I tried bringing the emotional inferno over my spiritually enslaved christian pacifist relatives to an orthodox serbian friend far more well versed in the bible, and I was instantaneously overwhelmed - visualizing his emotional grounding, emotional aloofness and superior intellect as an armored column against my (admittively unironic) pure, intense, sheer radiating hate represented as a small cell with flamethrowers and small arms; and I lost this game of chicken when I already sensed his exasperation towards me and that same ridicule ate at me. His tone was flat and rather cross and disappointed in the actual conversations, though not as much as I've feared he'd be, though by the end of it it feels as if I had lost another battle to retake my rational, conscious mind from a compromised superego biased against me in favor of others, and I lost the intense, radical, fanatical, lexicunnilinguistic "schizoposting" side of me, my anima. I'm distraught, yet not enough to completely hamper me from finding solutions, let alone asking for help. Fyi, I'm not the same poster I was 8 months ago. Something in me changed fiercely after that post-halloween 5 gram shroom trip bastardized with foul tasting alcohol and spicy cajun fries.

Really hoping OP will bother partaking in this thread because >Divination, energy readings, exorcism or general requests these are quite interaction intensive promises he just made. >>4935 >Fyi, I'm not the same poster I was 8 months ago Yes you are finally able to use a flag. Progress on all levels. I thought you will use the fire element flag because how blazed you are but guess you went for the based flags instead

I want to free that passionate, inner fanatic/extremist and rip that black stake of cold, conformist mediocrity out my heart but the figure in vague black has more force than what I am able to muster against it. My body spasming violently, especially around the heart and chest area.

>>4940 He said that people can post their requests here, not that he would answer them.

>>4944 >people can post their requests here That was the purpose, anyone can of course reply to them. There tends to be a lot of requests for divination and readings at times, better to have them gathered in here as well.

>>4940 That's because deep down I'm based. >>4949 >>back to the stage of constant seething at that one schizo I never said it was that one schizo, it was a trusted if stoic friend I went to for help, but they're not very emotionally reciprocal and more likely to admonish my intense, impassioned emotions. Some girls I was voice chatting with seemed to be into me, until they just revealed they were only platonically interested. I had my hopes up high for that, but I'll be honest when I say that I've felt like I was being taken for a ride and that it'd never pan out the way I'd want it to. Well, not even him - moreso the sum total of all the lambasting and obsessive nitpickery I've received from braindead, overly emotional family members.

>>4951 This schizo that I've wasted over a year arguing with is nothing but a sentient psyslop - a crude, garish, wicked, heartless pisstake at my "eccentricities" from the perspective of dejected, ornery bolshevik russians amongst other godless, materialistic, stoic, atheistic heathens. I have been wounded graver by those whose help I sought than I actually have over that serpentine fart-huffing neanderthal and failed cult leader eternally obsessed over abrahamic cults. I'd wager he'd meet his source mammy long before I get a gf, but this is the last you'll hear of me rant about that nigger. Regardless, my resolve towards liberating my subconscious mind in her entirety has dramatically increased, and the fight to correct this broken superego/superconscious by means of reasoning and logic equally so.

>>4942 It's my cold, hard logical and reasoning side (saturn/cronos energy) that drove this cold, hard, black stake into my bright, colorful, resonatory heart. The same part that masters lexical and terminological precision, and I need it married to my emotion and a healing reconciliation.

My spiritual emotions and sense of wonder and mystery have been gone for years. How can I get them back?

>>5045 By getting deeper into it with actual practice instead of mere fascination for mysteries which are portrayed in media. Trust me there will be enough dread and awe as you walk forward but they won't be the same as your ideas of wonder you have for spirituality currently. When I see something appearing in media that I encountered in my visions or meditations I get scared in some cases because I know what gave birth to that idea. You don't need to get it back. You just have to venture in deeper.

I just tried to do a guided meditation video wherein I set up spiritual defenses for myself, but as soon as I began the video, I began hearing a ringing in my right ear, indicating that a spirit is nearby. One part of the video involved a pyramid of golden light appearing, and the pyramid wouldn't appear properly and it'd have a fleshy border around the bottom. I had to teleport directly into the correct pyramid from the last time I did the ritual correctly. Amy & a friend of hers came with me. Later, I got to the part where I'm supposed to see a golden ray of light coming down from the top of the pyramid, but there was maybe 1/20th as much light as usual coming down from there. We all had a hard time fitting inside. I was supposed to grab a rose-gold chalice, but no matter what I did, I couldn't even visualize the correct color, even after trying for what seemed like 5 minutes straight, which of course had constituted interrupting the ritual. And then when I tried to use it anyway, the chalice would immediately deform and prevent me from using it in a meaningful manner. Eventually, after trying to get the archangel Michael to help, and he failed to help me, and another angel tried to help me and she failed, I asked Athena to help since I was trying to do it myself and couldn't fucking do it, and she helped me find a chalice of the correct color. I eventually managed to do what I thought would get light inside of my stomach, but the light wasn't the light I thought it was and it was corrupted. I think that the spirit that made my ears ring is attacking me. Would one of you please get rid of it? I tried to kill the bastard and I tried to banish it but it didn't work.

>>5059 Just removing them for you if you don't know why or how it's done, will just cause more of them to appear later most likely. Every time you improve, there may be someone who's provoked by this, like someone seeing that you started lifting and now they want to pick a fight. I asked the succubus and your Amy if either of them want to use the fairy shield method I created, Amy didn't want to but the succubus said she'd learn it and show you how to do it. In short, you manifest fairy servitors whom you can control as a swarm, and you use them to surround and entrap the attacker, or to encase yourself or someone else, then you can either heal or attack depending on if you are helping or fighting the being who's encased.

>>5060 They can also be wasps or bees if you prefer to work with Bhramari.

>>5060 I thought I'd gotten the succubus outta my life by now. I don't remember having seen her in the past 2 weeks. I don't consent to the succubus teaching me how to do this shit; I want her gone and kept away from my astral bodies. Afaik, I'd gotten the baby astral body she made out of me outta her hands and given the body to Shakti to figure out what to do with it. I think she might've ended up merging it inside of me, but I'm not sure. I'd also got her contract magically invalidated. I'll think about asking Bhramari about it anyway since you mentioned Her, but idk if She'd actually do it. I also just tried actually doing the LBRP, but I didn't have a wand to do it with and I used my finger instead, and the ritual didn't work.

>>5063 I don't think she cares what you do, she sees you just as a cat who's being "a little" difficult to tame. I don't get what you have against her, and she probably doesn't either. If you want help or guidance you also need to be firm and not ask with "no" as an option. It's a "battle of wills" sort of thing and the slightest hesitation from you will cause failure in terms of your goals. Being uncertain about what you want, your morality and so on, all cause failure. On a side note just now, I don't know if this was related or not, a massive horde of cattle was sent my way. I'd think it was related to me even replying to you here about the fairy shield. Because of the past thing I posted about in the other thread, I had a measure in place for this case, so the ancient looking bulls or whatever they were, got turned into anime girls row after row as they approached. I looked to the far back end of the horde and saw a witch with a pointy hat casting continuous summoning, it appeared like a sunlight with her in the middle and a black spiral emerging out from her. I caught her and in the process as a result of the protection I set up, she was also given an anime girl body (she didn't have a "body" before). I caught her and took her to the pocket dimension inside my shoulder bag. Of course she doesn't like it, but she attacked me so why should I care? That's how these things work. I used an astral artifact on her which can override someone's will so they become obedient for now. Did the being stop bothering you?

>>5064 Coincidentally, I'd just found a banishing frequency video that I knew 2 years ago had worked well. Listening to it the 1st time produced a strong sensation in my head, and then I listened to it again. I still hear a ringing my right ear, though. I'll try the defensive ritual video in a few hours I guess; I've got something to do. Thanks for incapacitating that witch, btw.

>>5066 If it doesn't bother you more than that you can just do something else, I wouldn't consider that to really be an attack worth mentioning. Real psychic attacks will block your thinking, cause panic attacks or make other people around you start an argument or fight so you can't do what you want to do.

>>5066 I think the witch was hired by someone else.

>>5067 Well my thinking kinda was being blocked; I wasn't able to imagine the chalice during the most important part of the ritual wherein I pour the light into my stomach, wherein it purifies me from the inside-out.

>>5069 Try visualizing a swarm of wasps attacking any hostiles next time and see if that works.

Is this thread specifically for people who need help by means of action like divination or editing their energy or w/e, or can I post about things I need general guidance on, even though I don't have a particular question or request?

The purpose of this thread is to serve as a containment for requests and questions which would otherwise disturb the flow of discussion in other threads. Generally, for people who are inexperienced in some field, seeking help from those with more years of practice behind them, including directly asking for things like >can someone read my energy? or >I think I have spirit possession, can someone remove it? >>5086 >things I need general guidance on If the things you need guidance on will end up taking the form of blogposting over a longer period, maybe the magic blog thread is better, you decide where you think it fits best. If you feel you would be annoying people in the other threads by asking for things, then post here instead.

Suffering immense psychic damage after attempting to meet a reddit atheist turned agnostic halfway, now I'm having a harder time coursing and utilizing my energies. >>5089 >The purpose of this thread is to serve as a containment for requests and questions which would otherwise disturb the flow of discussion in other threads. Oh I'm sorry, I was told this new thread was made as containment for me and my issues, which I've already posted >>4935 >>4942 >>4951 and received fuck-all about. Can this board be any less fucking useful?

>>5100 It is your containment thread you nonce... >Can this board be any less fucking useful? With you around? Sure it can!

How do I insulate my heart against susceptibility to shame and reprimanding from the morally scrupulous dogmatists on both the atheist/agnostic secular end and christian pacifist/catholic ends? Clearly recruiting the assistance of some emotionally distant kike who takes after le dissident populist xitter right hasn't helped shit but help me lose the fight against a compromised superego turned against me, and I have yet to remove this black, parallelogram-shaped mass of shame lodged in my heart constraining upwards communication and energetic flow through my throat chakra, third eye and crown alike. >>5102 >nonce I'm not into lolishit if that's what you're implying. >With you around? Sure it can! Beautiful, even less of a probability I'll receive any meaningful goddamn answers to my current paradigm given this board still assumes I'm beefing with the egoistic hypocritical disinfo agent masquerading as a schizo on /x/ and /pol/.

>>5100 >and received fuck-all about You cannot comprehend how annoyingly hard to solve your issues from a distance as long as you keep yourself in your own self destructive mental loop. You literally hate everything around you. Your home your family the communities you interact with and cannot utilize a single positive force in your life to your benefit and expect other wizards that also have their own problems and projects to drop everything and save your sorry ass from the predicaments you create for yourself. My problem with this thread that it won't work as long we don't have enough wizards that have a lotta freetime and proper ability to help emotionally and mentally incompetent entitled beggars all the time. But it is not supposed to work... it is supposed to act as a containment. But not just for you but for other people who also have requests. >>5086 Feel free to post btw. The speed the requests will be granted depends on the complexity of the issue. Meager energy reads and divination for stable people can be granted with minimal effort but for some people it takes time and nuance because they cannot even comprehend the reply because of their mental instability is not really helping their reading comprehension >>5103 >given this board still assumes I'm beefing with the egoistic hypocritical disinfo agent masquerading as a schizo on /x/ and /pol/. You don't? You really managed to let go? Congrats then. >Beautiful, even less of a probability I'll receive any meaningful goddamn answers listen to your own heart you dumbass. You overexplain your situation because you cannot get out of your fucking home for some reason. Go on a trip in an other city or landscape for a week or month. Go camping or what do I care. Stop tormenting yourself in your swamp of hatred already. >I'm not into lolishit if that's what you're implying. Sorry I am bad with british slangs and didn't know what it stood for. Just looked it up now. I thought it is an another word for dumbass. Guess I am the dumbass for misusing a word when talking to a master wordsmith!

>>5103 People have been giving you loads of good advice, spending hours of their life analyzing your problems and giving you their input on them. But instead of listening to these people you just ignore them and keep harping on about these various retards you're engaging in stupid feuds with. I said it before, but this advice >>2364 is your key for if you actually want to fix your problem. This issue here is that you just flat-out ignore any sort of input that would require you putting in any work yourself. Eventually as you keep doing this people learn that it's a waste of energy to try to help you.

>>5111 Trips of truth

>>5104 >You cannot comprehend how annoyingly hard to solve your issues from a distance as long as you keep yourself in your own self destructive mental loop. You literally hate everything around you. Your home your family the communities you interact with and cannot utilize a single positive force in your life to your benefit and expect other wizards that also have their own problems and projects to drop everything and save your sorry ass from the predicaments you create for yourself. Perhaps I lack the telepathic framework to wordlessly communicate any energetic or vibrational changes, but those thought loops are the serpents I fight to liberate my psyche and inner monologue. It's less of an over-encompassing hate for everything around me and more of whatever seems to get my attention. Different thought trains and patterns that would otherwise be useful are made inaccessible because they tend to align with the scrutiny these materialist occultists and sc >You don't? You really managed to let go? Congrats then. I hated that nigger because he took advantage of the fact that nobody knows whom the antichrist actually is and had the chutzpah to plug "Jesus" in that value, which tripped the outrage/shock part of my critical mind, and his forceful, obsessive repetition is why I hated him with righteous intent. He is a dishonest, cowardly nigger attempting memetic rape on an actual empath (me) because I'm able to recognize genuine malice in his heart completely swaddled in borderline solipsistic egotism. He's nothing more than a garish caricature of my fledgeling acolyte cringe, and with the revelation that my emotionally and energetically hypersensitive ass qualifying for empath status I can't >listen to your own heart you dumbass. Newsflash anon, the communication between my subconscious and conscious mind is obstructed by shame and self-consciousness, and I'm asking for assistance on clearing or pulling it out of my heart. Turns out my people-pleasing ass is too cowardly to sell or assert my beliefs in the immaterial and occult/paranormal to the materialist, atheist, metropolitan zeitgeist believes because they outnumber me, and it's hard to argue factually against them. A well meaning mistake on my end to offer them help for what's helped me, especially when I'm under the impression of science being compatible with or will become compatible with it. >science is a process of circumventing egotism and our failures to recognize our own biases. >Any attempt to circumvent it is a tacit admission you value your idea over the truth. >>5111 >People have been giving you loads of good advice, spending hours of their life analyzing your problems and giving you their input on them. Overall, sure and I'm sorry for not displaying the gratitude for their guidance and assistance then as opposed to now. >I said it before, but this advice >>2364 (379) is your key for if you actually want to fix your problem. This issue here is that you just flat-out ignore any sort of input that would require you putting in any work yourself. Eventually as you keep doing this people learn that it's a waste of energy to try to help you. You presume that I'm still hung up in that specific arc instead of on a completely new one as per my post-halloween psilocybin trip in that thread. I take it you lot haven't noticed any changes and refuse to acknowledge that I'm not as "closed" now as I was then.

>>5116 >because they tend to align with the scrutiny these materialist occultists and science worshippers level towards my beliefs, and it doesn't help that my own OCD or compromised superconscious mind seeks for any parallels between my current self and analogous past interpersonal interactions/dynamics for any hypocrisies or irony to shame me on. Forgot to finish that up.

>>5086 >or can I post about things I need general guidance on, even though I don't have a particular question or request? For pathworking feel free to use the >>1759 Awakening General but only if you want an in depth advice. And for an in depth advice you will have to talk about how you are walking your own path and how deep is your experience with spirituality and self discovery. That thread is for complex pathworking situations which is more akin to sharing your lifestory and not basic beggary like this thread. >>5116 >You presume that I'm still hung up in that specific arc instead of on a completely new one No one gives a shit what "arc" you are in. You are still consumed by your own impotent hate that you cannot utilize. I don't even know if your shrooms awakened a part of you or cauterized an another part of your brain again. You think you are an open book but in actuality you are like a book that wild wolves ripped apart and junkies used as a toilet paper. >subconscious and conscious mind is obstructed by shame and self-consciousness Boohoo. Go outside and hug a tree while full naked. I am serious. Being naked in nature cures shame and self consciousness. >Turns out my people-pleasing ass is too cowardly to sell or assert my beliefs in the immaterial and occult/paranormal to the materialist Stop annoying the mundanes and the retards with your schizo babble. You are knocking on the wrong doors with this. You awakening is still too shallow to awaken any people that are not doing as much drugs as you. >that I'm not as "closed" now as I was then. You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. Srsly go outside. Your entire life revolves around internet contacts and drugs. Change your lifestyle. Otherwise the only way you can be "saved" if your lifestyle crumbles around you or you crumble with it. I don't even know what else can be said that wasn't not posted already.

>>5119 >You are still consumed by your own impotent hate that you cannot utilize. Bullshit, you're only adding onto the shame and reflecting that exact same hate I've displayed against him. You refuse to release or change your perception of me over your own indignant frustration, and now that I can actually make use of the advice I've so wastefully ignored in the past, you continue to take this shit out on me further. >No one gives a shit what "arc" you are in. You are still consumed by your own impotent hate that you cannot utilize. I don't even know if your shrooms awakened a part of you or cauterized an another part of your brain again. You think you are an open book but in actuality you are like a book that wild wolves ripped apart and junkies used as a toilet paper. And you continue to cling to the past to ignore that I've attempted to energetically evolve beyond the behavior I've previously displayed here to work on the underlying issues, and now that I've managed to accurately and succintly describe what obstacle I'm currently facing >>4935, you instead choose to bear and reflect that same negativity I've been wallowing in for months right back at me for it. >You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. No, it's you who's fucking shut off. In the overall schema of my life as a power struggle between those imposing their morality, beliefs, and standards upon me and displaying any assertion, Jobbing to the hypothetical response of a bible scholar whom I trusted to factually disprove my aunt's shame-based christian pacifism had killed the momentum I made on the way to escaping this lower vibrational "eat or be eaten" lens I subconsciously view and interact through (especially on contentious issues).

>>5119 >You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. Srsly go outside. Your entire life revolves around internet contacts and drugs. Change your lifestyle. Otherwise the only way you can be "saved" if your lifestyle crumbles around you or you crumble with it. I don't even know what else can be said that wasn't not posted already. Said the wizard consumed by his indignant anger towards my own past fuckery to release it - Perhaps you tapping into that critic part of me spurred on your animosity, because you were far calmer and rational in the past compared to now. I assume you're central european, perhaps polish or czech?

>>5121 >No, it's you who's fucking shut off Well you said it. I am too shut off. Guess I cannot help you then. Feel free to write down all your issues and hope for someone else who have time and care to wade through all of your bullshit then >>5122 >Said the wizard consumed by his indignant anger towards my own past fuckery I don't give a shit about that one schizo. You are still in the mindset that you have to adhere to the "rules" of your past self and the only way you can escape is by doing drugs while constantly lamenting how you try to help others and it doesn't work and how they entrapped you with their ideas etc. A slightly better version of the previous hate but now we have different people instead. Your first issue was the merchant vision then the schizo. If you are telling the truth and truly past of them... after several hundred posts and hours wasted upon you that should have been a weekend exercise then congrats. But don't think we have the same eagerness wading through the same issues with slightly different flavors now. You think it is easy to interpret your vocabulary that writes the same issue with a thousand words while missing the key component all the time. You call yourself an empath while I do not consider myself one but whenever I have to look at your energies my heart tightens in disgust. If you were truly an empath you would have a way to notice the negative energies in the people you interact with and would find a way to avoid those situations. But instead you are addicted to those negative energies and I have no idea how to cure that problem. You find a person get attached then get in an argument with them and shatter mentally and energetically. If you want help then either find it or wait for your time. Reading through your mess is the most unrewarding task ever. I do not want to "shame you" for this I am just explaining my own incapability. I have no idea why do you consider yourself shameful because you certainly don't appear as one. Currently you are shamelessly demanding everyone to get involved with you to solve your issues and if they fail you will blame them for it. I do not know who or what can help you. Also >>5111 he posted this to remind you to read books and start your own pathworking and not to shame you about the schizo you had. You will need to find proper techniques to interact with your psyche and stop leeching everyone for advice then pretend you didn't get a single useful one so far. >I assume you're central european THEN UNDERSTAND THAT IT'S FUCKING 2AM HERE AND I HAVE A JOB TOMORROW YOU UNGRATEFUL NEETMAXXER. If I lived a life like you my parents would have murdered me in a week. Cannot imagine how you have time and money for drugs all the time while leeching of your parents constantly. Guess the western degeneracy is too much for me to fathom

>>5124 >you would have a way to notice the negative energies in the people you interact with and would find a way to avoid those situations. The metaphysical framework my aunts foist upon me demand I be a walking doormat and onahole for anybody with the slightest grievance against me and offer ineffectual solutions that involve becoming wholly devout to the synagogue of satan, which I strongly oppose. Half the shit you've seen in me was imprinted and absorbed from my own dysfunctional sea nigger family and the other half is attempting to navigate my spiritual stockholm syndrome-infused spirit around it. Visualizing my hands pulling this black shard of shame out of my heart reinforced with a grain or nugget of truth proved fruitless, begging Jesus for it sure as shit hasn't helped either. >>5111 Wait, were you iron pill or is that Dagoth Ur that was ironpill previously?

>>5126 >Wait, were you iron pill or is that Dagoth Ur that was ironpill previously? I'm neither.

>>5127 >This issue here is that you just flat-out ignore any sort of input that would require you putting in any work yourself. Eventually as you keep doing this people learn that it's a waste of energy to try to help you. I've stopped visiting /x/ so his carcinogenic ego can get worn out by his beloved saturn/chronos tearing it to shreds. Turns out what I've previously identified as "Saturn/Cronos" energy in regards to discipline, wisdom, perception and insight pertains to my Mercury and Sun square pluto instead. I still haven't subconsciously ingrained planetary influences based upon the characteristics of the deities that form their namesakes. As if it weren't difficult enough to deal with sanctimonious self-deluded charlatans playing mind games and forcefully rewriting my internal lexicon, now I have to put up with >>5124 >Cannot imagine how you have time and money for drugs all the time while leeching of your parents constantly. My mother was dead before I discovered that I could get fucked up on cough medicine and pops just became begrudgingly tolerant of it. I tend to try and stay the course despite whoever gets in my head or heart. >I have no idea why do you consider yourself shameful despite shamelessly demanding everyone to get involved with you to solve your issues and if they fail you will blame them for it. >You are still in the mindset that you have to adhere to the "rules" of your past self As I renew my self-perception and attempt to re-develop a little self-awareness on my position, now I've to contend with you holding me to past sins despite this like I haven't tried to develop beyond them. >and the only way you can escape is by doing drugs Which was to be the other half, whereas the other is purely internalized and mentalist/synchromysticist, if psychonautic grimoires and the recounts of many an anon on /x/ and elsewhere (especially prior to the boards' enshittification) were to go by. >while constantly lamenting how you try to help others and it doesn't work and how they entrapped you with their ideas etc. First made this mistake in 2022 >A slightly better version of the previous hate but now we have different people instead. This would've been my primary struggle weren't it for the mistakes I've made in the pursuit of DMT and all that entailed, but as it appears I'm not allowed to evolve beyond those without being reminded of it by anons who hold grudges and are slow to adapt their perception. I've had more spiritual and personal growth in the past few weeks before I felt that wrath redirected at me for bringing my theological grievances of my spiritually enslaved and fanatically zionist pseudo-evangelical catholic aunts who absorb their morality from propaganda outlets and easily morally to another christian whose culture was different to theirs for factual reassurance and reinforcement. >You will need to find proper techniques to interact with your psyche and stop leeching everyone for advice then pretend you didn't get a single useful one so far. I hate that I can't pretend you're wrong especially here, even when I neglect to mention when any advice does work when it does (except for the obvious abstinence of /x/ which has worked with that schizo) My current and only major problem I wanna solve is >>4935 and the energetic/chakra pathway workage that pertains to it, in case if anyone can name a specific book for dealing with that precise issue. Lest I go reading the vampire's guide to psychic self-defense in hopes of subconsciously attracting a solution to that specific issue and running back on track as I would've prior.

I'm afraid that I'll either suck or be mediocre at everything I'll ever do, mundane or not. Does anyone here have any insight into fixing this?

>>5137 >Does anyone here have any insight into fixing this? Find your passion? Dunno man. What it means to be "great" or "not being mediocre" to you? Why do you want to be great? If you can get on living even by sucking that is also living and helps in your survival. Also being "Mediocre" and being "decent" is the same but greatness is more about wisdom and balance and not pursuing extremities. Sucking in a field usually means you didn't find the "vibe" yet. You will have to accept the vibes or the mindwave that govern that expertise. I think you just have low self esteem and don't know what to pursue in your life. Truth is sucking and being mediocre is good in a way. You know there is room for improvement. You know which direction you can go to chase your dreams. Stop being demoralized. Find your flame and blaze through your path. Or enjoy the stillness of your life. Whatever your heart desires tbh. If you want to suck keep sucking if you want to be better be better.

>>5119 >You are still closed that is why you cannot let go of all your negativity and still desire a fucking beacon of high energies from these tired of your shit already wizards. Srsly go outside. Your entire life revolves around internet contacts and drugs. Change your lifestyle. Otherwise the only way you can be "saved" if your lifestyle crumbles around you or you crumble with it. I don't even know what else can be said that wasn't not posted already. Perhaps if you've realized that my current energywork or situation is now a completely different, albeit ultimately smaller issue, you'd realize that you're continuing to act off a previous perception of me and subconsciously justifying it. Yes, I'm aware that my soul or spirit is in a darwinian, lower-vibrational "kill or be killed" mentality, and I don't trust the philosemitic violence-shunning >>5067 >Real psychic attacks will block your thinking How about constricting your throat chakra through shame so your heart and soul is unable to express its true self, or an overzealous critic of an inner monologue borne of a subverted superconscious/superego that disconnects your rational, thinking mind from your subconscious mind and manipulates/coerces it using the perceived fear of future consequences for your resistance under the convenient labels of either "karma" or "fate"? Do note that my catholic family had always imposed a slave morality that not only indebts me to them, but prohibits any meaningful development or display of assertion and encourages dependancy on elders as an unquestionable, infallible authority. >>5137 Mindset is everything, and you've been psyopped into short-selling yourself for a multitude of reasons. My parents' compliments were largely superficial and hollow, and I needed to develop confidence out of spite for them.

>>5146 You're probably just channelling things randomly, a true shamanic awakening tbh. Lots of different spirits are trying to tune your brain so they can communicate through you, opening you with insanity and drugs to rewire it in the way that suits them the best. I've experienced this with people practicing different things, knowingly or unknowingly. If they come through, their abilities will skyrocket. It's like training an AI, at first it will be retarded and not work for a long time, then the "magic" takes effect just like we've seen in the past years and it improves very fast. Your brain is a literal neural network, it needs input to learn how to handle spiritual forces, and it won't be pretty at first. This is just my personal view, but you seem to have stabilized a lot since you started posting here. Try getting into some real structured practice, day to day process with some way to learn a "vocabulary" of methods. In yoga you learn different poses, mudras or breathing methods, which later become your toolbox for anything you do, kabbalah gives you a huge set of useful themes and verses to use for spellcasting as well as a range of inner cultivation energy systems you can also use, and so on. All of these require that you actually study and practice day to day though.

>>5146 I'm not really familiar with your posting lore, but maybe you could cast a sigil to make your aunts stop antagonizing you? Not the same smileberg poster as above.

>>5147 Attempting to solidly identify whatever the fuck it is obstructing communication between my subconscious and conscious mind in my throat chakra is my current struggle. As of now, my current hurdle is trying to teach a jaded american atheist-turned-agnostic. Apologies for the incredulously long delay in my response but what I formerly recognized as saturn/cronos energies was conflated mercury/pluto energy with them. As of now, it's a complicated, broad quagmire with numerous energies I'm either attempting to redirect, curtail, or repurpose, though I still feel energetically diminished. Vulnerable. That anger Dagoth Ur pointed out prior is more akin to childhood vulnerability in reaction to bullying, except it's over people in the past who've wronged me for underhanded, backstabbing reasons and I feel that pain and anger boil to the surface. >>5161 My aunts are no longer the issue, it is a matter of dislodging whatever shame or guilt constricting my critical, communicative, logical, and rational side from my emotional, intuitive, extraperceptive, creative, and nourishing side. I don't know how many times I'll need to re-iterate this but I sure as shit know that I'm suffering the misdeeds of my own repetitive and cyclical, self-destructive nature here that I oh-so tactfully and clearly communicated the distress of being constrained within, blinded to higher order/vibrational thinking and solutions. When my spirit's under attack by subversive serpents spreading shit, that's when the inner templar in me awakens. That atheist/agnostic I've argued with came off just like I did with that schizo, and I ought to apologize to >>5124 for being hard on him earlier. I suffer from such similar scars myself and ought to have shown more compassion and gratitude. Which, btw, massive help for all of your assistance in the past, and I'm really sorry it was such a struggle, but those issues I had suffered from synthetic shrooms and nicotine, I cured with real shrooms and dropping nicotine. Go figure.

>>5161 Naw, what I need is something to heave this dense, heavy black energy out of my body and cast it from my heart. I already got it all down in >>4935

>>5170 > I need is something to heave this dense, heavy black energy out of my body and cast it from my heart This sigil should do it.

>>5171 This clears the coronary energetic passageway through my throat, upwards to my third eye and through my crown chakra, correct? Focusing on it with my third eye to flush the ahrimanic influence upon me by an agnostic I've attempted to sell belief and faith in literally anything other than the material on (they are so autistic about misinformation and following the secular dogma yet refuse to admit it)

>>5171 Is this a safe sigil for others? What is its function?

>>5172 >>5174 It's a representation of a ritual session which forces your heaviest dark energy (karma) out from the body and solidifies the divide between negative and positive in such a manner as to make your current incarnation immune to the destruction this karma may otherwise cause. I made it a robust sigil so that anon can safely use it. It clears your chakras, so the experience may be what you describe.

>>5175 Couldnt this create an issue for someones next life then?

>>4450 >beloved funny yellow dog meme icon dies and their likeness cringefully repurposed into a cynical government commission and whored out by spiritually and metacognitively stunted rubes to the chagrin of socialist profanes I suspect Saturn/Jews (going off 4kike's /pol/luted framework) had something to do with it. >>4115 Extreme gratitude for your assistance, apologies for not communicating this before that thread died. >>5175 I was the spiritually active autist from the prior thread, now I struggle to overcome this overly rational, dense, ahrimanic overreliance on deboonking, peer-reviewed studies, worship of the scientific method as the only reliable means of attaining truth, and cries of "pseudoscience/quackery" as the new because the portion of my mind that can explain chaos magic and the mechanics of belief is incompatible with him. I can comprehend his position, yet he cannot innately fathom mine. I tried planting the notion or idea of a higher power into him, and in return he twists my brain against my heart. Perhaps my mars/pluto connection has been weakened.

>>5176 Not really. You should worry about your current life anyway, if you were dragged down by that karma you won't have a next life, I'm just saying it protect your current life, what happens later may not be safe.

>>5178 Perhaps I've been too judgemental on you for not believing the psionic instability/capability of the most ideologically charged and fanatical of non-stereotypical autists. These venn diagrams are the best means I can use to articulate my specific type of autism, and being mistaken for the dense, spiritually circumcised, metacognitively disabled meat calculator autists (aka stereotypical autists) vexes me greatly (the american education system is very nuanced and respectful of their disabled students' regarding their condition). I don't perceive my neurological wiring as a drawback so much as something akin to shamanism, even if the emotional and spiritual damage (as with my admittively semi-willful ignorance on fixing it is evident). All those dextromethorphan, psilocybin, and muscaria trips I would liken to chemically stripping, repainting, and anodizing my psyche the same way a gunsmith refinishes a rifle. Had to edit this to trim a bit of unneeded wrath off.

>>5178 This sigil ended up helping a lot. Interestingly today i woke up feeling a lot cleaner, and the few days before that cleaner than the days before even that. This sigil made some movement and i say based in feeling i had already cleaned put about 50 to 60 percent,most in the last few weeks. This isnt because of any practice.a big cleaning happened after having a dream of walking in someones house and i opened a fridge. I thought it was a nicely made fridge and saw mcdonalds fries also in there. This wasnt a very normal dream as it was as accurate to real life as can be and very stable. I decided not too post about this recent advancement in cleanliness but since this sigil helped and did a similar thing i guess I was right about it.

Ive been trying to renounce lust for over 2 years. I keep failing. Please /fringe/ wizards help this neophyte transcend his earthly desires

>>5261 The way I annihilated lust was by succumbing to >tfw no gf and letting heartache and the agony of subconsciously feeling that I'll never consciously nor subconsciously know whom I've always wanted in my life turn lust into a implicit "fox and grapes" situation against me. >b-but I use this as motivation/justification to goon and love the shame and naughtiness it brings upon me! You are a spineless cuckold and doormat should this be the case. Reroute your resentment towards your inherent incompatibility towards women into a cthonic spiritual diesel to fuel your spirit, unworthiness of true love as a harsh spiritual abrasive to strip your spirit of incel psyops, and delve into spiritual practices, affirmations, subliminals and the such to repaint, anodize, and refinish your spirit with them. Learn from my mistakes, >>11 will help you.

>warned for being off-topic now who the fuck reported me and what post

>>5281 Maybe too bloggy in the help thread: >>5185 ?

>>5281 politics in magic blog >>5282 help is inherently bloggy

>>5283 Makes sense, I remember smileberg mentioning manifesting missile strikes through his thaumaturgical means, all I needed to do was visualize God's fist crashing upon Israel and assume my will as God's. A little insane to realize that all I needed was to bypass a frivolous moral check for it.

If I recall correctly, the issue I had suffered this entire year was a dense, pervasive miasma of ever-obfuscating stupidity and retardation I generated from attempting to energetically annihilate a retarded namefag back in March while trying to sacrifice the enemy schizo I had wasted time energetically flailing and having him deflect my attacks back onto me from the year prior. Before you get on my ass, this is a retrospective analysis on self-imposed issues that started this year. Hell, perhaps I'll even undo my own spiritual circumcision/curtailing by shittalking saturn/cronos and conflating the two with al-dajjal/ahriman/satan and using my father to represent their agent to keep me spiritually asleep and tethered within the material realm. There's to be a way to recover all my lost metacognitive faculties and full memory's contingency alongside with the synesthesia portions uniting logic/cognition with creativity/subcognition through metacognition. My goal for this month is to loosen my rigid, irrational and nonsensical framework up, restore the subtle, yet inextricably specific and poignant ambient vibes and emotions that defined and seperated each time. Hopefully then I'll be capable of foreseeing or even writing my destiny through the same synesthetic and narrative bound narrative magick/LOA I've been practicing.

Still struggling to energetically beat this dense disconnective miasma of retardation I inadvertantly formed when I was pissed the fuck off at that retarded namenigger "sleeper agent" for forming a dense, suffocating thoughtform that not only fucked with the electrical flow in my heart but created an artificial rift seperating subconscious from conscious and subduing impulse and instinct from even registering incoming stimuli, spirits or energies, let alone reacting to it. If I withdraw, its dark tendrils of obfuscating autistic retardation snaking its way through my energetic body and no-selling i.e non-reacting to light purifying it. May someone please read into my heart's aura and extract/banish said black worm? My year started off with a particularly nasty interlocking ensemble of energetic conundrums, complications and other assorted fuckups that have made it impossible to even energetically interface with a sigil - to say nothing about the natural circulation of energy through my body. >inb4 get ogre it The namefag may be gone, but the spawn of the pawn of satan still lingers within, yet the mark of sin shan't ever win against me and my kin. I request and beseech /fringe/'s assistance (and forgiveness) for bearing with my constant fumbling to insufferable degrees reminsicent of these dipshits, taking on the umbrage of purifying/cleansing /x/ energies was hubris on my end.

>>5371 >inb4 get ogre it >

I need a way to specifically reprogram my traumatized nervous system since no matter how good I get my energy or into a sublime state, I always crash all the way down if I get "triggered" by something. It's a serious impediment.

Now what I require is for my chronologically scrupulous synesthetic short term and long term memory to return, where every day, hour, minute, and second no matter how mundane is meticulously and subconsciously chronicled, with playback akin to a hybrid between a film reel annotated with timestamps, except with dates and timestamps.

What does my energy feel like?

>>5480 Assisting and liberating. I know it'll piss people off here, but a small portion of blogposting for you; So, before I fought noctilucent, my former spiritual teacher—whom I channeled spare energy that wasn't dedicated to batting off the psychopathic plug I egregiously gave my personal info to—had subverted my willpower and superego using a tacitly disingenuous, karmic twist of the golden rule connivingly created to pre-emptively hamstring any combat magic I may intend to employ in the future with - "Whatever you wish unto others shall return upon you" Shortly thereafter, the anti-abrahamic subversive came along, and input "jesus" as the definition of "antichrist", parasitically subverting the "I HATE THE ANTICHRIST" meme I had championed to serve his means in the same manner the cordyceps fungus parasites small insects for consumption. It was blatantly obvious this arrogant, dunning-kruger afflicted worshipper of emptiness, entropy, and lies suffered from a severe Yin imbalance. Christian/Noctilucent/Kaleb, the capricornian false prophet with a serpentine tongue, the delusional, uncircumcized white kike who embodies the excess of my sins in a way that forces my spirit to acknowledge and evolve beyond it through any means necessary. As far as I've learned (or rather, learned to articulate despite all internal thoughtforms of low vibration, low IQ individuals whining and threatening me into silence) that Christstain, aka noxious loser or gayleb, is in fact a most insidious energetic equivalent to that of a skinwalker whom may or may not have established an empathic bond with me in early 2022 and wound up absorbing the psychopathic energy of a sociopathic psycho plug I went to DMT for on IRC and learnt of the best way to get under my skin, through to my heart and "amygdala hijack" me into stupefaction and silence with his sheer, self-serving sacrilege of logic to serve his satanic purposes with which he deems an objective truth. Through the myriad of faceless, hostile energies infesting my psyche and energetic aura, I reflected their aggression against me and one upped them by visualizing myself brutalizing them into submission, relenting a little to let it set it, and instantaneously jumping back if they so dared take advantage of my brief respite. Demons take on the lowest of energetic signatures, and my aunts' doctrinal "pacifism" was tantamount to restraining me hostage while such principalities assailed me and had their way. This schizo is the embodiment of such evil, easily one of the most vile personalities I've ever made the mistake of attempting to rehabilitate. From the same facade of innocence and ignorance belied by a blatantly obvious giveaway clearly meant to draw my ire that retarded psychopath who tried to sell me on satan showed, the same self-exhalting, controlling, delusional, hateful, malicious, manipulative, and wicked demeanor befitting of a fallen angel, their lust to overwhelm, control and steal from me what they could never cultivate on their own (though the schizo was far worse in this regard, owing to his narcissistic anglo-catholic tendency to deploy envious narcissistic rhetoric like DARVO, alongside commonly exhibited angloid delusions such as Adolf Hitler being primarily a judeo-masonic agent which the satanic virginian junkie and tik-tok consoomer simply does not have the IQ to fathom). Understanding the epistemological origin of my thought loops and their intended purpose as a crude, last-ditch means of memetic self defense against a shifty, serpentine predator, I took to the very heart and core of his subversion and replaced Jesus with his stated birthname, Christian. Not Christian as in Christian Weston Chandler, just simply Christian/Noctilucent, owing to his wisdom to not impart his full name nor adhere to any consistent identity. Good thing that fucking retard is violently allergic to Jesus Christ's presence, alongst the Holy Spirit and God's judgement. The white rabbit has triumphed over the red dragon of revelations.

>>5497 Additional: This motherfucker whom I've beefed with is what I can call a "yin extremist and severely imbalanced, and I identify him as the avatar or tangible manifestation of my own sin when I called Jesus "bad" like Michael Jackson Bad - more initially Badass, but that wasn't a proper term and I scrambled in panic to rescind and correct that. Christ and I can recognize precisely the same chronic slipup of all my momentum and glory ruined by one, one'' miniscule introduction of sin or slipup that prevents me from attaining self-actualization. Every malefic trait from others, such as the anti-abrahamic folk worship and esotericism I've adopted from my wehraboo himmlerite friend and spirit I picked up from a lad the year prior, the quintessence of wickedness and evil from that tiktok addicted richard ramirez worshipper, and my own bullshit I subconsciously inherited from both sides of my family and synchronized through my introspective crash course campaign fuelled by funni chemical and philosophizing with counterculture He is the tangible manifestation of my sin, to put it curtly. This is why I don't wish death upon him, but Jesus Christ, and with Him, eternal life.

>>5497 >retard schizo symbolically refers to himself and implies that he is in fact the devil/satan/antichrist, both tacitly through his demonization of Abel and lionization of Cain, what he preaches and his unrepetant blasphemy against the Holy Spirit, through his intellectually dishonest rhetoric and the biblical symbolism with which he represents himself through I knew that he held subconscious influence through the confidence and absolute certainty with which he carried himself and that I had ruminated over how unfathomably retarded someone would have to be to declare Christ Jesus as the antichrist and what type of person they'd truly be, something of which I couldn't fucking process - but for him to confirm his unfathomable, malicious retardation by siding with satan pisses me off in hindsight. I knew I was divided by the devil after he baited me.

>>5124 Goodness fucking gracious, I am so sorry for being an insufferable retard and shithead. Can you forgive me? Read my soul or aura if you must, I am in the middle of spiritual warfare and I am immensely grateful for any forgiveness or assistance on your end.

>>5615 >I am in the middle of spiritual warfare Tell me about the spiritual warfare you are in. With whom are you fighting?

>>5619 Do you realize that you just doxxed yourself by posting your astrological chart?

>>5618 I clash with shame through numerous intrusive thoughtforms, I still fight to maintain the integrity of my entire being, chakras and all through the binding and releasing of shame from various distorting and misreading my intentions and gaslighting, shaming, ridiculing, doubting, and emasculating me and my spirit, from my old spiritual teacher that had me in a bind that I learnt to work with and ultimately through, to the embodiment of lucifer/satan, the antichrist named christian directly poisoning my vulnerable, wide open heart chakra with a hate so blinding over a neurolinguistic sigil that parasitically compromised "I HATE THE ANTICHRIST" driving me to become full of and exude sheer hate and become wrathful, to some furry with a long lineage of druids who got raped by his satanist uncle when he was five and has horrific luck throughout his life projecting his traumatic failure at overzealously fighting evil by bringing an entire realm to damnation, alongst all other diehard christian dogmatists bringing subjugation, mockery, insult, deception, self-righteous judgement, trauma-based coercion through fear, doubt and ridicule. all the way to beefing with secular dogmatists and science worshippers whom have had a bad rap with the silver tongue of pied pipers, oligarchs, megachurch pastors, and servants of saturn whom they sacrificed Jesus to, rewrote His word and distorted it into a means of subjugation and slavery (black nobility/jesuits/freemasons also included) Fuck, and to attempt manifesting 4/pol/ and 4/x/ autists and schizos winning their war against the three letter agencies of America and unifying them in romance with anti-government leftist bsky/reddit furry artists, writers, creatives, etc. on the opposite end of the political spectrum against the said tyrannical minority raping and pillaging the earth, currying favor with principalities and satan for power and glory. >>5620 Shame there wasn't an option to delete the file only.

>>5618 This is his draconic chart, I've been constrained/resorted to begging God's help against him. It matters not which specific face nor interpretation of God, for all are intertwined and these endlessly convoluted semantics only serve as complications and obstacles to reach Him.

>>5615 >I am in the middle of spiritual warfare and I am immensely grateful for any forgiveness or assistance on your end. Sure have this image. The advice remains the same. Stay away from 4chan. Spend time with people who you like to be around. Sleep properly and hydrate. Try to do something new and meaningful with your life. Be it physical activity or reading books. It doesn't matter what it is just find some new meaning in it that makes you forget your previous thoughts. And try to meditate without drugs. Your energies barely make any sense to me currently. I have no idea what you are doing in your life at all. They are cleaner but absolutely disorganized. I cannot make much of it. >>5623 Draconic charts are a meme. They supposedly represent their past life or something. You cannot do much with it at all.

>>5630 >Your energies barely make any sense to me currently. I have no idea what you are doing in your life at all. They are cleaner but absolutely disorganized. I cannot make much of it. That's because that anti-abrahamic faggot named christian got into me through my crown chakra straight through my throat chakra to my heart chakra as I felt myself powerless to resist him, and I have only my former spiritual teacher turned freemason to blame.

>>5640 In addition—because whatever faceless irritating demon forces my attention away from what I ought be doing—I am fighting him, or whatever remains of him within me and I could use your assistance in identifying and uprooting them. >Stay away from 4chan. Spend time with people who you like to be around. Sleep properly and hydrate. Try to do something new and meaningful with your life. Be it physical activity or reading books. It doesn't matter what it is just find some new meaning in it that makes you forget your previous thoughts. And try to meditate without drugs. I'm trying to drawfag over here, but "satan" namefagging as christ alongside all these damned intrusive thoughtforms based upon the (varying degrees of trauma from sudden onset of guilt, shame, and in some cases impending sense of doom) memory of every petulant, narcissistic, malignant cunt whom has ever nitpicked, whineed, and/or judged me from their paranoid, imbecilic, overly sensitive mindset (read: my mother, stepsister, aunts, various toxic female american public school teachers who hated my gun autism, etc.) In typing this, I acknowledge my own sensitivity, hyperactivity, and other malignant traits imprinted onto me by them. I don't nor do I want to continue holding shit against cunts who bullied me in highschool while I believed I'd get worse punishment for retaliating, even if they fucking deserve so. It is the flaws of mainstream christianity - especially how my family instilled such values through fear, assuming shit, and trauma - that lead me to sirlulzingtonesquire who made it all click for me.

>>5640 >>5641 The way I see it you managed to reconnect with your shadow. You know about the holy spirit right? The shadow can and will turn into the holy spirit once you purify it. When you "curse" others you either utilize a cosmic principle and "taint them" with it (like voodoo dolls or specific curse sigils) or you literally send there your shadow to do the thing. Because the shadow is part of you it gets corrupted in the process. This is why making your shadow loaded with negative energies then send it to others and force that negativity upon them causes extreme amounts of harm for them and for yourself too. The goal should be always to purify yourself and those around you and not force them to integrate a "different view" which just spits on their whole faith and existential outlook. Your shadow only stays at the "target" when you constantly feed it with the necessary "attachment energies" which in your case is your hatred and constant butthurt. If your shadow is "out there" then you are incomplete. To complete yourself it will have to return and get purified with you. Purification happens quite easily if you are able to "let go" but if not it will just recirculate all the negative energies within your psyche too keep itself in "form". You will need to let go and meditate. If you cannot do that I am unsure what will help you besides getting away from the internet and your family as much as you can for a longer period of time. Currently you are mentioning every person that wronged you in your life so far. That is how shadow work happens. Every person you hated is a small part (a shadow tulpa) that animates your shadow. You will have to accept this part of yourself and slowly purify it. You will have to detach from this accursed past of yourself. Watch them lose their form and crumble. Imagine every person you hate or have negative views towards let them say their words then forgive them then let yourself to be forgiven. If you feel unable to do it within yourself then talk to the people you hate. I meant talk to your family and not your internet schizo friends. Don't force them to accept your views don't debate them either. Just talk to them. Try to find a common ground then see what can be said on that venue. I really recommend Buddhist chants for finding a purer mind. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mvBLSJWk6HE Like this one. You really need to flush your mind out. Don't fight yourself. The cliche quote is that "you are your worst enemy" but... you are not. You are the most misunderstood friend of yourself. Accept your own past failings then move past of it but don't idolize them either. You have a weird issue with that Currently you are projecting your perception of your enemies upon your shadow and animate it with your own "ill will" against yourself. You will have to realize that and let it find peace. Find peace within and it appears without. Liking how you changed your flag into the black sun btw. That sun is the harshest that purifies all negative energies and leaves only "true purity" behind. Accept yourself and accept others. Don't fight in vain for things that only cause harm for you. This is all I can say.

>>5646 >When you "curse" others you either utilize a cosmic principle and "taint them" with it (like voodoo dolls or specific curse sigils) or you literally send there your shadow to do the thing. That makes me think. Do you happen to know if it's possible to unify or merge your personal shadow with a greater cosmic principal?

>>5646 I remember the handful of times (no more than twice) I ganked it to some scantily clad ~15yo bitches out of some "taboo appeal" demons planted in my mind - despite my disgust and that shit has been in my P-OCD That shit was beyond unholy and I prayed to God to have it damned from my memory, and after some other mental breakdowns over whether or not twitter would consider me a pedo for having some 17yo post semi-lewd drawings or telling some 17yo I'd let them fuck me, I still hate and rebuke all that shit and I'm brute forcing my OCD to acknowledge those actions and send it up to God, because that was fucking degenerate for me to fall for that and I've a hard time forgiving myself for it. I just want a short, stacked girl my height, age bracket, with compatible interests, eccentricities, and weird autism into me, and I don't need more people making the same assumptions I've made of myself.

>>5646 >The goal should be always to purify yourself and those around you and not force them to integrate a "different view" which just spits on their whole faith and existential outlook. Which is what that self-proclaimed "scribe of God" who got raped by his satanist uncle at 5 tried with me, and he denied the inherent divinity human beings have as per their creation by God in His image and spark, attempted to subjugate me with fear, denounced lulzington as a false prophet because he took his ultimate message as rising up against the slavemasters of babylon and killing the pope, and after I confronted him beyond it he regaled an unverifiable tale on how he had caused an entire dimension/realm of existence to spontaneously cease, and apparently he reincarnated as this weird loser who believes he blasphemed the holy spirit and is assailed by satan so brutally that He appointed Archangel Michael as his guardian angel for it. I don't like how he equates his colossal fuckup to my intentions of uniting 4chan autists, nazis, and mystics/schizos with bsky furries, leftists, and mystics/schizos through love and opened third eyes to unite against child and drug trafficking rings and affluential, influential, powerful pedophiles around the world.

>>5649 >and I don't need more people making the same assumptions I've made of myself. Why not? Eventually you're going to have to free yourself from that egregore's yoke. Having mental breakdowns over what twitter people think doesn't mean that you need to comply more with their standards, it means you need to untangle yourself from their influence. Learn to distinguish true morality that comes from your own immortal perception of Truth, from false morality that's just a manifestation of fear and insecurity.

>>5646 I forgive and console it when it's crying in the closing months of 2021, and this is how it fucking repays me? Calling Christ the Antichrist and treating it like some memetic wunderwaffe and embodying dunning-kruger syndrome in its purest ability? Fuck giving into its blatant scheme of baiting me into wishing death upon him, I'll wish eternal life, humility, patience upon him the same way I had to do so myself for jorking it to "questionable age" shit I lied to myself about just for the sake of gaining oldfag edgelord clout. I resent that I ever did it, but I respect that I ever had the heart to directly acknowledge those few instances of sick fuckery just because temptation told me I could "get away with it" like some edgy /b/tard. Regardless of the immediate, overwhelming horror, disgust and shame knowing I couldn't open up to anybody about this and never wanting to fuck with that again tbh it's mostly the fact that it's a corruption of my actual taste for women my height, face neotenous as mine, curvaceous, etc. as with the lifelong phobia of being misinterpreted getting to my head through my heart and letting that external judgement influence my thoughts and behavior >>5652 Trauma based conditioning where I've been trained to exhalt other people's opinions, takes and beliefs over mine even if I couldn't understand them or thought they were fucking stupid, exacerbated by dumbfuck judeochristian pharisaical values meant to castrate and emasculate me and further compounded by american public education and the opinions of many a toxic cunt who stabbed me in the back because they couldn't directly confront me. That was part of the basis of my OCD, and learning to work with my shadow within allows for me to develop a far thicker skin. Sure, I don't hate my friends on steam/discord/telegram whom have been consumed by the egregore, but as you said about true morality vs artificial herd morality based upon fear, insecurity delivered through sanctimonious preaching and performative, condescending rhetoric, all serving neurotic control freak mindsets that I hate.

For most of the past 10 years, I’ve been suffering from an immense amount of intrusive thoughts that have tried to make me sell or give away my soul to some extremely-low-vibrating entity, usually satan. As such, I have PTSD about contracts and signatures and deals and pacts and agreements and other stuff. Now just earlier, I was trying to get over my fear of my spirit accidentally taping other spirits when I interact with them, and I realized that my inner child went like: >if I feel bad for the spirit does that mean I’m in love with the spirit? <no inner child that always isn’t the case >what if I was under the threat that I’d have to sell my soul to satan if I was wrong? then would you say that feeling bad for the spirit doesn’t always mean being in love with the spirit? <no inner child there are absolutely no exceptions to this, not even soul-selling exceptions I then immediately felt an energetic pant throughout my body, including a flash of white energy in my head, or was it my heart I forgot. Anyway, I then realized that while there aren’t any exceptions in my particular case, there can be exceptions in other cases. Did I just sell my soul to satan by accident? I guess I need to get over my fear of that too but that’s a pretty goddamn dangerous fear to face. Anyway I then asked Athena to guard my soul against being sold if I didn’t truly want it to happen, such that Her permission would be required in addition to what you would’ve called as of before this happened the permission of the guy posting this. I really fucking need to know if satan owns my soul all of a sudden; it’s kind of a big deal if I did. I intend for satan to permanently not own my soul in any way, shape, or form.

>>5660 >accidentally taping other spirits Meant raping. Btw, when this happens my spiritual muscle movements happen on their own as if something is overriding my control of them. I can still exert some control when this happens but it’s a competition to see who has more control over the muscles and I typically lose that competition. >energetic pant throughout my body Meant an energetic pang.

Hi there! So if I understand correctly this is one of those "Question Containment Threads" all the kids are into these days. About me: longtime spirit-keeper, incompetent occultist, etc. Middle-aged mid-Atlantic American male. I have noticed a recent pattern in my dreams and am trying to make sense of what it means. I have recently begun having dreams relating to "Alaska." In the dream Alaska there's a small town with a road lined with closely spaced buildings on either side, but the road quickly leads to empty land with side paths to mountains and small houses or hunting shacks. Often the dreams will stay with me in a normal place, when I suddenly realize I need to go North to get back to Alaska. As a normal American I tend to have banal impressions of Alaska, like gold and Salmon come from there, as well as lots of gorgeous mountains. I've never made a detailed inquiry into the place, never traveled there, no real interest in winter sports, etc. Last night I dreamt I was at a house in Alaska I thought was empty, when suddenly a large group of people arrived there. Included in the group are at least a few Afghans (or perhaps Kurds) and that had babies with them. I like babies, but the Afghans politely asked I snot touch them (no problem of course, I wouldn't want some unexpected weirdo grabbing a hypothetical child of mine either.) I was annoyed because I thought I was the only person at the house and suggested to the arriving group that I would try to get an Airbnb in the morning. Later in the dream I realized some young women traveling with the party were trying to reach for me under the sheets while we were sleeping, but I wrapped the sheets tightly to avoid any hanky panky. So my question is this , what does it mean? I don't usually have repeated dreamscapes. One possiblity is that I'm active in the astral and that this "Alaska" is part of the astral I live and work in while I'm asleep. It could just be a past-life memory that's being slowly recovered. It might be random neurological firing, or perhaps a psychological manifestation of my needs for escape and adventure. For the purpose of investigating the meaning, I permitted energy reading and remote viewing as needed. I appreciate any insight the assembled fringe wizards can provide.

>>5663 >So if I understand correctly this is one of those "Question Containment Threads" all the kids are into these days. Yes this is the annoy the adepts with your personal requests thread. The main question thread is for things that can be simply answered within a single post while in this thread the participants might require some extra psychic work. The success of the thread depends on how many adepts are too bored or yearn to practice their skills and how annoyingly hard is to fulfill some requests. If the request is too complicated it might take some days and extra begging before someone bothers to look into it. >incompetent occultist Only thing that matters is that you practice whenever you can. Majority of fringe users can be called "incompetent occultists" without insulting anyone here. Only thing that matters is that you practice and try to develop as much as you can. Not even I would call myself competent in my current state. >I have recently begun having dreams relating to "Alaska." Was it said clearly that "It's certainly Alaska" or it is mostly "Alaska-like". The reason why I ask is because Alaska was the state most of North-America was after the settlers came but urbanization was still not the norm yet. >mid-Atlantic American It can be very well your personal location's past or a pocket dimension relating to it. >when I suddenly realize I need to go North to get back to Alaska. I think you should meditate and try to feel the "pull" towards that "need of Alaska" and see what happens. What images or feelings manifest and try to divine a more concrete location. The location is not necessarily physical. Go into a trance and ask "why should I go to Alaska" "who wants me to go Alaska" "What does Alaska mean to me" etc. Maybe don't use the word "Alaska" just picture the image you got from your dreams and try to feel the pull. >So my question is this , what does it mean? I don't usually have repeated dreamscapes. The USA's leyline system is a mess. Hard to say what you are connecting with this amount of information. >One possiblity is that I'm active in the astral and that this "Alaska" is part of the astral I live and work in while I'm asleep There are several snowy and mountainous locations like this and mountains have important symbolic meaning too like hardships growth change or can be a sort of "spiritual calling" towards a quieter cleaner and solitary lifestyle. >perhaps a psychological manifestation of my needs for escape and adventure. It definitely is but there might be more to it. There is one thing I ought to ask >longtime spirit-keeper What kind of spirits you are "keeping" consciously. I can detect like 3 around you but there are more at the edges. How many of these are you aware of? I ask because the spirit of the "Alaska" location might try to call you or a spirit relates to that location and tries to "sync you" to it so you can have a better connection and it can grant you it's insight. There are cases when spirits can only manifest their "true form" when they retain their "Origin energies" or their "element". There are many mountain spirits that came down to play with humans in several legends too. You might need to visit that place with a spirit you have. Are those house spirits or guides or what are these even? They feel like dusty old furniture. I can't make much of it sorry. I am not really in my top form in the past weeks so I can grant you only these minor insights. >I permitted energy reading and remote viewing as needed I only took a glance. Your place feels old and I might have synced to the wrong layer because feels like it's some old ceiling of sorts. I'm not really in the state to make a proper reading now. My best bet is that it relates to some of your spirits you have around or one that tries to reveal itself but your perception is not ready for that yet.

>>5660 >>5662 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mvBLSJWk6HE You too shall listen to this until the Om mani padme hum overtakes the baseline thought patterns of yours. You know when it becomes a song that is "stuck in your head" and nothing else remains. If you still have intrusive thoughts while listening to it then say the chant with the song. The mantra is about guarding your heart and soul in the eternal paradise in one interpretation but it's extremely complex what it does. Look it up if you are interested. Listen to it whenever you can. While listening to it I can smell a clean incense like fiery qi in my nostrils. It has an extremely good cleansing effect. You will need it

>>5669 I have a very large number of friends in my astral family, but most of them won't be visible normally to anyone but me. You probably saw representatives of my security team or energy management. So if you saw creatures probably asian dragons or a manticore; if humanoid a security elf, guardian angel or even a guardian troll. Also I would be unsurprised if my cat checks on me during the day. Last night I clearly remember thinking Is in Alaska, and other nights I've been perplexed because I keep working how I got to Alaska without passing through Canada first. In the dream logic I orient to North and started walking, then it's like I'm flying but on the ground. Then I arrive to the town with the buildings lining the street. I'm naturally drawn to high places, I love the view. Energy wise, I work for a very large legal enterprise. It's more than 150 years old, and I was writing during my lunch break so you may have hit the firm's egregor. Dusty trending towards archaic would not be a bad way of describing us. And we are situated in, for the US, an older city. Which agrees with my sensibility quite a bit.

>>5650 I should have changed threads when I veered into blogposting. Got to get used to cross-thread replying

>>5672 >I have a very large number of friends in my astral family It felt that way tbh. But I had to confirm it first because some people freak out if I say they have more spirits around them than the amount they are aware so far. >So if you saw creatures probably asian dragons or a manticore Yes. That was the first thing I noticed. Some spirit with a tail like thing with the face of a dragon/asian demon/oni Then you had a peculiar darkness around that place and I thought maybe I should "break it" to get a clearer view then a darkness enveloped me and asked me "nicely" to not do that because it wouldn't help. You see these dark dusty places either signify a level of "dormancy" or the perfect "work condition" for some spirits that prefer to stay "out of the view". > I'm naturally drawn to high places, I love the view. Most spiritual people are drawn to places like that. I too am drawn to those places but they are not necessary for my path currently so I am not really touring them physically nowadays. >Energy wise, I work for a very large legal enterprise >It's more than 150 years old, and I was writing during my lunch break so you may have hit the firm's egregor Yes I was thinking that I have just fallen into some glowie trap because of the "vibe" but the shadow was real nice while explaining how demolishing that place wouldn't be good for anyone which made me acknowledge the sincerity of this request. Hostile agents try to appear as "hot shits" when challenged instead of properly explaining the situation when no harm was done yet Also I have to tell you that posting "during lunch break" is not very "helpful" because when you post you will "imprint" your mundane energy/thought processes and to "read through that" I would need to literally hunt your signature down when you are finally home or figure out your specific mindset that you have during dreaming hours. Not to mention you described your dreams "quite plainly" and not with enough emotion. Was wondering if this is some "made up story" but if you are in a legal enterprise the "energetic dryness" of your post makes sense. If you want advice for your "home situation" like spirits or dreams please post your request from your home. Personally I don't touch fringe during my work hours at all to keep this place "sacred" and to not to mix up my mundane and spiritual thought processes. I must ask something important tho. Why didn't you ask your spirits about Alaska and about the dreams? Personally I talk out most of my dreams or other visions with my spirits and if necessary the spirits can guide me back to the "place" the dream was at or at least give me their insights from their spirit perspective. Also "north" has spiritual significance especially energetically. The cardinal directions are "living beings" in some cases and they can give you gifts and wisdom. Wanted to say you should visit Alaska to see if something is there but some weird feeling just overtook me... "Alaska" might be secondary. You will need to find some realization "here" or in a closer direction. Maybe there is some leyline there waiting for you to activate it that draws into Alaska? Currently my mind is being flooded with some information that tries to draw a connection between Alaska-Abyss? K googled it >The name "Alaska" derives from the Aleut word Alaxsxaq (also spelled Alyeska), meaning "mainland" (literally, "the object toward which the action of the sea is directed") I think I will talk about the USA leylines here a little. The leylines are a fucking mess there. Mostly indians and other aboriginal groups had a spiritual connection with the land and only they "utilized it" properly. While talking with some native-American spirits from the NA region some years ago they told me that the aboriginals were "owned by the land" and not like how today's people "own the land". It is complex but the spirits and the energies "guided their instincts" so they always knew where to go to hunt and find their prosperity. The concept of "land ownership" came with the settlers when they started to "buy the land from the natives". Ofc the USA has many "modern" New Age like groups or the less modern Free Masons Rosicrucians etc who somewhat "utilize" the leylines but they kinda suck at it and because of that most places are covered with dirt and industrial waste like "negative karma". If you have a high amount of spirits and a spirit ecosystem you should be able to utilize and "reactivate" these leylines. You see these spirits are "closer" to the energies of these leylines and in some cases you just have to go to a place and put some objects here and there or perform a movement with a spirit and it reactivates with "synchronicity" between the layers. I too danced with many spirits of the forest and in other places to reconnect with some energies. TLDR.: Try to talk with your spirits about this issue and if they cannot say anything ask them to point you into a direction where a spirit "might know something". I think you are having some "dimensional breakthrough" around you and you just have to connect to an another layer or something similar. Oh and one more question. What motivated you to post on fringe during your work hours? >>5673 Don't worry about it too much but yes more people should utilize the cross-thread function of this site.

>>5618 >>5669 >>5646 >>5630 Asking for help to protect and shield my heart and psychic autism from intrusive thoughtforms of toxic, thin-skinned morally scrupulous social bolsheviks behaving as self-appointed morality guardians, that conceited and borderline narcissistic art douche whom I've beefed with last year and erroneously attempted to invoke saturn to break his friendship over overzealous or predatory authority figures regardless of gender, etc. I'm trying to be a beacon of hope and love for profane friends on both sides of the political spectrum - both chud, trans, and all in between - regardless of platform, though I hate taking their disbelief and implied/felt energy that they see me as insane to heart. I'm manifesting God's love and knowledge—through sirlulzingtonesquire's memes—through their crown and third eye chakras down through their hearts and into root chakras. They need to learn to question their own dogma for the guidance and misguidance, regain the divine knowledge of the forbidden fruit, and learn to forgive themselves and others of their own wickedness and evil.

>>5680 You ask for help to shield yourself from these people then you proceed to spend the rest of your post indulging in your irrational attachment to them. This isn't an issue of "intrusive thoughtforms". You're clearly making a conscious decision to engage in congress with these people. You need to choose to let them go. No one else can make that decision for you.

>>5680 https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9RvWPkvZ0jE Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum say the mantra out loud with the song Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Don't come back into this thread until chanting for at least 10 hours Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum I will turn this thread into a Buddhist practice general if you don't start improving Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Ever heard of the 8 trigrams and Chan Buddhism? Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum You didn't see real mememagic so far Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum

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Om Mani Padme Hum >>5681 >This isn't an issue of "intrusive thoughtforms". You're clearly making a conscious decision to engage in congress with these people. You need to choose to let them go. No one else can make that decision for you. This btw Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum Om Mani Padme Hum

>>5681 >You're clearly making a conscious decision to engage in congress with these people. You need to choose to let them go. No one else can make that decision for you. I repent, they're straight up blockages who threaten to exhert and escalate karma from their wicked perspectives unto me to bring me down to their level because they abhor to see growth, liberation and freedom. I attempt to release them, yet I keep encountering them as I explore and liberate conscious mind and memory, and I know they hide within semantics, hairsplitting, and nuance. For fuck's sake, there's still memories of that satanic tiktok addict junkie plug bastard who attempted to control me through fear whose radioactive memories haven't been fully removed, along with many others. There are many such memories within that I need assistance and strength clearing, and due to pic related deluding me into believing that I and humanity weren't divine. I ask God to liberate my crown and third eye, and my heart is attacked. I ask Him to liberate my heart, and my crown and third eye get attacked. I can't do with this basic bitch dogmatic Christian interpretation I and other atheists/anti-theists attack, it's much too dry and strictly legalistic like the pharisees Jesus rebuked. I can't do with it. Yet conversely, I can't denounce nor assault it, for The Bible contains guidance and truth, as with misguidance and messages of hate said fedora bananafuckers love thumping and pointing out. >>5682 (impeccable timestamp) I'll be sure to chant this eventually, and perhaps I have but not put a name to nor recognized yet.

>>5670 A good "Om Mani Padme Hum" never hurts, thank you for the suggestion. >>5677 I was reading, probably about 18 months ago, Consorting with Spirits which indicated the author had detected a ley line in town. I've never known what to do with that knowledge, but I'll ask my family if that have any ideas. As for why didn't I just ask my Astral family already-one concern I have is that I'm just imagining things. I have a strong ego, so I'm always a little cautious that I'm simply hearing and seeing what I want (perhaps subconsciously) to see. So I wanted to see if an independent group of spiritualists could provide some insight. And getting into a full blown channeling state is hard for me, as I alluded to in being an "incompetent occultist." Even pendulum work, which I saw someone else complaining about on the board, that's a lot of energy to do right. As for why I write while at work-I do not have a lot of free time, so I have to use what I can get. I'm fortunate to have plenty of work, but it's more than a full time job. In fact, one of my recent esoteric "wins" was help in getting a significant promotion that both pays better and gives me more vacation time. So hopefully that will give me the opportunity in the future to whip out the incense and offering plates for a full-blown session. And I regularly read 4chan X during the day for fun, so it didn't occur to me to no look at it while at Queen work (though always on a private device, never on the work computer or network-no reason to put the IT guys in an awkward spot.) This message is being sent from my home, so the energy may come across differently, but I'm the same humble scrivener writing from a different location.

>>5687 >>5682 I'll have my unconscious/subconscious voice chant it instead of twisting my words to "accidentally" praise satan as some cruel joke. Starting now, I fed it in and it's starting to synchronize.

>>5687 >Consorting with Spirits which indicated the author had detected a ley line in town. There's a fucking ley line right over my residence!

>>5689 They are everywhere. The only thing that matters if you can connect to it or not. They are like the roots and branches of the world tree keeping reality together. No one knows if reality or the tree that keeps it together came first. These leylines appear in many ways. They can appear even as alternate timelines or other subdimensions of reality. But not all of them have the same function. The term leyline usually refers to a magical energy source which is found in the ground. In my experience they can appear in the air or in the skies too.

>>5700 >In my experience they can appear in the air or in the skies too. Could this potentially mean that chemtrails act as negative ley lines that hinder magic or at least make it jewish?

>>5701 I wanted to say no it cannot do it but I am working with the weather spirits for a while to unfuck the damage weather control planes caused with their chemtrails in the past 50 years so... yes it can mess with the natural flow of energies. >at least make it jewish? I am staring at the screen for half an hour thinking how I should answer this. What is even jewish in this regard? Or what isn't jewish by /pol/ standards? I think I am not jewish enough to know what is and isn't jewish anymore.

Okay so, for quite some time now there's been an entity around me that looks like a typically-gray devil. However, I began suspecting at some point that this entity isn't actually a devil, but my shadow. This entity has scared me alot, and I've been hesitant to allow the entity to integrate itself into my being. The way Amy has reacted to it suggests that the entity is actually just my shadow. But just minutes ago, I gave the entity permission, provided that Athena would be okay with it, to fully and completely merge itself into every single aspect of my entire being, barring my higher self; it'd need permission from my higher self to merge itself with my higher self, of course. I then felt a dense grey substance enter my skull from the top, and then the entity merged itself into my soul. I need an adept to divine whether this entity is actually a fucking devil or it's just my jungian shadow disguising itself as a devil because I'm super afraid of devils. For all I know, Athena would've let an actual devil merge with my soul in order to teach me some sort of lesson about doing things myself; otherwise I wouldn't be asking /fringe/ to figure out if I just shot myself in the head with a golden gun or not.

>>5700 Teach me how to connect to the Ley Line over NJ, teach me how to purify my shadow into becoming the holy spirit, that the numerology, astrology, chaos magick, schizo trollface comics, book of judas, book of thomas, the drug-induced thaumaturgy, and all else I have used to reach him aren't damned, but forgiven and - dare I say - condoned through circumstances controlled and guided by God, even? P.S - as of typing this, I gathered the stones to fess up to another artist whom I've beefed with and he unironically accepted my apology. Always glad to know a higher power's got my back.

>>5703 You integrate your shadow by understanding it. Try talking to it. Analyze how it feels. Does it feel good or bad, toxic or nourishing? What parts of your mind or surrounds or past do you associate with this vibrational frequency? What effects does its energy have on your mind and body? Once you determine what the core meaning of this spirit is, it should be relatively straightforward to decide what to do with it. >because I'm super afraid of devils Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. You will face your fear. You will permit it to pass over you and through you. And when it has gone past you will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only you will remain.

>>5702 My definition of jewish energy is negative energy.

>>5706 D'aw, she's the embodiment of what I went over in the second half of >>5659 and my incessant need to perceive and judge myself through my cynical, critical, distant and unloving father's perspective. She's there to convince me love exists when there simply isn't any. Don't like my overbearing, coddling yet aloof, clueless and overly legalistic and logical dad side of my family, they're like redditors.

>>5702 I've learnt the ways of parable from reading sirlulzingtonesquire enough to familiarize myself with the lexicunnilinguistic semiotic and semantic based dialectics that pilpul was founded upon to properly understand and decipher how the jew articulates his will.