My awakening was sadly just puberty induced attraction. And that's not nearly as nice as having an experience that changes you.

>>9814 I see, it was less of a lightbulb moment in that sense of "oh, actually, little girls are actually really hot" and more of a "wow, I didn't understand just how amazing it can be to have them around and the way they make me feel" kind of way. I've reflected a lot especially after they went back to school I was hit with major depression as if it was some abstinence withdrawal symptoms hitting me at first. It didn't help that their mom texted me a couple of times afterwards telling me how much they missed me as they were constantly gushing over me and asking if I would come back

Interacting with children every day used to be the norm for all of humanity.

My "awakening" was neither tbh. I always liked little girls, but when I was like 15 or 16 I realized that wasn't normal anymore

>>9824 This appears to be the norm from what I've found, so OP is probably in the minority >>9812

>>9825 What have you found?

>>9826 Just listening to a few podcasts on the topic and reading some articles. This whole process of awakening seems to be most common in the form you describe, that people tend to realize at a mid to late teen age that all or most of their peers dont find the same appeal in the things they do in terms of dating, girls, relationships and so on.

>>9827 >few podcasts on the topic and reading some articles Links?

>>9828 Sure, here's three i found quickly, a bit short but theyre on the subject and one is about treatment, really interesting https://podcasts.apple.com/us/podcast/belinda-winder-on-pedophilia/id524122804?i=1000500986241 https://www.bfm.my/podcast/the-bigger-picture/live-learn/christoffer-rahm-can-paedophilia-be-treated https://prostasia.org/vodcast/a-new-breakthrough-in-the-treatment-of-pedophilic-disorder/

>>9812 >smiles, their hugs, their smell and kisses and cuddles and just everything really. Appearances are established sure, but what about actual interests or hobbies?

>>9825 That's what I suspected, thanks

>>9830 Okay, I'll call them Emily and Emma because they're twins. Emma is more extroverted while Emily is introverted and likes things that you can usually do inside, not that she dislikes being outside but she likes watching things on the tablet or movies on the TV and such. She enjoys food more than Emma who just kinda sees eating as this chore to do in order to play more outside. Emma is more prone to taking risks and dares than her sister and likes to try new things more. She also likes videos but the difference is probably she specifically likes videos of something being made like cooking tutorials or watching the process of something growing while Emily enjoys shorter more comedy and entertainment based ones and vloggers. Emma's favourite books vs Emily's also have a contrast. Emma again likes to even just read a cook book or book about a specific topic while Emily likes animal books with a lot of pictures and smaller easier texts. In their music taste I believe they're the same mostly though they generally listen to what their parents put on. Other hobbies as you can maybe guess by now, for Emma, centers around things she can do outside, exploring and everything, while Emily enjoys quiet alone time and little solo arts and crafts projects or even just rearranging stuff or sorting stuff

>>9832 I'm gonna guess Emma might try out for the volleyball team around the highschool time while Emily might come to like anime or find her way to the chans due to a youtube channel

>>9840 That's possible I suppose, she does like sports and very physically active things. I introduced them both to some anime when babysitting them this summer, lots of slice of life and some classics that their parents approved of. Emily seemed to approve as did Emma. Dear god I hope not but might be inevitable, lol

>>9841 >I introduced them both to some anime Why do you hate your nieces?

>>9842 I love them and I think a little bit of anime is fine, pokemon and such y'know

>>9842 Tell me why you hate jap cartoons, anon

>>9845 It's literally been scientifically proven that they turn you gay and leftist.

>>9845 Specifically I showed them some nichijou and azumanga, subbed ofc, ain't letting them grow up with dubs, except maybe pokemon

>>9846 Aight

>>9846 [citation needed] As I recall, it is lefties who lack empathy and also hate cute things. I'm not a brain scientist, so I don't know the proper vocabulary, but I believe leftists tend to have an underdeveloped region that happens to contain your response to something cute.

>>9848 Based, both of those are fun to watch

>>9850 Hell if I know I don't much care for politics

>>9851 I've some other in mind like hanamaru kindergarten or tamako market, I think certain absurd humor like pop team epic might fly over their heads so I'll see what else I can show that doesn't have too many Japanese exclusive references for jokes or raunchy humor and stuff like that. That and of course unfortunately can't show stuff like lucky star yet or other great ones cus of all the lolicon stuff, sadly

>>9853 >That and of course unfortunately can't show stuff like lucky star yet or other great ones cus of all the lolicon stuff, sadly They are the perfect age for that actually

>>9853 And yes before anyone inevitably points it out I get the irony of me not showing certain comedy or slice of life anime to them because of the lewd jokes or lolicon stuff, pot meet kettle and everything, very funny and ironic considering the topic and the board it's on, harr harr harr

>>9855 Think of it like this, they'll know exactly what you're doing if you show them it, so if they don't immediately run to tell mom it means they're down.

>>9853 >>9854 >>9855 Pretty sure the target demographic for lucky star was otakus? But most anime that aren't for adults have a target audience of kids who are too old for the baby/toddler oriented television stuff.

>>9854 I just said, yeah the irony of it all and perhaps they are but to me, personally, nah not yet, maybe eventually sure but ah idk, for now I'll start really light and basically avoid as much of the lolicon or japanese culture jokes, azumanga actually had less of those than I first expected actually

>>9857 Sure sure but like stuff like toradora for example and lucky star and even kobayashi kinda has too lewd moments or moments where the joke is lolicon related so, we'll see, eventually for sure but just not right now when we've only seen a few episodes of like 4 different ones

>>9856 Goddammit, yeah I get that but, christ, I still wanna introduce that slowly in small amounts.

>>9832 They both sound like they're great in their own ways, treasure these lolis, anon

Honestly, people completely fail to realize that children are just small humans. Some of them are great, some of them are awful. Having a genuinely great experience with lolis irl is not incredibly common, but it's definitely not impossible. I remember the time I spent with my niece when she was in that stage very fondly. Nothing lewd ever happened, aside from inappropriate playfulness on her end that I didn't encourage. It's entirely possible to enjoy your time around young girls without awakening some angry rape demon from the pit of your soul.

>>9812 >Their smiles, their hugs, their smell and kisses and cuddles and just everything really describe in detail these events

>>9918 How

>>9922 describe the kisses and hugs and smells and how they happened how they felt your biological response to these events

>>9926 That's not creepy at all, no sir.

>>10079 you're on a pedophile board

Hotties

>>10080 Being on a pedophile board doesn't not make it creepy. Creepy is creepy regardless of what orientation is being pandered to. Try again.

>>10096 Being interested in physical affection is not creepy and thinking that wanting to hear about people being physically affectionate is puritanism

>>10097 There's a clear difference between wanting physical affection, and saying things like "describe the smells and how they happened." If you had said "Tell me how it went; who initiated what and such in some detail," I wouldn't have said anything. But asking OP to describe every minute detail, and in such in odd manner is like some weird autistic affectation that normal people don't do.

>>10098 Im not him though, im a different person than the other posters. >Weird and autistic Where do you think we are, anon?

>>10099 In a place where we ought to at least act like somewhat well adjusted adults, anon. Being a pedophile doesn't automatically make you some weirdo creep with no self-perceptiveness. That's a teleio myth, and we aren't helping it any by being excessively strange.

>>10100 No you retard, on an imageboard. It has nothing to do with pedophilia. Do you think normal people spend time on websites like these? Not that its a bad thing, normalfaggots can lick my piss. Now onto more important matters: Is it illegal to modify a child-sized body pillow to emulate human warmth and ambient sound? Since it's apparently illegal to get a doll, and I think dolls are creepy anyway, the next best option must be explored!

>>10101 Imageboards are frequented by normal people. That's the point; we're not all maladjusted weirdos and we should act like it, either. And no, just get a doll if you want "human warmth" or whatever the fuck. A pillow that emits sound is even weirder than an illegal doll.

>>10102 >get a doll if you want "human warmth" Clown world

>>10102 >>10104 honk honk

>>9850 I saw that post. It was a half chan one on why a lot of leftists hate anime and cute things especially the sexual aspect of it but then love ugly things like Big Mouth.

>>10104 Dolls or anime body pillows never quite do the trick, it helps, but they are not alive, so close but not close enough

>>9860 you're doing the right thing anon. personally i wouldn't even THINK of introducing it to them AT ALL but that's just cause i would hate myself if i did

>>10101 >i am totally okay with letting go of all of my inhibitions and embracing and promoting weirdo behaviours that distort my head because it makes me feel good when even people on here get weirded out, it's more because it's straight up unhealthy. don't be like this, anon.

>>11154 pussy

>>11154 I mean, it really is just about picking the right ones that have to serve a few purposes. one, it has to be innocent enough that if they tell parents about it, then it wont raise any red flags or if the parents just discover it yknow. second, it has to be something that teaches them what i've already been teaching them partly, that nudity is okay and not to be ashamed of and that relationships with older people and younger is not wrong either

>>9812 There is something about lgs that I can only describe as magic. When they're happy they have this warm happy glow that's contagious and better than any drug. Pretty girls' happiness is the source of my happiness.

>>11160 I suppose it's the only word i too can really only feel is fitting, it's certainly surreal. Seeing as how i didnt feel or think this way for a long time before these interactions ive now had. In the end that's all that will ever matter to me, that they're both happy, that i make them feel loved and make them smile. That doesnt have to involve anything physical, sure it's nice to get kisses and hugs and cuddles and all that stuff but it's not a necessity to me at least.