>>36057
My father is dead, I never could fit into his box despite how hard I tried to appease him and his followers. He was a slave to the jewish book they call 'bible' (albeit not as bad as the 'talmud' or 'koran') and even with his long decline unto death (he never did seriously try any health remedy I researched and recommended), the rest of the family also remain so... They never consider that their 'hope' that demands 'obedience' to one proto-communist strain of ancient semitic cultural norms, could be harmful. I have suffered immensely my whole life because my very existence (who I am as a 2-Spirit Neoepicurean Libertarian in favour of pro-White-Eugenics) is 'sinful' according to their 'bible'. I suppressed myself out of fear and terror of the illogical 'bible slaves' my ex-father first among them, and I have suffered more than the rest of my 'family' combined over the years. For me my father was already essentially dead to me the moment I realized I had to hide my true desires, my feminine voice, my full love for my mother, my doubts, and my questions... and that was over 2 decades ago. I will dedicate the rest of my life to (DIVINE) MUSIC, MY (CHOSEN) FAMILY, and (CREATING) MY TRUE RELIGION (something that could be possible and is GOOD [increases beauty, and reduces unnecessary pain) even if it were not completely true). I will also be there for my mother, (although I will seek other loves as she wishes) despite her making it abundantly clear she will never love me more than her 'bible' or her dead husband... her love for him and his 'bible' is more conditioning than anything else... the real world is full of suffering, butt averting your eyes to it out of (false) hope can cause you to miss out on what love could have been. If only my mother had been as devoted to me as she was to her ex-husband and his 'bible'. All this said, today has still been a very sad day, I wish my father had actually have been a good father for me. Regardless, I truly am done, with so many things. I will not be living as I have been, I will quit unnecessary and unproductive things as much as possible... 'consumption' of fiction first among them... the weak child has to die so the adult wild child, one that lives for today as much as the future, can be born nya~