>be me
>struggle for years without landing a decent job, get super depressed because cannot enjoy ABDL like I want to
>recently (3 months ago) get a job that allows me to live by myself and indulge in many hobbies
>decide to splurge and buy some onesies, toys, plushies, bottles and pacis
>get 3 cases of plastic cover, medical with decent ml
>go to bed every night in full little attire, already wet and wet during the night a bit more
>decide fuck it, lets add some MindMaster - baby training tracks to the mix since I am wetting more easily while lying in bed, semi-awake
>notice that I am starting to enjoy more my little side, and feel happier and more content with accepting myself as a little
>peeing starts to feel amazing, like a soothing and more relaxed almost-orgasm
>started watching videos of milky breasts to condition myself to wet on demand replacing the arousal response
>I notice that sometimes I do get stronger spurts when looking at breasts and I am definitely invaded by strong urges to suck on something, not drooling yet though
>feelsgoodman.jpg
>eventually looking at breasts to induce peeing and while sucking my thumb or pacifier is a way I can achieve pleasure without actually masturbating and I am loving it
>this goes on for a while
>last week, family dinner, my brother announces his wife's pregnant
>baby is due for end of this year
>MFW I gotta stop all my routine and start trying to stay away from those files or shit is going to get weird when I go visit and my sister-in-law eventually feeds her baby in front of me
*FML.*