 -6 Being2: 2+3+4-9 Then Being1 one looks at being two and changes to include its nature, turning himself into Being1: 1+2+3-6 +(2+3+4-9) and it seems they can now understand each other. But maybe we have the stiff beings Being3: 2+4-6 who can only use even numbers, and he looks at Being4: 1+3 -1-1-1-1 who can only use odd numbers. When Being3 is trying to understand Being4, he is unable to fully replicate the number series, and may come up with Being3: 2+4-6 + (2+2-4) to include Being4 into his series. This is incorrect, but his nature cannot replicate the other being correctly. The distance between the representations is called "the crack". "This is where such 'hostile' life forms appear. Now if we were to look at the void, we have a word for it, Ginnungagap. In Norse myth, there are also the cold and warm poles of Nifelheim and Muspelheim. We also know from our own research that there is "nectar of the Gods" which is a combination of the two. In our view (us Goetians) the nectar is the opposite of void, it's the most complex material transformation. What are the cold and hot poles? We cannot explain them as part of the abyss, rather they are their own stand-alone poles, just like nectar. So "the crack" is also such a base pole. It cannot be explained using the other concepts, as it simply exists or doesn't exist on its own.

I think that the internet has enthralled me. It occurs to me that probably 95% or more of every one of my days is spent on the internet, from when I wake up to when I go to bed. Basically, I live in the "computer-reality". Therefore, if I want to radically change my perspective in a magical sense, I am going to need to quit the computer. This is difficult though since I work online. I might start by just limiting my time on it. I think that the servitor that I created a few years ago to prevent me from having to do any real work in my job may also be contributing to this. Since I associate "free time" very heavily with "time using the computer".

I'd just felt compelled to perform an energy movement sourced from the upper middle right side of my skull; when I tried to perform the energy movement, I had to push hard to make it happen. I'd figured that intrusive thoughts were in the way, but then I broke through and it felt like I probably broke some part of my energetic anatomy, and the thing took the form of a tendril or something and it stopped as soon as it went out and I didn't finish performing the energy movement. I was trying to take the tendril and put it up above my body to the right and then down and back to my body, in a semi-circular path, but it just ended up going back after it broke my energetic skull or what have you. I'd asked for an angel to come down and heal me, but I'm wondering why the hell I felt like doing that. A few minutes after he came down, I'd felt like doing so on the other side of my skull, and I'm resisting that urge now. I hope these aren't fucking demon horns; I know that damned succubus modified my soul a few weeks ago... but I suppose they wouldn't be horns if I can just bend them like I'm able to so I guess I'm still paranoid about her. Aside from that, I suspect that there's some sorta parasite in my head, possibly of my own inadvertent creation.

>>4822 >I know that damned succubus modified my soul a few weeks ago What if she did that to help you? Maybe you are lost and don't know who you are? What's wrong with being helped a bit? >I hope these aren't fucking demon horns And that's wrong because? Because someone told you they are bad long ago? Because of beliefs that are themselves founded on a lie? Is anyone happy outside? Are the scientists happy with all their "knowledge"? They think they are above nature they don't see the hell they created for themselves you know they all die right? Science couldn't save them in the end. I am not saying to believe me I am saying follow your intuition see where that gets you don't try to copy anyone be wise but be free. That's as much advice I can give.

Last night after detaching a large chunk of hostile astrals, I went for a walk. The egregore of these beings had turned completely 100% negative, there was no way to have a positive interaction with them, so I asked my personal maintenance deity to just empty out all that stuff from my pocket dimension and end it. Even when my connection to them based on "working for others" Bodhisattva style had been severed, it was as if their negative mass alone wouldn't let them just slide over the edge of the abyss. I pushed them out, but their gravity somehow glued them to the wall just below ground level. It was ridiculous. I asked to have my foundation moved up to the new astral HQ and place so that my current 3D is an overlay placed on this structure instead. A maintenance deity from the new Earth wrote a script with tasks to solve for me, and placed it inside a glass bowl, which was put on the upper shelf of my astral office. There is a crack in the bowl, when it breaks after the energy is depleted, I will "wake up" fully up there instead of using the overlay. When finally getting rid of the hostile egregores, I went outside. The sky was moonlit and had some long winding clouds. I realized they were a word written in hiragana, with some creative use of diacritical marks to indicate letters that weren't present. The characters read "good" in my native language. An encouraging message from the Queen. During the night, I had a series of odd dreams, which halfway through I realized were very likely the result of failed attempts at dream infiltrations. It had scenes where I was in my yard wearing an old army steel helmet (I do have one) and saw some kind of special force soldiers with black armour over green uniforms skulking about outside the fence. They then came into the garden and tried communicate with me, but I didn't recognize the language. I felt like they were supposed to be russians, and at this point I became lucid, because the scene was getting silly. They were just acting like clowns at this point, and completely unthreatening, but there was an added concept saying "this is terrifying, this is what it's like if they invade you". I also became aware of the source of the scenery being some actual military associated people. They were trying to send this kind of message to me, but because my own concept of russians is that they are completely harmless, they failed to get the meaning across. It was the same as when they've tried to send racist dreams earlier, where they're trying to make black people seem threatening but even when non-lucid and asleep there is no way for me to believe they would be a threat to me, so the dream just goes out of sync.

Earlier, I was wondering what occultists that have never heard of egregores would think if someone tried introducing them to the concept, so I looked it up on Google. I decided to do an image search for the hell of it, and I stumbled upon this website that speaks in length about the Touhou egregore: https://archive-of-the-sealed-gods.neocities.org/resacralization I’m not even a tertiary Touhou fan myself, but I thought it was an interesting read.

>>4832 Walk carefully neophyte. Sonic is a mere decades old franchise while touhou is a channeled source which is being populated by many forms of yokai already. There is a reason why japan is dominating the "culture" of the world. Those beings existed before anime and videogames made them popular. This is merely a new outlet for them. The Ghibli movies warn about those worlds many times. >>4828 I have noticed some "reality bleeding" in my dreams yesterday. It's when different images in the darkness bleed into each other with no clear meaning. It usually signifies energetic movements but was unsure what it was about because I am doing other energy works so didn't know it it was personal or external.

>>4832 The way I've used it is for a very common thing, which does exist in the occult context, but isn't in any way confined to it. Egregore: The collective form which appears when a group of people cooperate around some interest, work, concept or belief. A city for example is an egregore. An organization is an egregore. Any group is also an egregore. A "thing" which is shared by many people is also an egregore, even when immaterial. For this reason, words, languages and well known books are egregores. A book like the bible is an egregore as well. Intentionally trying to create an egregore as a metaphysical object directly in the "modern" manner is pretty much futile. A strong form emerges naturally, organically. Like an organization it may be based on a planned structure and form, with a leader and intentional principles. But the actual egregore emerges from this template, it cannot be constructed as such. >>4832 >the Touhou egregore Also called Gensokyo, is the collective form of all yokai and the people who interact with them. Like its members, it's multi-dimensional and very diverse, containing magic and religious practices gathered over 100s of years in the area of eastern Asia. Today it's represented using visuals from manga and anime, but that is all that is, a form. The real thing is not pop-culture related.

>>4822 I think it's time I do a write up on this issue for you because i want to explain it for months. Remember those bloodclots you mentioned? Those are energy blocks. They block many parts of the brain. They break via the necessary stimuli/energy movement. They started from your brain then into your lungs. I too had to drop one from my left hemisphere but didn't understand why I didn't have to do that in my right side. Well it turned out I shattered it with my pure rage long ago then managed to harden up the meridian on my right side via being tense constantly. In my current understanding those energy blocks slowly go down and "get digested" by your lower more fiery energies and serve as a "safety lock" until you have a proper control of your energies. Was wondering why moving those blocks were so "easy" for you while for me it took years of practice >the meek shall inherit the earth as Jesus said. The "meek" has an extremely gentle and relaxed body. They are the easiest to save modify or awaken. You are the meekest fucking person I have known in my entire life. Treat it as a compliment and an insult at once. Looked at your energy body once and your energy blocks looked like marshmallows while mine look like dark jagged thorns brown rocks and let's not say what else. Breaking through your "skull" is one of the requirement of awakening. When the lotus blooms etc. I too had horns for a while. I remember when it appeared as the "throne of the demon lord" the 2 sides are solid the foundation the throne also solid while the energies are blazing above and in the middle. As the energies were going through a tipping point the 2 pillars "shattered" a lightning struck in front of me and hailstorm started. Then my 2 "horns" became alive and started to argue which one of them are "God". I told them stfu because turning my own weather control ability against me is not making them "God" so I stopped the hailstorm as usual I am looking over my territory to not have lightning harsh storms and hailstorm because they always cause problems. Turned out with that "breakthrough" I was able to access higher forms of the "sky". I too had horns then they started to appear softer like bunny ears then like handles of shopping bags then I realized how they serve as literal "antennas" and they are only "solid" if you have a solidified mindwave. Like a demon has a solidified mindwave that is why they have hoofs and horns because they "solidified their nature". They are not connected to the earth and the heavens the same way as we are and constantly "growing" (Yes it can be more complex in some cases but this is the main symbolism) >I'd just felt compelled to perform an energy movement sourced from the upper middle right side of my skull >I'd asked for an angel to come down and heal me, but I'm wondering why the hell I felt like doing that Akasha anon. Remember that "devil" that made you say "You will become the greatest magician"? You will have to truly figure out why do you pursue magic and awakening. You said you want to feel safe and destroy the NWO or some shit. That is okay but you will need a greater inspiration for that. What will you do after that? The "devil" is probably one of your "lower forms" that you use for magic. A lower manifestation of your higher self. A sort of "beast" that doesn't walk the earth anymore but still "bestial". K this is hard to explain. TLDR work with your higher self more and let it manifest better. Find yourself within and without. Currently you are on the "Fool's journey". The Fool's journey have 2 main ways how you can walk it in my opinion. The assertive one where you embark on the journey to find the mysteries of the arcana and the passive one where you wander aimlessly and find the arcana because environmental forces are kicking you around constantly. The latter way usually means if you are being guided by "chance" but more accurately your higher self while the assertive one is more "ego driven" but even ego driven people have to acknowledge the ways their higher self guides them. What I am trying to say. Try to sit down and figure out why you pursue magic or you will be ping ponging between these situations with no aim constantly... and while that is the "true way" to some extent that doesn't mean it will feel "good" for a while. For me magic was like chasing an unreachable goal that I managed to reach which made me realize that the "Hunt" is not as great and important that I envisioned. For you it is more of a "chase" you are being chased by shadows you cannot even make out. You will have to face them. Try to communicate with your internal and guiding forces more. >but I suppose they wouldn't be horns if I can just bend Yes they are your left and right main energy channels that go into and above your hemispheres. When you connect them in the "middle" they grant different siddhis. Do not connect them mindlessly please. Ask some guidance from Shakti please. >Aside from that, I suspect that there's some sorta parasite in my head, possibly of my own inadvertent creation. You have hundreds of parasites within your body so have everyone else BUT and this is an important but... Many meridians the "snake at the bottom of the spine" etc will appear as a living being in the start. Your subtle body which connects the physical and the etheral will come alive with these forms. The human body contains many animal forms like that. You will have to interact with them purify them and slowly integrate within yourself then "let them go" once the energetic principle in your body solidified and became "truly yours". Awakening is like a second puberty where you learn to control your energetic erection and such. Also several beings are helping you and you will have to figure out how to set up boundaries so you feel "safe". Like laying down rules how you allow entities and energies enter into your awareness and such. Or you will be carried by the wind wherever it pleases to carry you. But I am thinking maybe letting this process continue as it does is better in a way. The choice is yours on which type of magician you wish to be. One that is shaped by the external influences or one that shapes them.The truth lies in the middle anyways. You shape as much as you are shaped by them but you will have to find balance sooner or later

>>4838 >You said you want to feel safe and destroy the NWO or some shit. That is okay but you will need a greater inspiration for that. My motivation is to destroy democracy because it's homosexual and advocating for ugly fashion, ugly architecture and atheism, which reduces the world to a state not fit for human living. My personal goal even if it's just to create a temple village and stay there, I want to do it in a world that's rid of all the disgusting shit I hate. Same as the old joke in a sense >can you give me a £1000 for a cup of coffee? >what? why do you need that much for a cup of coffee? >I want to drink it in Paris The setting matters more than the goal in isolation.

>>4839 Yeah I wouldn't want to drink coffee in the current Paris either. I too am crashing the gayretard system around me because I do not want to encroach it upon my life but that doesn't meant that is my sole purpose. What I tried to say if that is his TRV PVRPOSE then he should man the fuck up because currently he looks at schizo videos and panics at the contents within and becomes more anxious... You know I had a roommate. He was working on fear alone. He studied because he feared teachers and feared to be ridiculed. He was walking anxiety. He was quite easygoing when authority was not present but otherwise he always did his best so no one will yell at him. I realized I cannot do that. I realized I cannot work for and from fear. For me it was a sort of "superiority complex" where I felt I have to prove it's truth. Also didn't really have time for failure. Had too many other problems I had to solve besides university studies in my life. Kid always got perfect grades tho. Ofc he studied 5 times as much compared to me but before the exams we both crammed through the night while others slept already. Realized I cannot do that. I cannot show my back to others and flee. Those who flee once will flee forever. Tactical retreats are different tho but that is more of a maneuvering instead of "fleeing". Whatever I didn't ask you. I know this part of you already. What I don't know why your girls placed you into this timeline for this task yet. I wanted to talk with you about the way Belial showed you the mathematical understanding of the "Inner nature" because I too had a phase where I had to witness the "Numbers of my soul" and how they change with every moment of existence but... it's too late already for that level of autism. Not to mention is your "inner nature" even compatible with a temple city? I am seriously asking because you always talk about industrial slaughter whenever your inner nature is being brought up. Not even Aztec sacrificial temples have the same energy. I am not trying to be rude here but... I got the vision while asking myself the question where you would be in a society where "temple city" is the norm. You would be at the outer edges in rags while hoping for some donations and with a knife within the back of your hand when you know you could get away with it. Can you truly exist in a temple city society? Oh wait nevermind. You meant temple village. That might work. That way there are never enough people that the place can give home to degeneracy. A village weirdo will stick out like a sore thumb and will not be able to band together with others to maintain his mentality. Wonder what faith your temple will encapsulate tho. Yeah I am unable to focus. I should take a little break from the internet too. My mental eye is shedding the false visions in the last weeks but it takes more nuance than I thought and my clarity is unreliable.

>>4838 >devil that said I’d become the greatest magician I meant I was made to say that to him, such that the devil would be made said magician. That’s why I’d wanted whatever was happening there to get undone. >why I want magic I guess I also kinda wanna make Amy real in the mundane sense, even if only in private. Alien disclosure is in our timeline and coming soon, so fictional character egregore disclosure isn’t quite as far-fetched in comparison, I’d suppose.or are we still in the timeline where nukes fly when Sonic 3 comes out? I’d also like to be able to show people alotta neat dreams I’ve had, and songs that have played in my head that I’ve never heard before, that either I made or were heard and/or derived from hypnogogic audio or were channeled outright. It’d also help me make the games I wanna make by letting the programming aspect be done magically, though I’d imagine that that’s immensely more complicated than I thought 5 years ago, or perhaps it’s something that most anyone’s subconsciousness would be able to do in a heartbeat if it actually fucking felt like it and believed it could do it.

>>4839 Frenchman?

>>4841 >Wonder what faith your temple will encapsulate tho.

>>4842 >such that the devil would be made said magician You will have to tame that devil sometimes. >I guess I also kinda wanna make Amy real in the mundane sense Still unsure why. It can happen but you will have to become far more passionate for that. And not this wishy washy. >Alien disclosure is in our timeline and coming soon My current estimate is that it might happen within 300 years at best but I cannot give you better estimates. Ayylmaos really have hard time adjusting to this reality. >or are we still in the timeline where nukes fly when Sonic 3 comes out? I DIDN'T SAY WE GET NUKED IN DECEMBER. I said it won't happen until it comes out. I had a dream where I am watching that movie. Which might be in february or later if it won't get an english dub screening in my country. I only watch it because Kenau dubs Shadow and Jim Carrey is robotnick. But whatever my future vision is going through changes so I cannot say anything for certain at all. An annoying phase. >I’d also like to be able to show people alotta neat dreams I’ve had, and songs that have played in my head that I’ve never heard before, that either I made or were heard and/or derived from hypnogogic audio or were channeled outright. That's cool but for that you will have to work on your artistic talents which can be amplified with magic but that is a specific artform you will have to discover. >It’d also help me make the games I wanna make by letting the programming aspect be done magically In the next years you will have the chance to program with AI or you can manipulate egregores so Sonic games will have the aspect you desire. Ofc doing that is not instantaneous and might 30 years to make your dream a reality. Guess not all of us have the same desire with magic at all. >>4844 I think he prefers to be in the shadows too much for that to happen.

>>4845 >might 30 years *might take 30 years Fast egregoric manipulation requires large scale mindcontrol and constant micromanaging and not merely injecting some ideas that trickle down into the populace.

>>4839 I know you said everyones gonna be the same race on 5D Earth; is this gonna be literal, or is transracialism gonna become mainstream by then somehow?

>>4848 See >>4701 >I've been open with this method from the beginning of this all in like 2018, that this is indeed RP, with real information included. It's a way of spreading information. >>4700 >>4699 >It's better to make your claims fantastical and stupid and so extreme that they somewhat shift the general view in the right direction, then trying to actually keep on the line of what is directly true The person you're replying to is an open liar who views his "practice" as a sort of extended online larp designed purely for propaganda (and probably ego-satisfying) purposes. You shouldn't take anything he says seriously.

>>4367 Dumb question but as you know MindandMagick - where does he get his double pillar candles from (or do you have your own recommended source)? He mentions a guy named "birch" or "burch" but basic searches aren't bringing anything up, and he didn't answer in the comments of these 10-year old video; I'm like 70ish videos in and he hasn't re-mentioned them yet. I did find where he gets his oils from. https://www.naturalmagickcoop.com/ https://www.luckymojo.com/catalogue.html I know it's not the exact form of the materials as much as it is the intent and symbolism and how it impresses on your subconsious, but I like seeing what people recommend and why. I'm attempting a honeyjar ritual on behalf of a friend who has significant, long-term financial issues that haven't been their fault for a while, but who refuses direct assistance from me because of already-strained relations with their spouse over accepting outside assistance. Long term I'd like to be able to help them overcome those concerns by addressing the actual issues (spouse's paradoxical parent-taught pride but also severe lack of self esteem plus the friend's own ongoing healing from previous-relation abuses) but I figured this would be a good way to test my understanding of candle rituals, do a practical test, and potentially benefit a friend who otherwise I'd be less able to assist.

>>4841 >What I don't know why your girls placed you into this timeline for this task yet It was revealed. What is seen from the new Earth are mostly NPC images of the past, in a form that fits into the new history. Some of the people who correspond to those NPCs can still be inserted, if they are corrected and separated from their groups, which currently are at "purge instantly" level of degeneracy. They are not in Earth astral dimensions (just as none here taking part is) but in various super-low dimensions beyond the galaxy which the Earth was a part of, it's the borderlands where human dimensions connect with monster dimensions (Lovecraftian stuff). I actually went back a second time myself now because there was still something to do. Part of that has to do with the so called swamp which Trumped wanted to purge. Behind the human surface are the black budget orgs, but behind them are those super-low dimensions where humans and monsters mix. There are still some people in there whom I need to save. >Not even Aztec sacrificial temples have the same energy Aztecs are merely mimicking the real Babylonian and Atlatean practices. To explain it in a language people here understand, it's like Africans building helicopters and motorbikes from wood. The real core of the Aztec practice works, but that part isn't publicly known. It's the pyramid system which is concealed inside internal dimensions. We talked about these pyramids earlier. The ones in Bosnia, Svalbard, Russia, Brasil and Mongolia which form a system for sacrificial angel practices (Pleiadan purger operations). >You would be at the outer edges in rags while hoping for some donations and with a knife within the back of your hand when you know you could get away with it. Can you truly exist in a temple city society? That's a false image. When I went back to incarnate in the early Babylonian period I was a priestess leading one of the major temple complexes. You're not understanding the images correctly. In a modern view the pleiadan priest class lived off alms, using a knife to threaten people. But they were the top of the hierarchy for 1000s of years. They planned the temple building projects and maintained them all through a period of 52 000 years. Everyone else were slaves or sacrifices, save for a small elite who were still below the priest class.

>>4848 I don't know what your question is, I think I was pretty clear: to enter new 5D-based Earth you need to have your DNA altered by a rebirth process (most people will not be directly aware of it as they maintain their visual appearance and memories for the most part), everyone is the same race of humans there. There are variations in appearance, but they are all compatible and have a sense of understanding which didn't exist before. >>4850 >You shouldn't take anything he says seriously. You finally understand. You should never take seriously anything written online, or in any conventional media. Always do your own research, then after verifying a claim by first hand experience, it may become knowledge and fact. You should never trust anyone about anything they say, because even if they believe they are speaking the truth, and they are "truthfully" repeating statements along with their sources, it could still be misinformation.

The night before last, I looked above me and saw a horrendous mass of black energies, possibly composed of hostile entities. After that, I noticed negative events manifesting into my life. I must be getting attacked again. After I got home from work, I felt like I had to do something to kill those entities, so I consented to them being close to me, but ofc not in me, so that I could show them a youtube video of a frequency that's supposed to hurt them. One of them came down, and it looked like some kinda black & dark gray humanoid entity with a weird permanently-open mouth and 2 horns on its head. The entity wasn't noticeably hurt by the video, nor by the next one that was also supposed to damage it. I know that I was told that my magic can't do shit, and it didn't do shit when the 2nd Amy repeatedly forced herself inside of my soul in the middle of October, and it didn't kill the succubus either, so I figure that the magic would be nigh-useless against the entity. I then conjured my sword to stab the entity, but then it nigh-instantly decayed into some useless crap after I stabbed it. I then asked a higher being to get rid of it, so he put it into my crown chakra since everything is a part of me I guess and I fucking hate the fact that all is one and one is all so he did some bullshit like >oh you want this guy gone? >well guess what? >satan is you >all the goetia demons are you >lilith is you >all the succubi are you >all the freemasons are you >all the reptilians are you >all the mantids are you >all the rapists and murderers are you >biden is you >all of the liars are you >all of your enemies are you >now quit rejecting them and just accept this abhorrent creature into your crown so you can get closer to being one with existence already >also you're not allowed to have fun because your desire to enjoy life is preventing you from ascending you need to desire learning only who cares what your inner child thinks fun is a sin >yes, in fact, if you just mindlessly accept everything without question, then you'll ascend, and you definitely won't get mind-controlled by some evil spirit if you do this >ill just put him inside of your crown instead of "getting rid of him" because there's no such thing as getting rid of him because absolutely everything is you with absolutely no exceptions he didn't actually say any of that stuff, but according to his subsequent actions, he might as well have said it, minus the no fun allowed parts So the entity got put inside of my crown, and from there it began entering my soul. I then had the idea of "ripping out of the akasha" a tremendous amount of "death energy" into a hyper-compressed state right inside of that entity, and I told my subconsciousness to do it and I felt a black shock throughout my upper body as the entity died a few seconds later. I'd then told my subconsciousness to put the death energies back into the akasha, and I'd felt it go away. I'd soon afterwards felt guilty for killing the entity, so I went and brung it back to life, but I had a hard time doing it. I'd then asked Mormon Jesus to remove the entity, and the entity actually got removed from the body part of the all that the physical guy and his soul and mental body and spiritual body that are posting this is, because I know he doesn't do that bullshit I'd mentioned earlier. Only reason I'd picked Mormon Jesus is because I have too much energy blockage between me and the Catholic one, and I doubt that he even exists anymore, whereas with the Mormon one I can easily believe that he exists and therefore has actual fucking power and isn't what a mundane person would call a mere figment of my imagination, unlike the Catholic Jesus. I have a gargantuan amount of resentment towards higher beings for not helping me enough in my times of need, and for reality just being the way it is. These anger issues might even go back towards my parents and everyone else whos ever told me to do things that I didn't wanna do. Also, that black entity might've just been my shadow, and now I'm repressing it, or my attempt to contact that 1st higher being to help me was intercepted by the black entity. Now I'm gonna have to ask you a very completely genuine question, /fringe/. Am I gonna have to just accept AND act upon the desire to give my free will away to absolutely everything in all of existence and just mindlessly accept AND act upon every desire that comes over me no matter what the consequences are? Do 4D and higher STOs act like this? It is possible to decide not to act upon a desire without repressing energy and creating a parasitic thoughtform out of that energy? I am fucking mad by the way. I have alotta repressed anger coming to the surface, and I hate the fact that I can't just let the anger dissipate into nothingness by partaking in entertainment. There's no such thing as cooling off because the anger energy created a thoughtform that shields me from myself with my own energies and it won't let me find it so I can kill the god-forsaking thing by absorbing it and getting my energies back.

I also hate the fact that society is inevitably collapsing; that all of humanity's scientific achievements will crumble to dust and be forgotten, just so that humanity won't be attached to their own creations and political issues anymore and will be forced to look within themselves instead of escaping from themselves with entertainment. Or at least that's what I'm being led to believe. Almost everything that I've ever cared about is humanity's creations! If we go back to the stone age all I'll have is my flesh & blood family, and Amy, but I'll go so insane from boredom that I'd probably die of sleep deprivation again, except this time I probably wouldn't get to come back to life because I'd just go crazy and die again. I wouldn't have enough sanity left to learn anything much without some serious intervention. I NEED SOME SORT OF ESCAPISM THAT DOESN'T TAKE THE FORM OF SLEEPING IN BED AT NIGHT! Also, I wanted to mention on Sunday that I found out that my heart & throat chakras are really big, while my other 5 chakras are of a pretty normal-looking size, and my aura is mostly green with some blue parts. I went to Cassadaga again that day and stumbled after I got there upon a machine that scans your aura and shows you a picture of it. I'm kinda worried now about my crown being green. Specifically light green, and my heart was dark blue?

>>4874 Just reinvent culture and write the stories yourself, creation is more fulfilling than consumption anyhow. (Also even in a collapse it's likely you'll be able to scrounge/protect some of the things you care about the most unless it's a true full-blown collapse, at which point your survival is in question enough that you will be plenty entertained just by the actual process of living)