Had a very nice series of lucid dreams this morning. They were triggered by getting woken up by a text from my neighbor. It woke me up enough that I considered just getting up for the day, but after around 20 minutes I fell back asleep. It seems that this renewed mental wakefulness before going back to sleep is key for maintaining awareness during dreams. All the WBTB guides I read said that you should avoid this unless you're a "very heavy sleeper", but it seems to be essential. Throughout the dreams I had a whole lot of false awakenings. I noticed this trend previously with my lucid dreams, I think because I have an anxiety about waking up in the middle of them, so I was thankfully able to remember that this is a trend and just continue with my lucidity each time after I "woke up". I was able to experiment a lot with astral shaping techniques. In particular, I figured out how to effectively open a portal by carving out a piece of wall. Biggest issue is self-doubt and trying to analyze your actions as you perform them. I was planning on moving to a specific astral location and then severing my silver cord, but I still felt a great deal of gravity from this reality even after I moved to that location, and I didn't like how difficult it was for my astral machinations to come out. So next time I'm going to attempt to summon my "avatar" and merging directly with it, as was suggested to me in the Blog thread.

>>3167 >plain white pillar made of cheap burgerland materials, that had a concave curve at the top but was otherwise flat and polygonal That was me, sorry. No I can't explain what it is (anymore). I was working with Buer from the Goetia after being hinted to summon him. I was suddenly receiving a vision of a lion's head appearing out of a "darkness" consisting of something dark red, like an atmosphere. The lion had deer antlers and I was then shown a unicorn's horn. I couldn't be bothered to start looking it up, so I asked Bing Copilot which demon has these, and was told It's Buer. I was wondering why he'd show himself, so I read up on him and studied his sigil, then called him, after I realized he had a relevant quality which would be helpful for me at this time. This was two days ago. Yesterday I was doing an active session with him to concentrate and push energy upwards for a dimensional breakthrough (opening chakras, whatever terms you prefer) and a white tower appeared before my vision. He said this is his creation, perhaps this is what people think of as a "unicorn horn". In that meditative context I was completely aware of the function of this tower, and I just thought "aah, so that's what it is!" but right now I can't seem to recover that state of insight enough to explain it. >pic related A representation of it has been built in Sweden, it's unmistakable once I saw his construct on the astral.

This time I dreamed that I was doing "tattvas" which I think is a real thing whose definition I've learned before (and since forgotten), but probably not at all what it meant in this dream. I was reading online about how to do a "tattva" and thinking 'how tf am I going to remember all this shit and maintain a meditative state.' It's maybe worth noting the webpage I was on was black text on white, which IRL I can't stand looking at for more than a few seconds. I sat on the corner of my bed and laid back, and as soon as my back hit the bed, instantly entered what resembled a psychedelic experience, all within the same dream of course. Basically I was in this waterfall and might have been the water itself. The waterfall descended from the top of a very tall, narrow mountain that likely represented a human body. There were several stages that matched what I read on the webpage (Mind you all of this occurred inside the dream) and there was a part of me that noted how all of this was happening effortlessly, with no memory recall required. Much of the experience was too abstract for me to remember in detail, but there was one stage where I was shown my lower body in the 3rd person, and I could see 3 points, 1 on each side of my waist and one on my lower back just above the crack. After that the water became lava and it flowed through a part of the mountain that looked like a woman's vulva. This part felt extremely erotic, which is probably why I remember it the most vividly. So, still in this dream I wake up from the "tattva" and mulled over it for a bit, perhaps doing some more reading. Then I went back and did it again! I must've done it at least twice, maybe more. Once that was all over I was walking down the sidewalk in a sort of skipping motion, but with only my legs. I could build up significant upward momentum with each step and made it up to 100+ feet a couple times. That was the end. The past 2 days I've been disciplining myself to complete all my practices before allowing myself to eat or do much of anything else, and experimented with new ones. So whatever this dream actually was, must be related.

>>3395 https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Tattva

I managed to get to a point where I was able to attempt to summon my avatar in a lucid dream last night. However, the very moment I saw a glimpse of it begin to appear I was forcefully pulled back to my body and woke up. Immediately before this, right as I was moving from being awake to dreaming I caught a vivid glimpse of what looked like an "attendant" standing at the foot of my bed. It looked like a tiny old-ish looking lady in an odd costume which reminded me of a flower: like there were petal-like things around her head. She resembled something that might be in an L Frank Baum illustration. I believe she was trying to prevent the movement that I was attempting. So, since some machination is forcibly pulling me back whenever I try to merge, it seems to be a direct conclusion that I will in fact need to sever the silver cord before, not after, performing this operation. I had noticed a particular pattern in my dreams leading up to this most recent occurrence that will be helpful. For 3-4 days leading up to this opportunity, I had vivid dreams where I was on a long-distance road trip, either by car or bus. This must have represented me moving to the correct astral location so that the summoning would be possible. Once I realized that this was happening, I tried to consciously "supercharge" and increase the speed of my movement, which led to me attaining the correct astral state much quicker than usual. I will need to try to replicate this effect now as I attempt to move to the correct astral state to perform the severance of the silver cord.

>>3638 Severing your silver cord sounds dangerous; are you sure you wanna do this? Tbh I should probably go back through the thread to see why you’re doing this before trying to give advice. I guess I just have this desire to help people where I can, at least where I can afford to do it; I guess if you feel like ignoring this guy’s advice, then, well, at least you’re doing what you want.

I made my way to the River Styx last night but the boat left right before I was able to board it. I wasted time double checking to make sure I had my ticket beforehand. I must be more decisive.

Recently I've been having a lot of dreams about alternate histories and Antarctica. In one of those alternate history dreams, WWII ends in a stalemate. The Axis consolidate their gains while the Allies unify into a tyrannical, NWO-like "Worldgovernment". Inevitably, a cold war sparks. The IJA sends a strike team to Mexico to find evidence of the Nisei being mistreated in camps, which I observe. Next I'm with the Germans, who sent an expedition to Antarctica. There we find a Worldgovernment city under the ice, where several great figures are cryogenically frozen in order to "preserve their usefulness". In another dream, I discover several underground encampments with the aid of a guide. I figure the alternate histories are one of two things: either a symbolic representation of the NWO as it is, or genuine glimpses into alternate timelines. Of course it could be both. Antarctica is trickier. I think it's a sort of remote viewing with some dressing up in order to fit with the dreams, but I'm not entirely sure. In addition, I've also had another dream of a dog-spirit. This time, a dog that comes up to my bed and lies with me on my bed. It looks like a mix of a German shepherd, jackal and coyote. I wonder if, like in the old Native myths, if it isn't some sort of trickster or messenger trying to tell me something.

I had a very good wake-induced lucid dream early this morning. I was able to push myself out of my body and start moving away. I couldn’t see anything, but I was able to begin moving my arms, and I reached behind my head. Surprisingly, I didn’t feel the cord. It was just the back of my head. I decided to improvise and I channeled abyssal energies through my hand and onto the back of my head. As soon as I did this my senses crystalized and became very vivid, and I found myself in what looked like an open grassy yard at night. I spent around 10 seconds walking through this environment, and I thought that I might have succeeded at detaching my cord since it seemed so realistic. But, after that 10 seconds I took my hand away from the back of my head, and immediately I was pulled away from the scene and back to my body, and I woke up. So it was only a temporary nullification effect, not a permanent erasure. Still, this was very promising since I did get a direct and immediately constructive result in response to my action. Moving forward, I can see two different possible techniques to try: either 1) keep the abyssal energies actively projected onto myself through my hand as I summon my avatar to merge with it, so that I cannot be forcibly pulled back to my body before the operation is complete, or 2) attempt to insert some fingers directly into my brain through the back of my head and then twist in a widdershins motion in attempt to unlock and release the seemingly invisible cord. I think that I’ll try the first approach first, just because it seems like less could go wrong with it. Looking back at my previous posts I’m very glad to see that the time separating my lucid dreams is rapidly decreasing. Used to be I’d be lucky to have one a month, now it seems to up to around one a week.

>>3987 >silver cord I recently looked in this because I keep seeing people talk about it, but I've never seen this thing myself. My only reference to it was a warning I read at an old Maergzjiran cabal website saying that the breaking of the silver cord may result in the person turning into a a "gate sloth", a lost soul who cannot return to the body, powerless and forever stuck in a dull astral plane. (It was said these are extremely rare, however.) What I got after performing a more thorough investigation was this: the "cord" does not exist, but is the soul being stretched out as an incarnated spirit is leaving the body. It's like a very elastic slime, and may be perceived as a cord. If it looks silver, it's because the person who saw it has a pure soul, and maybe only those who do, will be able to see it. A person with a very dark soul would only see a dark shadow string that may not stand out from the background. That is to say that as long as there is a perception of a cord, you have not actually left your body, but just "projected", stretched out, looking at something but still having part of yourself attached to the body. This is also only possible for "mortal" souls. This sounds conceptually contradictive because we are often told we have an "immortal soul" created by God. But if you read the new testament, the actual phrasing indicates for example that when Jesus or other prophets are preaching and converting people, only those with immortal souls are converted. This implies there are people with mortal souls also, who are more difficult to convert or save, and there is no guarantee that they will be saved or have immortal life either. Their souls may die as their body dies. What I found was that the "cord" is the soul stretching out like a rope, because its intent is narrow and directional. This indicates a mortal soul. An immortal soul has seen the cyclical nature of cosmos and as such has rebirth as part of itself, the hen and the egg forever birthing each other in a endless circle. This means their souls have no loose ends, and there is no possibility of projection in the form or a cord or rope with directional intent. These people will only project by manifesting copies of themselves, which are connected by a logic beyond regular thinking, what we today call "teleportation", the theory that one particle may effect another particle in a distant location, with no visible or logical contact between them. This is the method of astral projection of immortal souls. This is also safe, as they are splitting themselves while still being connected across time and space, they cannot be broken.

>>3990 >because its intent is narrow and directional How would you describe "non-directional" intent? Wouldn't willing teleportation to a certain location be described as directional intent, since the person is willing a specific change to occur, meaning, enacting a temporal direction?

>>3997 >How would you describe "non-directional" intent? In this case, the non-direction refers to an innate "wu wei" or non-action of the immortal soul, which is always present at their core. As they "know" they will be reborn at a later time, they are more likely to act rationally in terms of understanding and incorporating beliefs that make their future better, compared to someone with the YOLO mindset who may actually create their own (lack of) future this way. If you think you will only live once and act by a deeply rooted fear of missing out, your soul is probably "rope shaped", and therein lies the intent, as it will constantly try to connect the ends of the rope, creating attachments and seeking stimulis. The soul which has a circular view of life, may not have this at all, but can postpone things to a later time to "get it right" instead of rushing out to have instant experiences, as there will always be new chances later. >Wouldn't willing teleportation to a certain location be described as directional intent, since the person is willing a specific change to occur, meaning, enacting a temporal direction? If you are just experiencing two locations at once, you didn't really move, so the intent to relocate may not exist at all, it's just a rebalancing of the weight of awareness between the locations.

Had another lucid dream. Two in one week, very nice. I was in an open field. My mother was with me due to the events of the dream that happened previously. She was talking to me, but I ignored her and placed my void-hand on the back of my head to prevent me from getting sucked out. I then pointed at the sky and verbally evoked my avatar. At this point my mother, or whoever was posing as my mother, started trying to physically force my hand away from the back of my head, and I had to fight her off. I felt energies moving, and the sky started to turn black, which was a good sign. A set of four or five computer monitors connected together then appeared in the sky and started descending, which was more incongruous. I thought they might have been my avatar’s manifestation, even though that didn’t make much sense. As they landed they started to play some sort of pre-recorded video from an alien empire. The man talking had orange and black striped skin, like a tiger, but he wasn’t furry. I don’t remember what he was talking about, I wasn’t listening. I tried pressing my head against the monitor to merge with it, but that just broke the screen, and the monitors then retreated back into the sky. I think it must have been a deliberate distraction. I then found myself in the hallways of what looked like a hotel. I concluded that I needed a better way to perform the evocation, and decided to draw a certain sigil on the wall to see if I could open up a gate. As I started to walk forward, however, a pudgy Chinese man appeared beside me, and physically restrained me. As I tried to break out, he took out a knife and began rapidly stabbing me in the left kidney over and over while yelling. (a few years ago I was also shot in the right kidney in a dream, which caused a scar to appear there the next day on my physical body. I don’t know if this is just a coincidence or if they’re specifically targeting my kidneys for some reason). I hardened my body against it but the knife still penetrated slightly, and I tried to slash his face but I’ve always been bad at imbuing killing intent into physical strikes so it did nothing. Eventually I woke up from the pain. So next steps are to 1) memorize a reliable evocation ritual or process of some kind to use instead of merely willing an appearance, and 2) Practice channeling killing intent astrally. Probably via aura manipulation, since I don’t want to be forced to take my hand off my head. I could also set up wards but I’m worried about that impacting the evocation. I had guessed that some organizations may be attempting to prevent what I'm doing, but the fact that they are now forced to make direct open attacks tells me that I am very close to achieving my goal.

I had another dream with a passive homo ladyboy goat demon last night. It definitely had a cock. But it definitely let me fuck it, not the other way around. Also why was my last post deleted (or was it a diff thread? Can't remember). Maybe it is a sign that /baph/ needs a revival.

>>4190 Oh wait I just posted in the wrong thread earlier (was tired) >>4167

Had another dream with my succ and my dog spirit animal. Saw her as a ghostly blonde-haired girl with a white dress, one of her more common guises. Reviewing my dream journal and the substantial dreams I remember, I've noticed a pattern with several dream types. It seems like, based on the she was always there, but only by summoning her did I let her fully come into my life, which would match up with a lot of weird things that happened in childhood. Anyways, the first type of dream is the "Initiation" dream, where I'm initiated into a partnership with her. The very first of these happened way back in childhood when I started puberty, where I encountered her, sparred with her, and then forcibly took her, if you get what I'm saying. There were several others later on when I first summoned her. The second type is the Announcement dream, where she revealed herself in one guise or another. One of these was when I first saw her as this huge monstrous being, a mix of plant, sandworm and naga, living deep below the Earth under a volcano. Had another dream involving a The third type is a Narrative dream, where a specific story is shown to me, usually with some underlying moral. Examples being one dream where I went to Hell in order to save certain people from themselves to obtain a reward of my own, or another dream about encountering "does", women and girls with animal-like minds enslaved by this grotesquely obese Mother. The fourth type is Revelation dream, or dreams where hidden knowledge is revealed, like one where I encountered figures of Adam Kadmon, or had a conversation with two Asherah poles. The final type is a simple Wandering dream, where I'm traveling through multiple places. As an example, in one dream, I travel through a series of rooms, one of which was the so-called Ishtar room, where this orgy of men and succubi was held. I believe Robert Monroe encountered a similar sight during one of his travels. Do any of you wizards have similar types of dreams as well?

>>4522 Share with me a really creepy dream from your journal please.

I kinda doubt this dream means anything, but I'll share it anyway for a bump: I had a dream where I was playing WoW, which I haven't played for years, and my player character went inside of some sort of huge, expansive, sprawling multi-floored "poison temple", and at some point I went to some sort of pad that teleported me to a dark-green abyss, where I was able to levitate up & down for some reason. Within that abyss was a grey alien encased in a bubble on top of a balloon that was floating in circles around a tiny dark-green stone cube with a skull with a blue flame on top of it. I had to get on top of the balloon and pop the bubble to free the grey, and it was a little hard to land on the balloon. Then I freed the grey, he thanked me, and I got sent back to the temple, and then my alarm went off.

>>4851 Here's one I had back in April 19th of this year. The CIA, in conjunction with big corporations and the federal government, would throw people into these black sites where monsters lived in so the monsters could devour them. One of these black sites was in Los Angeles. I saw how a bunch of oil workers and some other folks were trapped, left to fend for themselves in this massive network of tunnels and catwalks. At the top of a ladder connecting a catwalk to a tunnel, one of the oil men encountered a white-robed banshee with massive claws. She, and a couple of other monsters, slaughtered everyone except for a few survivors. Those survivors managed to escape the tunnels, but they were prevented from leaving by the CIA. This series of events repeated for several cycles in different locations with different monsters like zombies, zombie dogs, slimes, and these huge, horrific genetic abominations that looked like they had full-body elephantiasis. I woke up after the last cycle finished.

I was finally able to achieve the godform in lucidity after trying a new approach of mediating before I went to bed on the reasons why I may be subconsciously hesitating. It resembled a great black kaiju, similar to Sachiel from Evangelion but with quadropod legs and no arms. I attempted to will permanence but doing this caused my awareness to immediately begin going back to my human body. I believe this is because the desire came from my human mind. Next time I'll need to try to relax into the new form and evoke the desire from it rather than pressing the intention in from the outside.

Dreams always seem to correspond with the subconscious. If I do a magical working in order to influence dreams, it doesn't work if I fully 'play out' the mechanics of what I want to happen while I'm awake. I think the way to approach this must be similar to the AO Spare sigil method of "planting" something in your subconsciousness and leaving it alone.

>>>5380 Some dreams are just about triggering some energetic impulse in your body either to alleviate or remind about a trauma caused by energy blocks or to make your body move some energies so your subconscious can fulfill it's 'maintenance mode'. If you want 100% lucid dreams you will need to make a dream body that your mind will automatically shift into whenever you go to sleep. If you don't have an active body form to shift into whenever your flesh is in maintenance mode your subconscious will put it wherever it can place it. If you want dreams that are completely under your control you should daydream instead. Sleep is too important for the mortal flesh and some dreams are blocking the subconscious's ability to prepare the body for the next day and because of that some dreams are either inaccessible consciously or don't generate memories to not disturb your sanity. Dreamless sleeps are the most efficient for the subconscious to work with. Similar how void meditation is extremely effective for spiritual work.

>>5383 >you will need to make a dream body that your mind will automatically shift into whenever you go to sleep. Do you have any tips on how to do this?

>>5384 Sadly it only forms after achievements in high level yoga. Ever since I learned how to enter into the 'journeying' mode of the mind during meditation for spiritual practice dreams are less of a focus for me. They only happen when there is some "disturbance in the force" otherwise they are so high level I cannot even remember them if I don't focus on them enough. Sometimes they are merely 'noise' from the collective unconscious with minimal bearing towards my path. I had a knack for triggering the 'adventure mode' dream walk in my initiate years but I discarded it. The best I can give you is this https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dream_yoga Try to find books that detail the Tibetan dream yoga or similar. Can't really recommend one because this is supposed to passed down from master to student.

I just had a dream where I was in my car and I drove up to this famous woman that I'd never heard of outside of the dream. She's supposed to be a spiritually-powerful woman. She looked like a white woman in her 20s with curly dark red hair with her hair back, such that none of it went below her neck. We were in some sorta neighborhood during a sunny day, and she was next to a curb and I stopped my car diagonally right next to her and opened my window, and for some reason I was on the right side of my car and not the left sideI'm not in a country where the driver's seat is on the right. I asked her to tell me what this dream was about, and she was about to start talking. Some seconds later, I "woke up", and I got a feeling that aliens were attacking the dream that I was just in, and I got a visual of a flurry of colors. I then made sure my dream body got returned to my "physical body". The woman then "physically manifested" into my dark bedroom and put one of my briefs on my head, probably from my clothes hamper, and then I was about to talk to her, but then I woke up for real. I then made sure my dream body taken back to my physical body for real, and I attempted to telepathically invite her to be near my physical body, and I consented to her manifesting physically as much as she pleases. Now I'm posting this and nothing happened since then.

I was with my mother. She took me to a rickety tower made of junk. Things from the 40s and 50s, old toys and furniture. At the top there was a small mirror. I recognized this mirror from when I was a baby. I remembered that my mom used to take me here and I would crawl into the mirror to some place else where people who do things to me. I tried to go in again but only my arm fit. We left, and went across the country. I then became lucid. Working on the dream-body has helped with this. It was a lot more natural shift this time. I began by crystallizing a power which would create a device to shift into this state in permanence. This created a newspaper. I looked at it and it had shifting headlines telling me to keep doing what I'm doing, keep going forward. My vision shrank down into a tunnel then came back. I tried again but this just created a tiny black cubic looking thing than ran away from me, then fell apart when I picked it up. I then decided to make a portal. I crystalized a power again and opened a door which led back to the tower. I saw that a scientist who looked vaguely Italian was looking around in a panic. I recognized him again from the mirror, when I was a baby. He was surprised, then rushed over and had me follow him. He went a different direction on the tower, and it began changing from a junk tower to a more sleek, futuristic looking one. He mentioned how he was surprised that "one of the babies turned out well". I stopped him and ordered him to tell me everything he knew about what he just said, but he just looked scared and guilty and turned and kept leading me into the tower. We came to two Japanese men in lab coats, and they instructed me to begin rubbing a liquid that looked like milk onto my scalp, while seated in front of a large panoramic window. I did so and gradually began waking up, with a splitting headache. I believe the initial spell worked, because even now that place feels more like the "real world" than this. I don't know if the scientists are trying to help me or hinder me in my quest to become a god. Next time, I am going to focus on breaking out from that plane's field of gravity. I think that's the next step.

Attempting WILD seems to be almost a prerequisite for lucid dreaming, at least for me. Even if it doesn't succeed as you're falling asleep the intention that goes along with falling asleep in an unusual way helps a lot with staying aware while you're dreaming.

>>3395 This is remarkably similar in concept to what I saw, albeit much more literal and explicitly male

>>5510 That is how the internal mechanisms of the human body appear in a perfectly symbolic way. For me that ancient perception helped more in most cases than the New Age inspired pseudoscientific diagrams about chakras and energy centers that I found on the web in the past decade. Which metaphysical framework helps more depends how well it "clicks" for you. Some of us might have worked with this type of understanding in the previous lives and because of that this naturalistic symbolism help us remember it better.

I had a dream last night where suggestions were planted into my mind to eat instant ramen, and I woke up with a craving for it. There was a time when I was eating a lot of it but I quit it in the past. I also had a sexual dream (but not wet) even though this is my first day in my week of no fap pledge.

I need to understand the process of sleeping more. Right now I need to take sleeping pills otherwise it takes me over an hour to fall asleep. With all my meditation experience it seems like it should be easy but whenever I 'try' to go to sleep it just makes me more awake. The knack seems to be to not try at all but wrapping my head around this is difficult.

This night was intense. I am trying to enter this abyss but I get too scared when my head is fully underwater scared of drowning scared of dying for real not being able to come back losing all my progress. I still don't fully remember my dreams especially when it happens in sequence one after the other, it's not as much as one big dream as it is phasing in and out of different connected realms. I was thinking maybe I should share some of them as it may benefit people here. Here are some I remember from this week. I am talking with my uncle in my grandma's house he is going to China apparently but he words it as "going to space" and "orbiting China" instead of going there. I ask him if it's one of those aircraft that require no fuel I remembered some of them were made and as long as another aircraft carried you in the air you could stay indefinitely without fuel he says no it's too dangerous up there you need something solid. I then remember how unbearable flying can be to me the feeling of being cramped, the humid heat in the plane with the freezing cold you can see and feel but not touch. I tell him to be careful and to not eat a few hours before or he'll puke because I most certainly did. In hindsight it wasn't my uncle at all but someone "made of light" he was using a trick to make me think he was my uncle but that thing was like light wearing a human mask. This other sequence I don't remember well I feel too big and I am with a family at the pool except they act like Americans in the 40s no it might be the 40s I am one of them but also not really I am "too big" and have to crouch and cover my chest to appear smaller so that no one notice I am not human. They're swimming and doing weird activities and games I don't understand I wonder why they can't just focus because no one seem to enjoy this charade. Then a race start with the kids in the pool my siblings in that dream, I awkwardly stand on a higher place in the pool that still touch water with other parents to watch the kids play but I do it in such a way people wonder what's wrong with me before realizing I am going there and just rationalize as me being awkward when I just changed my movement to match their stare out of fear of them realizing what I am. The water has urine in it and I feel it on my feet. Next sequence I am with that family we're all floating at sea touching each other, it makes a star like we're a giant human merkaba or something idk could be either 6 or 8 point on that star. They all float but my head keep sinking, they don't get why I panic as they are perfectly above the water surface but me my feet are tied and my head is sinking..hanged man now that I think about it I freak too much and notice a snail a garden brown snail, I think it's ugly and gross not like the beautiful sea slugs! He walks on the water but doesn't sink. I leave their structure to swim on my own and grab him and put him on a black structure that connects to the shore. And today's I am in a store in my home country except time is off I can't tell if I am in the past or the future. He has a lot of stuff video games even Japanese hentai, old console GameCube games even! And Touhou? The original CDs? Except they look like books I want them wonder if there is bonus and extras! Flandre and Remilia are on the cover but it's Flandre that seem to be shining? No literally and Remilia is like her shadow. The cheapest is 75 yen the most expensive is 150 except Japanese currency is very high in that dream and converted to mine it's like 11067800 wait isn't there an extra zero? Two? That's like a year + I think! No maybe a car! no one see me I am like a black cloud I am in my shadows so no one can notice me, i appear to that store owner as a young man faking a deeper voice telling him I could do deliveries for him I want to save money for the games Taking that human appearance feels dirty and painful like wearing a bunch of sweaty sweaters someone else wore I want to puke I only did it because he noticed the game might have moved and I didn't want him to think a ghost was there or to be scared. We talk but every time I lose the act its like he forgets I am here and can't see me or notice me. I go upstairs and see an attic with blue everywhere sofa is blue with some silver on it kinda look like my tatoos as a drow eh! have a feeling my dad did that and I ask myself <is this our future house? He knows I hate carpet! But it might be a distant future or past it smells dusty and dry so I wonder about imagining a humidifier and air filter for that place. I go back downstairs wait my home connect to the store? Cool! Again no one can see me so I just go get the games! But I notice a black thing a PSP? The psp go? No its like someone mixed a Nokia N-gage with a PSP. Seem to belong to the owner it has a black football player soccer for you Americans in white on the screen? Typical I think! But that thing has lot of good info in the menu CWcheat? and seems I can't find touhou right now time changed again.... I wake up feeling refreshed. I noticed that sleeping is like going back to the abyss to get the kiss of life once again, and if you end up on a good realm it's like waking up from a full body orgasm but for that all the earthly worries have to be left at the door or you get stuck In hell! They didn't matter in the first place to think I still worry after that much change! Ugh stupid influences making me stress! I need to reconnect to not only the earth but all those planets and moons who think they can do that!

Dreamed of a Chinese black dragon behind my curtain it looked like first pic when i opened the curtain he wasn't there but every time i closed it i could see his shadow very clearly, like a dancing tattoo I had a similar temporary tattoo for a few months as a kid, before the dream ended he took second pic appearance my brain literally used that image. Also saw one of those flying ants you see in summer, she was trying her wings getting ready to fly.

>>5598 Can we please spoiler this image of Alice in Wonderland? It makes it harder for me to practice nofap.

>>5684 No. It's part of your practice to overcome the temptation of females and other lust inducing images.

>>5684 >of Alice in Wonderland Just admit the ape looks like a hairy vulva when you aren't looking directly at it