>>14283
Idk if you're even the BO to be honest, but fuck it, maybe I'll make a high effort femboy-zoo split screen comp just to ban someone for the lol. I don't really want to ban anyone though, I'd rather get a post deleted instead, or see a tribute vid of you enjoying whatever I made. I'm not trying to take away anyone's God given right to free and accessible animal porn.
>>14284
First of all, you're correct. I admit I'm being childish and embarrassing myself, but this is the culmination of a lot of irl shit stressing me tf out right now, so I'm giving myself permission to be a fool and be a crybaby since this does genuinely upset me to an embarrassing degree. Nothing you have said is incorrect, I agree with everything you've said (well, maybe not the "value level" comment, but that's moreso because I'm still feeling petty). That doesn't change the fact I'm butthurt. I've still tried to convey myself as being as self-aware about this as possible even though it won't make me look like any less of a baby. I just want to say you're right, but also vent my frustrations at the same time, have it both ways.
Secondly... I don't want to give a straight answer to the question because I'm not going to allow people to retroactively say my stuff is mid to get a rise out of me.
I've laid out exactly who I am for a fair few people, along with the dozens of projects I've made over the past five years for different sites and this board alike, but nobody ever cares. Nobody gives a rat's ass who I am, I'm not important. All that matters is I make them cum. I feel lower than a porn star. I've made more people cum repeatedly than most OnlyFans models, but I'm more forgettable by far. Nobody cares about my usernames, only the projects I've made that are their favorites. Nobody wants to get to know me on a personal level, they just want to schmooze up to me in hopes I'll share more porn and make more comps. I've never sold my comps like some people, I've never teased my comps like some people, and I've NEVER stolen other people's comps and claimed to have made them myself like some people... Every friend I've made or love I've experienced because of my comps have always minimized me to being simply that.
To me, they're a real person with hobbies and passions, who I've gotten to know better over a period of time. To them, I'm still just the person who makes porn comps and edits, no matter how hard I've tried to be seen as more than that to those I open up to.
Like yeah, it's embarrassing that this is a big deal to me, but fuck dude. I've even spoken to my sexual abuse therapist about these shallow internet and irl experiences, and neither he nor his colleagues could offer any advice beyond just quitting the hobby or not sharing the stuff I make. Touch grass, go outside, as if I don't do that already. I just have this niche fetish hobby that I enjoy in my free time, and I've gotten popular in multiple places because of how good I've gotten at it, but I always, always get hurt by the very same people who I enjoy sharing my work with.
So yeah. When I get a sought-after vid, call it mid, see people want it anyway, tell everyone I'll share it as long as one person shares a popular vid to the thread that I know half the board has downloaded, just to have people bitch at me for doing exactly what they're doing... I reserve the right to be a fool, make my incoherent business yalls business because it's not like my therapist understands how I'm feeling, and stiffen up the atmosphere in hopes of having one person sympathize with the pathetic predicament I've voluntarily put myself in...
I shouldn't even post this reply at this point, but fuck it, I need to vent and to feel like I'm heard by someone even if nobody cares, even if it's not even read by anyone. Give me grace for being such a fool please. I just need to exist in a vulnerable, anonymous, public state right now. I'm sorry for being a whiny little bitch, and for schizo posting.
>>14288
Thank you OP, your contributions are greatly appreciated. It's nice having a vast collection of projects all in one place, so thank you for allowing us all access to these files. It puts a slight smile on my face, which is saying a lot right now. I hope you're having a good day, and get unexpectedly struck by good fortune soon.