>>3300
Hey, guys, it's me, again. I can't believe my post is still here.
Things have not gotten much better for me, creatively, but I've made a lot of progress in healing, mentally, and I'm making some strides. I've decided to try other avenues of creativity, and to this end, I've been buying materials and setting them aside in order to try Muppet-style puppets, sewing, and terrain building for RPG games.
Why am I setting them aside? Because Covid was not kind to my boomer parents and, due to me not being able to work a job, I've ended up becoming a part-time (sometimes much more) caregiver to both of them. Dad's lost the use of his legs due to mini strokes, and my mother either has dementia or some sort of circulatory problem that's wrecking her, cognitively. He's living in a care facility, and she's still living at home, and I'm spending a lot of time between the two places making sure they're comfortable and surviving.
In between various old folks appointments, I've also managed to make a new friend via church and my son is engaged to a lovely young woman who is the holy grail of the meninist community. The depression I've lived with all my life is still there, and most likely always will be, but I've learned many tools to combat it, and it rarely has a hold on me for longer than a day or two before it hides itself.
Things are too busy for creativity, for the most part (although I still sometimes sketch simple things when the mood hits me), but I'm doing things that matter for the first time in a long time, and that's a good thing.
When my parents pass, I'll start using the supplies I've stockpiled more often. Don't forget my warning from before, but know that, though it's taken me the better part of 15 years, I'm starting to claw back some things that allow me to create. It's not what I want, exactly, but I'll take what I can get, and some of these things may eventually unlock my art and writing blocks.
God bless, and God speed