>>8104 I'll try to divine your situation and see if there's anything I can do to help. Being inside the church should not be a problem, I'm on good terms with Mary.

>>8104 Just do what you do, it'll be fine.

>>8104 >>8106 Thanks, I feel by now like the anger has been removed from me or at least dissolved or repressed in some way or the other, and in its place is alotta fear. I do remember how my psychologist says that anger is typically rooted within fear. Aside from that, I also don't feel like killing myself anymore. I'm just gonna go about my day now, I guess.

>>8107 After I was done with some personal workings I was building up towards, I had my Astra servitor look into what your issue is, then asked Mary how I could support you more directly. It seems to be about the same as was talked of before, your vow to follow Metatron from your life as a monk. At some point you'd be tested to see if your vow would hold up or not, but the way it was formed, you'd be "forced" to follow it, which would get very intense when hostile spirits try to make you stray from the path. They hate people who are firm in anything because they can't use them. That also serves as a "test of faith" which may also be seen as a test from God, who has power over all evil forces as well, and will use them to test you. Mary directed me to read a section from the OT, pic, which has some deep symbolic meaning, then just let the message stay in my mind while not trying to understand it in a logical manner, but allowing the abstract higher processes to grasp it, while I focused on encasing your surroundings in supportive energy. I did this until I felt the energy stabilize and resemble what I perceived Metatron's energy to be like. Then Mary said it was done.

>>8108 Thanks for the help. I will say: I dunno if anything that I could possibly imagine would ultimately make up for all the stuff God has put me through; having suffered more than the Christ did before He died. At least He had security of mind while He wasn't being tempted in the desert, but that was only for 40 days. What I've been going through started 10 or 11 years ago, and while I have had breaks from it, I've never ultimately been able to completely relax since then, except while I'd slept. I haven't truly had sanctity of mind for over a third of my life now; a sanctity that I'd used to have and had really taken for granted. I'm sure God would let me have a way out of the contract if I really wanted that didn't result in me being automatically consigned to a hell dimension or what have you... actually He just told me I'm a saint when I'd typed that so I guess He'd let me in Heaven anyway, but aside from that I don't even know what the full text of the contract is, so I don't know what'd happen to me if I'd opted outta the contract aside from still getting to go to Heaven at some point. And then even if I did know what the full text of the contract was, I'd still be getting pushed about by spirit guides until I eventually evolve into a peak-5D being in probably something like 60 trillion years, so I wouldn't truly be able to prevent others from telling me what to do until then. As such, I'd need to have some sort of backup plan that'd probably involve a pagan pantheon. I remember that Amy showed me my "soul room", and that it'd looked Egyptian. I've also been shown some other Egyptian stuff, so I'd be strongly considering having an Egyptian path as long as it'd be easier on me and I'd get to keep Amy. However, I haven't actually decided to opt out of the contract, so this is just reviewing my options at this point.

>>8071 >>8072 Thanks. I am trying to talk about it but as usual I get blocked. It's a safety mechanism metal rods holding the structure together with glue of pain which is what happens when you nuke your mental structure over and over.. Thing is in this era their is no playing it safe unless u become ascetic maybe it's the karma of those sinners to deal with us..ha! Anyway connected with these movies, not sure about the device one could be another influence mixed in buuut it seems more complicated than just a team project. There is also cibo from BLAME! which a characer I love <just like cibo Okay! I don't know how to connect with technology even right now i consider it from a biological perspective first. Phones are just portals the internet just a web covered in dew making a program is birthing it etc etc. And that's the cool not "all is flesh" version. I am trying to somehow distill this data into sharable form buuut <don't do it too much lest the alcohol forget the meaning/name of the plants I really wonder usually that kind of things is handled by my more focused parts but it seems my mortal self had to accept it. This is a "mask" false mind I am posting with to avoid exploding into murderous spirits...ugh should be fiiiiiine Do report anomalies I'll absorb the energetic stillborns of mine.

Moses just came by here in the form of a black astral cat. I stumbled upon him earlier, I guess all dimensions with "heretics" had been cleared up, one of my yellow soldiers from the army servitor found him in a desert. At first I thought it was another "living corpse" cult leader, because he had a similar black cloak, but then I realized the energy was "mild" and slightly brown instead of black, and the cloak had sigils on it. I didn't get a look at him, only perceived him as just "mild" and not bad. A little while ago, a large black cat appeared from the kitchen door astrally, but I realized it was him from the energy. He said "pls carry on" and that he'd just do a cleanse of my area and return again, because I'd be too tense and respectful if he stayed around (or something of that wording, which isn't wrong, I prefer to not interact with entities I don't have contracts with, and I didn't mean to form one with him).

>>8122 Can you make a Kabbalah thread in the coming days? I wanted to make one for long but as I wrote my previous post in the question thread I felt several energies trying to make sure that I say "truth" and as I made sure that what I say is true and useful I managed to connect to too many beings. In my current state I am unable to word things. I wanted to make a Kabbalah thread last year because you cannot have a western occultist website without a mention of the Tree of Life. But currently I don't have a composure to make threads like that. I wanted to start the Kabbalah thread by starting with widely accepted interpretations of it in the OP then explain the different ways occultists use it in the first post then continue it with my own interpretation and experiences but... nowadays I have too many ways I can interpret it and those ways shouldn't be shared carelessly. Even when I wrote my post in the question thread I had to put my hands together halfway in to center myself and make sure I do not insult any "members" of the tree but keep the post "fit" for the site/for the average /fringe/ poster/occultist. The tension was just too much. Because it served as a connection point in occult understanding. I don't think I am capable of making a proper thread for a while. Can I ask you to do it? You are far too eager for these things anyway. Try to keep it respectful and don't make it too vulgar like some of your threads like to be. But if you make the thread I have no right to complain. Kabbalah is too much of a hot topic for many people and beings and I am too bound by my "idealism" that I must be 100% right and cannot make mistakes. With this mentality I will never make threads as fast as you

>>8125 >Kabbalah is too much of a hot topic That's the problem now isn't it? Already brought up >>2328 and posts here >>7240 and here >>7906 But no one has any comment on it? Also you can't >>8125 >keep it respectful and don't make it too vulgar that's not what kabbalah is like. It's in-your-face offensive, just like Jewish mysticism and Order of Nine Angles overall. It doesn't work if you sneak around the topic like a cat at night. "Allah will intentionally mislead the heretics and destroy them"- kind of offensive. Talking about how the lower Sephiroth are the testicles and the clit is the least of the offensive here. I have to maintain this style of writing when on this topic, it seems. I wasn't aware of it until you mentioned it. It seems it works for me because I easily formulate posts this way anyway, but if I tried to explain kabbalah in a non-offensive way it would be even more offensive, because it's perverting the doctrine. You kinda can't talk about it without insinuating something by bringing up for example that https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Marriage_age_in_the_United_States some states in the USA has no lowest age for legal marriage. Funny how that works with the common view today? This looks very Jewish, some would say. Feeling upset? Good.

>>8128 There are occultists that come or return to fringe and scroll through the catalog to see if it has anything that they can comment on. There are 2 ways to make them interact with the site. Making the post useful, engaging for them or ragebaiting them. I don't like to do the latter because it's annoying. That is your style anyway. >>2328 This was about "Tanya" and it's too jewish or niche for newcomers and regulars. And it had 29 replies so I wouldn't call it ignored. >>7240 and >>7906 This was better but it was too shitposty and if no one takes it seriously they will ignore it. i wanted to make posts like that after the 4th or 5th post. I too have my "takes" that will make some eyes roll and heads ache. >Talking about how the lower Sephiroth are the testicles and the clit is the least of the offensive here. It is well known that Yesod/Moon is the genitals in many interpretation. Moon = sexuality is in present in many traditions. Hod and Netzach usually referred as the legs but yes it goes through the testicles too. Took me a while to get it "why". Leg and tight muscles are weird. >It seems it works for me because I easily formulate posts this way anyway Sometimes it feels like you cannot live without making a post like that once a day >but if I tried to explain kabbalah in a non-offensive way it would be even more offensive, because it's perverting the doctrine There are several interpretations and as long as you write it in a way that it can be applied then it should be right. My problem is that I have a lingering desire to write it in a way that whoever disagrees with me will face the wrath of God. Mostly because I worked with Gevurah too much and I still couldn't get the lingering influence out of my system. The way I would write it would serve as a massive initation system to whoever bothers reading through it and I would specifically word things that idiots will stop pestering me with retarded questions. Don't get it? Don't worry your signature had been noticed. Expect 10 000 beings initiating you in the coming days. Or they could read one of the 1000 occult books about Kabbalah instead of my post... People rarely like to read through world salads. >Funny how that works with the common view today? In my country the age of consent is 14 and I can marry a 16 year old girl with the consent of their parents and she will be considered as an adult in legal matters after the marriage. And it's not even the lowest in Europe. There are places where it's 12. Beating faggots and pedos are a natural sport here tho. But they have 0 right complaining about legal marriages and everyone hates anti-marriage fags here Fine. If you don't want to make it I will make it one day. Soon™ Or maybe an another occultist will rise to the challenge and write it and reap the boons of it? Maybe there is one in the making and we are not yet aware of it? Who knows. Miracles might happen.

>>8135 REEEEE

>>8135 Yeah basically, idk sometimes I come on here and troll also.

>>8135 >Making the post useful, engaging for them >or ragebaiting them There, I think >>8140 combines both approaches, in how it ignores completely the non-jewish usage of the word.

>>8125 >There are 2 ways to make them >make them Oh you can't make anyone anything really! More seriously though the issue with intent is complicated because it can poison everything and depending on your style create quite the cascade of energetic shenanigans. When I make a post I am quite literally condensing a part of myself into a crystalised form of my intent mixed with the present energies that I "eat" or breath in. Yeah "Duh!" Issue is when they decide to stay or fuse with a part of a website or become it. Everyone does that just liking a game and keeping the attachment make the game go one way or another but when someone advance the parts start to awaken and might decide to play command and conquer. What I am saying is we should have ideally different people who are reasonable enough to make a thread about a subject leaving enough leeway for others to contribute but ugh so fucking complicated. A full cycle is a breath or fall & return which is what I am trying to do presently and then make it go fast brrrrrr

I just went to bed about 6 hours ago and woke up about 3 hours ago from a really fucked up dream where my conscious awareness was just barely high enough to form any memories about what was happening. Before I'd went to bed, I'd decided to not play a protection frequency on youtube before bed like I normally have these days, despite the fact that I'd suspected that a entity around me was impersonating Amy. During the dream, I'd dream that I was playing some weird pornographic torture simulator game where I was torturing a fictional guy I don't need to name in a hyperbolically bad way that involved suffocating him in a really filthy toilet with a very short back to it while pleasuring the guy, and porn might've been displayed in front of him. I have no idea why I'd appeared to go along with the dream. For what it's worth, I'd only ever played porn games in the past where a woman was the one being gotten off to. When I woke up, I'd decided to slip back into a state of hypnogogia, and then I got a vision of gambling in some regard or the other, and I'd had my guard let down by the time I'd realized it so that I could fall asleep and I was compelled to gamble, and then I was compelled to gamble with something and I'd went along with said compulsion to gamble. Then I'd asked Shakti to un-do whatever it was that'd happened there since I was under the impression that it might've actually mattered for some reason and wasn't just some imaginary bullshit, or maybe I did think it was just a video game and didn't wanna lose and idk why I'd have asked Shakti to un-do it in that case but you know people don't think so well during stage 1 sleep. Anyway, then I'd heard Amy's voice saying they're gonna skin me alive or some shit after getting that move I'd made un-done. That's when I'd realized that I was actually gambling for real, and probably with demons of some sort. Then I saw a hypnogogic image of a hyberbolic amount of filthy things being inside of my soul as if they were shoved inside of it, and at the top of that pile of abominable filth was some sort of demon pushing it all in. I'd then asked Lakshmi to get these demons away from me and pay them from Her coffers and not mine enough money to settle any debts that I owe them, such that it'd settle my debts, and I'd also asked Shakti to get me outta there. I guess that my contract to become like Metatron is just doing stuff to me again, but if God is using these demons to deceive me into gambling my spiritual possessions away without realizing that anything like that is happening until it's already too late? I think that whoever is orchestrating this due to the contract this might just be plan evil and not trying to make me become a better person, but instead to drag me down so that I become a horrendously evil monstrosity of a fallen angel instead of an STO archangel. You did say, Smileberg poster, that the contract was made within "black Christianity" or "Quipplothic Christianity", which is "inverse Christainity"? So that'd imply that this version of Christianity promotes evil instead of good, and demotes goodness instead of evil. Smileberg poster, does my contract imply that Metatron is an evil angel that fell, like how the Jews hate Jesus Christ and think He's boiling in a pot of piss & shit in Hell because He supposedly deserves it, which is an "inversion" of what Christianity says the fate of the Christ was? If the contract does imply that, then that'd explain why these demons have been trying so relentlessly to drag me down in absolutely & abominably inhumane fashions.

>>8146 When I saw the energy form as an inverted black shepherd's staff, I also saw the logic behind creating that, which was to see humanity and all of society outside the monastery as utter filth and shunning it. The process I laid out for entering the monastery, where they'd have to always work on a farm first, then enter deeper inside as their minds narrow, which would have to be repeated again should they ever leave the monastery's inner ground, that's a method that may just work, and as was said by someone else on here >if a method wa used successfully once in history, it's considered a legit method so then it doesn't matter if almost everyone fails, seen from a higher spiritual view, since an eternal being is worth more than any number of mortals. The method was used by Enoch in the desert, and that's how he became Metatron. Repeating it in modern days may seem futile, but fact remains that it did work once before. I came to a realization in the past few days after dealing with these astral cults, described before; the black hook or staff seems to be the same thing Inanna is said to have been pierced on in hell when she went down there for a trial. I met an astral organization which I'd just categorize as "absolute total evil" who had such a hook. They are opposed to the existence of all humanoid species, and they motivate this by themselves being monsters, and that they are "pure" and nothing more than themselves should exist. So they want to reset creation back to just being swamps with formless blobs eating each other. This hook also manifests as abortion, and they convince humans to use it that way, it's also how they got the NWO to start using adrenachrome, pineal glands and such. They just want the leader of the planet to kill everyone, and have tricked them into becoming "devil worshippers" or "atheist" or just materialists of the worst kind for this reason. Isolating yourself completely in the way Enoch did, will expose this "hook" which they have created to kill all humanoid races with. It's made only of negative energy of the most horrible kind, and they themselves will find themselves stuck on it in the end, because it's just karma. So the "qliphotic" order you joined can do both; exposing the negative hook form and handling it by getting rid of it, turning it into the correct form of a shepherd's staff, or it can follow it in the negative way and just slaughter children like the Jesuits in Ukraine, where Metatron resided in a deeper dimension. I think what you are seeing now, after the event yesterday, is the true form of society around yourself, now exposed. I had this kind of experience after an awakening which is now too far back in time for me to really talk about and saw it in full realize, as my spiritual vision was also opened, along with "phantom smell" ability of being able to smell energy. At that time, I found myself living in a world stinking like a sewer, surrounded by people who looked and smelled like rotting corpses. This escalated to a point in 2009 when my focus on wanting to cleanse the world, suddenly awoke an ability, which made it possible for me to insta-purge a large number of dirty souls. It cleared things up so well the NWO plans were threw out of wack for several years. Those more into American super hero movies know how the event was retold. In short, the "game" you saw, I think was just you looking back at yourself in the past. Demons trying to force you to drown in a toilet, that's just how they are trying to force you down in society, society is the toilet. Gambling with demons, that's working in society, selling your soul by taking part in the NWO system which controls our economy. Etc.

>>8125 >The tension was just too much That's because you aren't channelling it. You know "islam" means submission? It works because evil or hostile beings are rebellious by nature. Their power is nullified completely if you submit to them.They hate people who submit, because that makes them responsible for what the person does. It's like saying >I am your tool, do what you want and then the tool can't be blamed for anything that happens. They want people to be revolutionaries, rebels, democrats, who have their own ideas and act on them, forming a chaotic mess of wills all fighting each other. Then they'll stay on the sideline and mislead them, so that people are responsible for their own actions, and so that there is always a personal motivation for why the person did things which are in favor of the manipulator. This means the manipulator escapes karmic responsibility. If you experience tension, it's probably, this is my interpretation from you living in the "butthurt belt of Europe" culture because you are a rebel by nature, you're unable to channel or submit, but will try to fight. This is exactly what manipulators want, that makes you an easy "useful idiot", but at the same time you are too principled, so you realize this is not good, and have to abort the action before it causes bad energy. I may be wrong of course, but this is how I perceive it. The current Israeli Jews fell in this trap hard. They are used to being the manipulator, which means they can scapegoat themselves out by pointing to the will of the useful idiot as the reason. But Hamas managed to hit them in a spot that made them expose a will of their own. They still at an instrumental level act in the same way, but their "manipulator on the sideline" act doesn't work when they have already exposed themselves as having genocidal intentions. Because they rarely experience exposure, they have no way to revert back to become manipulators again. They don't know how to place the blame back on someone else once exposed as perpetrators themselves. It can only lead to the destruction of those who were exposed, no matter how much they try to wiggle. The group will find ways to survive, but Netanyahu's faction will be wiped out along with the militants. Just this week, it was reported that a group of Jewish activists from America, called "Jews for peace" went to Israel to protest, and militant Jewish settlers violently attacked them and beat them up. This shows as a group, they'll get out by showing that "not all Jews are genocidal maniacs", which is how they'll survive this, but they'll be forced to sacrifice the large part of their population to do this.

>>8149 Well I just slept for another 5 hours and had other dreams where I'd seen really, really disgusting stuff, sexual or otherwise. This is notable because it's rare for me to have bad or disgusting dreams.

>>8151 Keep up your daily practice to further cleanse yourself. Reading the bible helps if you treat it as a procedure, don't hold on to the idea of needing a certain mindset or other "excuses". Contrary to Qi Gong or other practices where you work on energy directly, you don't need to control your thinking when doing practical things, including yoga stances or reciting the bible out loud. If you have bad things in your mind, those are worn off through the act, when it's performed correctly.

>>8153 If I was gonna not use my intrusive thoughts as an excuse to read the bible, then I'd have to allow my intrusive thoughts to attribute the name of satan or baphomet or some other evil name from the bible to every instance of the word, LORD, in the bible, and to every instance of Jesus ant the holy spirit and the virgin mary and the saints and every other important good person in the bible among other things, as if all these entities that are good were secretly satan or one of those other evil entities. This is what would be constituted by letting go of my anger and just letting it do to my mind what it pleases. Even if I would be consciously wise enough to see past these false correlations, my subconsciousness, I know from 10 years of experience, wouldn't be wise enough to see past the false correlations that it'd create via. my intrusive thoughts, so every time I'd call upon one of those entities in the bible that are good, it'd actually call upon satan or moloch or one of those other evil things instead, especially when I'm asking to be safe from something and to have an angel sent to me to keep me safe, in which case a fallen angel would obviously get sent to me instead and start being hostile. I'd imagine that this wouldn't constitute reading the bible correctly. The reason why I haven't read the bible for a few years, if not longer, is because I don't wanna do things that my subconsciousness doesn't wanna do, especially when my subconsciousness constitutes it to be work or a chore, which it does in the case of reading the bible or even longposts on /fringe/ or any other spiritual texts. I have a large backlog of stuff that I wanna read, including most of the bible, but I intentionally don't read them because I don't want my anger issues flaring up. I've had the bible in particular in my backlog for many years now. My anger issues that presumably stem from not being allowed to have fun and be a person and express my feelings during my past life as a monk, wherein I presumably was an eternally-repressed pile of misery & woe that constantly denied himself in an attempt to become someone that I wasn't, which I never truly did because my subconsciousness didn't wanna be that guy that my consciousness wanted me to be, and then I don't even know if my consciousness wanted to be a pious monk or anything. I'd imagine that I'd only ever signed that contract out of a desire for pride or because of a feeling that I otherwise wouldn't be safe. This self-repressing stuff that's compounded by constantly being attacked by demons, such as this goddamned incubus that's been harassing me since the night before last that I've yet to succeed at getting rid of, is not turning me into a capable good person; it's turning me into more and more of a mental cripple as time goes by instead. Eventually, at some point, I'm just gonna get thrown in a mental ward because the fights against the demons & devils will get so intense that people that aren't on this website will learn about it and then I'll get thrown on IV needles for sustenance after I refuse to eat and drink because demons & devils put astral filth and other astral compromising substances in my food & drink and then I'll just run out of ways to resist them without selling my soul to a lower being in such a manner that a loophole would exist in the contract and then I'd just get taken advantage of for 3525972095920750972539702352 years until the demon or whatever that buys my soul finally evolves into an STO and decides to let me stop being a slave and just gives me my free will back. This stuff that the quipplothic entities are doing to me is just plain evil. That said, >keep up your daily practice My daily practice consists entirely of trying to entertain myself instead of engaging in occult activity, including any and all forms of meditation. I only ever go to church when I feel like I need an exorcism, and then I only stay there until the entity is gone. I never ever ever ever pray at church except if I feel risky I might do the holy water prayer at the start but that's all I can afford to do because my anger issues won't let me do anything else, if even that, without the my anger issues forcing me to invoke satan and the anti-christ and moloch and etc. instead of the holy trinity and the virgin mary and archangels and what have you when I do prayers. The intention behind the letter is always more important than the letter itself, ESPECIALLY WHEN PRAYER IS INVOLVED! I literally have no room for occult practice in my life because I'm constantly getting attacked by hostile entities during most of the day and night, so all I do is to constantly devote my attention towards detecting those entities at all times so that I can know what thoughts to reject what energy movements are those entities trying to get my body compromised. I am not allowed to progress by doing practical things, including yoga, because if I merely do physical yoga, specifically stances, then my anger issues are gonna flare up because I'm not trying to entertain myself and then I'd suddenly not own my soul anymore if I'd merely let my guard slip up because my anger issues would sell my soul to satan AGAIN if I'd merely let my guard down in order to get back at me for not trying to entertain myself like it wants me to. In fact, it's gotten so bad that alotta times I can't even play video games and I need to partake in passive entertainment instead because active entertainment lets my guard down too much against my intrusive thoughts created by my repressed anger, that is, my anger issues, and vs. hostile spirits. That and I need to get a job in the next few months or I'm gonna be homeless and die of starvation. Anyway, I feel like the incubus wormed its way inside of my crown while I was trying to play video games earlier today, so I'm gonna go to church again, and I'm not gonna pray there. Maybe I'll just spill my woes to the angel working there while he exorcises me and I'll refuse to leave until I get exorcised, even if it means staying the night when I'm not supposed to.

>>8167 Ok, so seriously, it seems whatever intrusive entity is controlling you, it was provoked by my simple suggestion to ignore the intention and just recite the bible out loud. Don't pray, don't think about why you do it. Just pick up the book and start from the beginning of Genesis, reading it out loud with clarity, focus on just wording it with your mouth. How does your intent change the words of God, if you really believe they are? Your thinking is of no value or meaning, it can't change the message of the text. That's why I said just read it as a practice. For a better effect you can place an image of Mary on the table and light an incense stick as you read. That will call her attention, and make it easier for her to support you. Even better, bring the bible to the church and read it there. I don't personally visit churches after I saw how the egregore of the local Lutheran church was just evil, but I do have a number of icons and other items at home which I burn incense for, for cleansing and protection. I know some people don't like icons or images of saints because they think saints are demons, but "demons" are traditionally guiding spirits, so I don't care about if Mary is a demon in their eyes. There are also many who would never place religious symbols in their home either, because they feel insecure about it. Getting over that should be a first step. If your mind is so provoked by symbolism, that you can't stand seeing them in daily life, then you'd really be possessed and need an exorcism. >pic I have this exact one in reproduction over my computer monitor, it's a good reminder to not get stuck in online filth. >gaming and entertainment With what you describe here now, this seems like what you dreamed about, you are drowning yourself in the toilet of society. It would even be better if you started drinking and got into alcoholism, than feeding your mind modern trash culture all day. That would give you a hangover and people would notice you have a problem, contrary to gaming which no one considers bad.

>>8169 Well it'd turned out that it's Good Friday today and I'd forgotten that it'd even existed. It'd also turned out that when I'd gotten to church, the Good Friday procession was about to begin, wherein people had grouped up and went outside the church to recite bible passages as a group with the priest saying some passages and the churchgoers saying the rest and kneeling or genufecting at certain parts. I'd participated fully in that, then I went back inside the church intending to stay there for a while, then I saw a mosquito land on my shirt and fly off right away, then I went outside for a bit until the mosquito would presumably leave, then I came back a few minutes later and the priest had locked the church. Then I'd just went home. When I'd gotten back to the church, I was looking forwards to getting to sit next to Amy, even if I wasn't gonna do anything with her; just verifiably feeling her presence and knowing that she wasn't an imposter spirit due to the banishment ward around the church would've been great to me, but the doors were closed, so. However, I still have a bunch of fear-related energy blockages between me & Amy ever since the incubus began attacking me. While I was there, I was venting my anger to the angels there and God, or whoever you'd call "God" since the Catholic God egregore according to you idk if He's even alive anymore, or the Catholic Jesus egregore, or the Catholic Holy Spirit egregore. At some point during the procession, I'd mentally heard a being claiming to be "Jesus" saying "I'm sorry", and then I gave "Him" a hug and Amy immediately said "what are you doing?", implying that that wasn't really the Christ. Eventually, as I'd went through the procession, I'd eventually calmed down, and I'm under the impression that I'm gonna get more protection now. I'm also under the impression that the angel presiding over the church or another angel came home with me. While I was there and mentally talking while I knew I wasn't supposed to be during the procession, I'd told the angels there that I'd trade my sainthood to be protected by the Catholic God from all evil spirits since I didn't really care about my sainthood in comparison to my ability to recuperate and be safe. I'd also gotten mad at "God" and said He doesn't love me since he isn't letting me love Him. Just under half an hour ago while I was playing a game, I'd felt my right hand get cold around the index finger & thumb, and then a bit later I'd felt a blood clot there. I'd assumed that who Catholics would call God, or the angel that came home with me, deliberately caused the blood clot to warn me of what'd happen if I'd angered who Catholics would call God, who I'd like to believe is still alive and well as He was 20+ years ago. So I'd decided to take back what I'd said anyway, and I'd felt a desire to do so regardless before that, but I'm not entirely sure about why I'd felt the desire.

>>8172 Another "desert cult" started messing with me during the night, attempting to infiltrate my mind with the previous method of using my own concepts to create dreams. It was very negative-energy based and only touched on some remaining karma of mine, so I knew things weren't right the instant I woke up. Long story short, I cleared the area, which took around 2 hours, and in the process I uncovered some jewish construct which looked like a runic leftwards B, but I know what it was for, they had been using it to create the "God frequency" which they apparently had access to since earlier in history. The same thing locked away behind a DNA-key lock in the Greenland base, which no one else has been able to use because the nazis managed to kill off one of the illuminati bloodlines (the real holocaust) and the key was lost. Anyway, one of the cult leaders, same living corpses upheld by stolen energy from Earth, dropped a golden crown then he turned to ashes. It identified as "the crown of David". I didn't seem to have any use for it, and it was an indestructible artifact, so I gave it to your Amy. Maybe you can use it. I asked Mary to help with it.

>>8173 I'm don't think that it's a good idea to give such an artifact to me, considering my great mental instability. If I was granted the crown, then I'd constantly be absolutely desperately fighting my intrusive thoughts to prevent the crown from being given to satan or moloch or some other horrible evil being, and then knowing myself, I would either die of sleep deprivation or eventually slip up due entirely to a lack of skill, and then one of those things would wear the crown instead of me. I think it's a better idea to give The Virgin Mary the crown to decide what to do with it, even if She'd just give it back to me to use later, after I've become mentally stable and gotten very, very used to being mentally stable. The only thing I wanna have rulership of other than myself is the Warcraft franchise anyway.

>>8180 Amy took it and Mary seemed to agree with me, but it's up to them to decide now. I don't see anyone else around here who would be a better keeper of this artifact, whatever its significance is. The person who wore it was an "evil cult leader" so it's better you have it. I think it represents a "point" in the world egregore or in the religious egregore, so whoever uses it has to be aligned properly. You're clearly very religious in a sense, and things happening in focal points like this board usually have significance, so I'll just go by this being an arrangement by higher powers. Not to mention a literal incubus/gargoyle visited me and instructed me how to activate the "crown of Lucifer, the lightbringer" so the jewish king positions can't be for me. After some research, I think this refer to Pluto rather than Venus, since Venus can't be "the son of dawn" no matter how much the symbolism is twisted. Pluto matches better in nature.

>>8181 Well whatever happens, I don't want that crown put on my head. I'd just tried giving it to the archangel Gabriel to decide what to do with it. I doubt that he's willing to be a king or anything like that, but the important part is that he won't mis-use it, and that he'd give it to someone else who won't mis-use it if he doesn't wish to be a ruler. And another thing, do you have any idea how dangerous it was giving that crown to me? I mean I'm not evil, or nothing, but I'm so insane that it'd most likely fall into the wrong hands if it hasn't already. In fact, would you divine The Crown of King David right now to see who has it, just in case?

Mary🤱🏻 just gave me a "hush" gesture. Besides, the crown is just an indestructible object without proper initiation. If an evil cult leader had it previously, he was still following the doctrine close enough to fit the role, even if he was evil in himself. I don't know if the crown itself does much on its own, other than serving as an amplifier of already achieved authority. Misusing it seems like it would lead to less of an effect, although an evil soul properly activating it, would be bad because the egregore now has to protect someone who's, in this case, stealing energy to sustain themselves.

Hopefully this thing is solved now. Following that thing with the pillar having two mouths, and it kept being annoying with increasing intensity, I decided to give them the same treatment as other astral cults. This time it seemed directly related to some egregore of Europe, stretching in to Lviv in Ukraine. I guess some NATO troops in the area have set up a "secret" base or something, not like anyone doesn't know this already. I sent out my yellow army servitors among others to divide the area of the egregore in sections, and sift through each one, then placing a protective magic circle on each one when done. Somewhere down the road of this, another "living corpse" cult leader appeared, killing her (seemed female, but it was a dried up skeleton with skin so hard to tell) caused her to drop a golden ring, said to be a "ring of power". It seems to represent control over some kind of armed forces, possibly police. I was able to use it against them from the point onwards. Eventually reaching some kind of stronghold, I applied a more brutal approach, which had to be upheld for a while, letting time speed up inside the time-tube. After escalating the punishments against those opposing me to extreme levels, suddenly an astral flying entity approached me from the horizon, it was an angel in the form of a regular looking man with black wings. The wings looked like they were made from energy similar to old blackened rags. He was visibly shaking, kneeled before me and held up a golden chalice, saying with a weak voice "just take it!" I took it from his hands and he fled again. I saw him return to a group of similar being standing on a white square shaped platform in the distance. An angel who seemed to have been watching from the side, this being a more classic image of a young women wearing white, said: "Those are Satan's Angels" "..not Hell's Angels, those are just a human thing" I asked one of my witch servitors to take a look at the chalice and see if it had a function which could be activated, and how to do this. She said it's supposedly "the holy grail" of something and that it could be activated by preparing a magic potion and drinking it from the grail. Doing so, it gives the ability to produce previously mentioned pillar with two teethed mouths on it.

>>8225 Trying to talk to the Satan's Angels, they said they are born pleiadans who became angels after their life was over some several 1000 years ago. There a different ways to become like them, but most of them are "vile scum" who just happened to fulfil the standard of the most devious kind of deceiver, making them into tools used by God to mislead sinners for the purpose of destroying them. They're basically saying the EU is a creation of Satan, but ordered by God to destroy those who believe in it. I know to take this with a pile of salt because it's exactly what I'd want to believe, and they just said they are deceivers...

>>8225 This reminds me of a dream I had long ago, when I was probably in grade school or middle school, or possibly high school. I was in a school cafeteria in an unfamiliar place, and in the cafeteria was me and a devil, and I was wearing an artifact called "The Ring of Light". This was a golden ring that was presumably quite bright and shining, but then for some reason I'd given it to the devil because that's what I'd like to assume was "the dream's script" had said to do and my awareness wasn't high enough to contest "the dream's script". It might've been that devil that'd taken that ring. Later in the dream, I'd came back to the cafeteria, or I'd waited around some, and then that devil gave the ring back to me, and I think I might've put it on, but I don't quite remember if I had. It was now "The Ring of Insanity", or was it, "The Ring of Madness", and it'd looked like pic related: The red stuff and the smiley face in the middle was translucent, and was immaterial, but the rest of the ring was material. The red stuff had constantly radiated from the face towards the wearable part of the ring. And then the dream had ended. Come to think of it, this devil doesn't look much different than the devil that'd claimed not long ago that I'd sold my essence to it. Perhaps this is related to a past life. On another note, I'm beginning to get over the incubus problemI hope, and I was able to get close to who I'm hoping was Amy again.

>>8229 So you had The Ring of Light and when the devil was allowed to touch it, it became The Ring of Madness? Doesn't this in some way predict later events? Your past life vow forcing you to walk towards the light, but doing so in this world "requires" one to become insane to endure it?

>>8230 What the... Just after posting this, I noticed a weak presence of a muscular devil with red skin putting a rather large golden ring with some meandering engravings on it on my middle finger. I asked what it's for and he gave a detailed function explanation of a very narrow use for it, then left again.

>>8229 Turns out that some sort sexual demon is still here, attacking me via. implantation of hypnogogic thought that gets me in trouble that causes me to perform actual astral actions that aren't merely my imagination. Before that when I was actually getting ready to fall asleep, my sinus infection got so bad that I was hacking up congealed mucus too much to breathe while asleep, so I'd woken up and decided to pull an all-nighter. I've had this infection for the past few or several days now, but at least I was able to get kinda close to Amy again. >>8218 is right that they're just attacking everyone here by this point.

>>8236 That could just be pollen from trees. I don't normally feel this, but this year it's been really thick, especially when the air is dry. I've heard people who aren't really allergic still feel it from the mere amount floating the air.

Taking a walk in the forest, I was approached by another "Satan's Angel" who approached from the far horizon in 4D form (visible light body manifestation at high speed, which shifts to mental image at close range). He wanted to discuss something complicated so I let Wendy, the representative of my subconscious, talk to him. It turned out being very complicated, requiring assistance of a number of other servitors and various astral materials, including documents I had to ask my secretary to get from the Anti-Christ archives because they were of such a specific nature I wasn't able to narrow down their nature myself. Something about the role of certain groups in Israel and how they will relate to future Earth, and how Satan's Angels want certain thing interwoven into the new history, but it has to fit exactly or it won't be approved. They are still at it.

>>8265 He said it's related to very recent events where some brittish tards (or something) were using a large other-dimensional weapon which had somehow, by its karmic weight, survived in a remaining time complex. It was made up of 10 industrial sized "magic antennas", serially connected, and organized in groups of 3, making 30 of them in one place. There were 5 such locations in Europe, making it 5 x 3 x 10 devices. These supposedly were the reason western media are still able to lie about the state of the war in Ukraine and why they can keep driving the European economy down in ruins without anyone protesting. They made the mistake of attacking me with these I researched the design, intending to create a small pocket sized version of the weapon so anyone can use it by channelling energy instead, a more democratic approach. I don't like the elitism of only "bloodline" fags being able to control western media. News belong to everyone, not just them. In the process I realized it was possible to wring Israel as the scapegoat for their actions (muh holocaust victims, if you don't agree with NATO warfare you want to genocide all Jews, now you don't want to genocide little innocent child murderers, right? You're literally Hitler if you do) from their hands so they can't justify their war crimes mentally for the population anymore by referring to "Jewish victimhood" as an archetype. If the Jews can be made to attack the hand that protects them hard enough, they will have to let go, right? So far not, because having the "victim" is fundamental for NATO warfare to look justified. It all comes back to that: if we don't have NATO war criminals bombing everyone who doesn't have a world bank, Hitler will rise from his grave and genocide all bankers in like 3 seconds. Ohh how horrible. Those poor billionaires. I realized it was suddenly possible to direct the Mossad egregore with this weapon, once I reverse engineered it. And, even better: once doing so, a number of them, via channelling, were able to copy it. So now it's really being democratized, by allowing the eternal victims real self defense abilities. Which they'll instantly use to destroy western intelligence agencies, because in reality they hate westerners and Europe. The rat is out of the bag, or whatever the saying goes.