>>8145 After reading some books I've realized that both virtue of gratitude and being happy is something you born with and nearly impossible to achieve. Opened my eyes towards those fake get happy podcasts and video essays.

>>8145 I don't get long term happiness after achieving something. I tried religion pill as it is most effective way to get the "ignorance is bliss" type happiness. But religion is too political now I can't stand it. I want to follow a religion for mind peace ffs.

>>8180 >>8195 Chasing long term happiness is like trying to have a pig cum (pigs orgasm for 30 mins non stop). You will keep cumming, only to be horny again and find more material and start all over. Again and again, like a monkey on crack. Happiness is internal. It is not external. No matter what success you achieve externally, it means literally nothing. It is true that people are born with different character and different predispositions. Some of us are introverted, others more predisposed to depression, melancholy, depressing thoughts etc. Therefore, each of us has their own struggle. Those of us more predisposed to sorrow, are better at working harder without rewards, hence usually achieving success (read the passion paradox). But these same tendencies are also depressing. > fake get happy podcasts and video essays. Most modern resources are shit and will not last more than a few years. Even the famous ones. Chase the ancients instead. > But religion is too political now Religion is always political. One system tells you to follow your dharma. Other one tells you to kill your enemies to find heaven etc. > Follow religion for mind peace ffs There are systems for this. But it is up-to you to find a good guru. Idk what religion you follow. Dharma pill worked well for me. It did not give me happiness, but mental peace, where consequences barely matter anymore.

A lot of tech brokedown for me without any warning. A power supply for some musical equipment A laptop is practically dead A very important tool

>>8200 Always seems to come in three

My wife took me to a coffee shop after a long work day. I don't normally go, I had forgotten why. 1. Tendy hipster cafe - Good coffee, too many people, too loud. Crowd too woke. We left. 2. Local racist hipster cafe - These guys make amazing coffee. It costs a lot but tastes bomb. I had it and the taste as really lovely. But left feeling unsatisfied. I am an addict again. I need volume of coffee. The taste doesn't matter. I am like kitli ki chai addicts. I just need my fix. >>8202 Booked my holidays. All money therefore attached to that. I never seem to get a break with tech. Sigh. I should just invest only in acoustic instruments and equipment. Even computers are fucking unreliable. Especially laptops. Even the best ones money can buy. > Just buy a desktop bro I really want to. But needing to travel a lot and moving a lot doesn't make it practical. More importantly, I am thinking of relocating away from Germany because I see shit close to hitting the fan. More than it already has.

Happy Diwali!

>>8206 Happy Diwali :) I thought I'll finish my work in these holidays but didn't do shit. An advice I want to give : If anyone you know want to pursue research, don't go to new IIT's in india. Faculty is placed either through nepotism or through religious connection. Research side of India is down in drain. Just want an opportunity to go to a better research institute for phD. Professor won't give you recommendation letter or force you to upgrade your masters to doctoral for their benefit (this is normal everywhere tbh)

>>8208 Add IIS-C to that list. Regionalism over religion. Caste in case of non UC's

>>6959 In modernity., it is easy to have noise. Podcasts , movies etc. But need to schedule alone time more too I feel like I haven't talked to myself in forever.

>>8220 Walks without earbuds or conversation with others is essential. A hike is even better.

>>8224 My responsibilities have increased a lot. Need to reduce my hobbies/projects to get time to talk to myself. >>6959 Who is this ?

>>8210 My guide gave me ultimatum : > Either bring funding from somewhere or get lost. Like if I was a business/entrepreneurial person, why would I choose academia?

>>8238 This is mostly standard though. In a way as an "Academic" you really are an enterpreur. As a result, most of academia in west is smooth talking, smart sounding frauds. There is more intellectual honesty in a plumber or welder than there is in an academic. The really interested one's fund their own research through odd jobs or side gigs and publish once in 3 or 5 years. Meanwhile, academic mills expect you to teach , do admin and write minimum of 2 papers a year. https://www.honest-broker.com/p/the-blue-collar-jobs-of-philip-glass

>>8239 If I was in a western country, I prolly would've chose blue collar jobs. India is classism at its peak. Tbf you can put - ism in the end of anything and india would be at top.

>>8243 Blue collar is shit here too. The ones making bank are a tiny minority and can be applied in literally any other field. The top of any profession is going to be making good money. Working 12+ hrs a day to clear as much as a doctor or professor working 6 - 8 with more holidays and better benefits isn't really winning.

>>8243 >>8244 Can speak for India, you get treated not as well as office workers, but blue collar guys if they have even room temperature IQ, out earn engineers and scientists by 2 orders of magnitude. Not even kidding. Learn to use a crane, or electric work etc, you will be swimming in money. Given the advent of AI, selling yourself will be far more important now. Including in Academia. > The ones making bank are a tiny minority and can be applied in literally any other field Most blue collar guys are retards who spend millions on booze across their lifetime. More importantly, they get exploited heavily by the contractors and managers. Takes very little IQ to get past this. I did work blue collar work for short while to get money. Easier than getting a scholarship and getting signatures from professors who want you to suck their dick and balls dry. The academia system is very cannibalistic but also incestous. It hates people who can self fund, because that makes the dick suckers feel like idiots.

>>8245 >>8245 >I did work blue collar work for short while to get money In Germany? Things would be different. In India it's easy to die when working. I was at the hospital visiting someone and there was a family who looked working class, apparently they were with a guy who was watering new plaster with a pipe to cure the cement and fell off whatever platform it was. 2 or 3 storeys high. Knew a guy who used to do painting for a while but stopped because one of his coworkers fell off the swing-like thing they use to paint the outside of buildings. Talked with a guy who worked onsite on flyover projects, he said they don't do any sacrifice during groundbreaking and bhumipoojan - the first guy to die onsite does the job. Big builders and contractors seem to follow safety regulations now, but a lot of them do not.

I always find it absurd when i'm on reddit and there are entire comment sections saying something about "brahminical patrarchy" and other terms like that, basically blaming any brahmins. Brahmins account for 5% of the population in this country. You could go days without seeing one. Yet somehow brahmins are responsible for whatever it is that they don't like. Patriarchy for some reason is brahminical, while Muslim women enjoy a lot of freedom and Dalit women are only oppressed by the evil Brahmins and not their own men beating them up drunk. . Casteism does exist, and I am sure brahmins are also guilty of it, but at 5% you'd have one brahman oppressing you while there are 20 gurjars and yadavs doing it much more effectively and efficiently.

>>8262 No in India. Did some cable laying (ethernet) for a new building for an MNC, knew the contractor. Had built him a computer for cheap that worked well in dusty environments too, hence he gave me the job. Besides, no one knew how to read spec sheets and choose parts. Helped with some excavation work where they needed a GPS machine operator. Was offered very high pay for a project to lay cables on a building by hanging from its sides. Safety was questionable, so I did not do it. Not only builders though, woodwork and metal work for fabrication firms pay well if you are good. There were 0 regulations when I did this. But I was never forced into anything and all I had to do was judge the risks and say yes or no. I had earned enough Working with blue collar guys killed my social life. They were nice people, but lets say our values did not match and I say many horrible things. > Flyover projects Never ever, ever ever, work on government projects. Be it white collar or blue collar. Even if you live, years later you can get trapped in a case and get screwed over. >>8264 I am a Hindutva vadi i.e. I don't believe in caste in life outside the house, all these caste based discrimination like reservations are offensive to me. But I also hate these baseless attacks. Over the years of reading, Brahmins sacrificed a lot to save our idols , temples and prevent conversion or even reverse in many cases. Many many freedom fighters also sacrificed their wealth and lives for our freedom. But it is worth arguing with such people honestly. They just hate Hindu's and want to hate on Hinduism without saying it outright. There are region wise cases to be made. But there is more nuance to them than just Brahmins bad. This was a British tactic that lefties then picked up wholesale. Indian lefties are ridiculous, they hate Indians with all their body. Just avoid reddit. It is a rabid cespool of useless people who don't do anything real. Use your time better.

Dan da Dan epi 7 hit me hard in the feels.

>>8284 I thought this was a goofey show, then episode 7 came.

>>8285 They cut back a little on brutality from manga but the adaptation as well as including this in their art style made appreciate Science Saru production. I hope SCIENCE SARU learn from their mistakes in Devilman Crybaby.

>>8286 I love Yuasa's style of animation. Lot of moving camera work, goofy emotions etc Science Saru has lot of people who worked with him on his earlier and better works. Dan Da Dan is building up nicely. I get the brutality because these ghosts are quiet popular. Turbo granny is actually mentioned in lot of jap horror. What did you not like about the new Devilman Crybaby ?

leg was recovering, injured it again last week morale is so low right now, honestly having to re think alot seem to be too injury prone, might have to accept i just dont have the required durability for extreme athletics. will have to keep thinking about this.

>>8266 Cool as h*ck >Working with blue collar guys killed my social life. They were nice people, but lets say our values did not match and I say many horrible things. Really it looks like the only thing labourers care about is cheap alcohol. While i do have a lot of respect for those who do physical labour, I doubt very much anyone with bigger aspirations in life can mix well with them. >I am a Hindutva vadi i.e. I don't believe in caste in life outside the house, all these caste based discrimination like reservations are offensive to me. But I also hate these baseless attacks. It's true, it is unwise to divide Hinduism further. We are already badly divided. Godse was Brahmin and the lefties got a good reason to further demonise Brahmins further. He was conveniently a part of RSS too. Funny how these supporters of the non violent man suddenly turned very violent against the caste of the assassin. Of course, lefties bootlick Gandhi-Nehru to no end. >Indian lefties are ridiculous, they hate Indians with all their body. It's ridiculous really. Some of them have good ideas but most of it is just Hindu bad Modi bad etc. It's actually why I browse reddit. Although everyone there is likely an outlier i like to know what they think. You cannot disagree with an ideology if you do not know what it is.

>>8264 Retards blame Brahmins but ignore the fact that Muslims had direct control over India for centuries when backwards practices flourished and are still advocating shit like triple talaq. Logic should never be used against these people. All politics is force.

combination of freezing cold, work stress and sudden inflow of lot of projects has me rekt. Mentally and physically exhausted in every way. Will take me time to reply. Really hoping I don't wake up to a nuclear war. Post more guys. Let this site be a real alternate.

>>8301 Remember that time when you said a bad sleep schedule will fuck you up worse than anything else. It happened to me, too much work and never seemed to get enough sleep because I would browse internet or YouTube or listen to songs late into the night while I worked some 10-11 hours a day I don't know where the month of October went, nor half of November, things were bad even at home the only thing that went somewhat right is I went to the gym for most of these days.

>>8301 I think of about half a dozen things every day that I'd like to post here about but I end up forgetting most of them during the day, or I don't find the energy and end up forgetting them later Also I'm going to stop reading on chuddy topics like history and news and religious conflict, and politics in general of all kinds I find myself thinking about these too much

>>8302 Damn that was long ago i think. Too reletable. In the same boat. 2 hour sleep for 5 days straight. Boss made me go home today. Productive week though Now.watching terminator 1 till I fall asleep. Its tough to sleep when this tired. Age just makes it worst too. Reply tomorrow in detail.

>>8304 T1 is such a good movie. Up there with the first two aliens and the Thing from that time period.

>>8305 Speaking of which, when did cinema die? Seems to be the 90s imo.

>>8299 The issue with alcohol is just one. If you want to see true degeneracy, visit a construction site where the workers stay at night. Rich women cannot compete with that sex drive and degeneracy. All their IG bullshit is a joke. > I doubt very much anyone with bigger aspirations in life can mix well with them. This and the crab bucket mentality. >>8299 >>8300 If the lefties and Brits opposed Brahmins, then the Brahmins are really good and dangerous. AS simple as that. If the people who oppose our interests, say that Brahmins are bad then they are good. Savarkar too was a Brahmin. >>8305 >>8306 Cinmea is actually doing really really well. Western Cinema is fucked. But indie and east are doing really well. Ignore the western slop. Attend Indie fests and take chances etc.

No sleep is pretty insane. Not only is it depressing it makes your own demons come alive in a really bad way. Fight club is a very good movie in expressing how a brain without sleep becomes. Add to that winter and sub zero temps, early winter and high energy prices. Apartment hunt is not going well. Fucking Ukranians took all the good properties. >>8305 Alien 1i is too good. Need ot watch 2. But will watch 2 and 3 tonight.

>>8306 >>8303 >>8302 Your work leaves no time for you having being able to talk with yourself. That is a serious issue. > Browse internet late Yeah, Youtube and other such platforms are designed to be addictive. The issue is, they don't let you get bored entirely but don't entirely entertain you either. Cigs are easier. You should choose something that lets you express yourself. Write with a pen and paper. Songs and music are fine , that is how I fall asleep too (for different reasons though). I have years spent working where I don't remember more than few days. > Gym for most days That is actually inspiring, I need to get this habit as well. >>8303 I struggled with this, stopped effort posting. I type out thoughts on my phone here, then post them here when free. The stream of consciousness is a wild river. You need to observe for few minutes daily. It hides signals and treasures for you.